I Got The Job!

[Lauren M]

I applied at the post office a few weeks ago, took the postal exam and passed but I didn't think they would select me. I usually don't get call backs because of poor work history or I get scared and punk out of scheduled interviews. In the past, I always got distracted by daydreams and missed job opportunities. I used to have a major fear that employment would take up too much time. I feared I wouldn't be able to daydream and it would make me miserable and I'd quit. Instead of finding out if my fears held any truth, I always steered clear of job opportunities. Now that I'm doing so well with less daydreaming, I'm trying employment.  I start orientation on Monday. :)

Has anyone else had the same issues with motivation for employment or if you currently work, do you have fears that you'll quit because it's taking too much time away from your daydreams?

[Lauren M]

@Telepsa thanks for your input. I'm still working and I find it very true that daydreaming has to be put on a schedule. I go to therapy and even my therapist said to schedule it and not quit cold turkey because it could come back with a vengeance. She says it's something I really want to do, that's why I do it. It's like smoking, drinking or any other addiction. The best way may be to slowly quit.

[Telepsa]

Congratulations, and yes! I've always had this fear that I would feel trapped in a meaningless job... but I think scheduling your DD to fit in your day may actually give you a sense of accomplishment. Think of it this way - by controlling yourself and advancing yourself, you feel more in control. Feeling more in control reduces stress. Reducing stress means you may actually feel the HUGE urge to DD go away and instead leave you in control; If you DD it's your choice, and a reward. 

Hope everything goes well!

[Lauren M]

Elina, Sky, thank you both for your support. Something you might want to look into, when you're ready, is seeing a career psychologist. A few days ago, I saw someone specifically for career/job related phobias and to match me to the jobs that best suit my personality and condition. The doctor didn't specifically recommend I work at the post office but I'd already applied for the job before I saw her. She did suggest taking a night job or something with low supervision. I think seeing a psychologist regularly along with my employment will help.

[Elīna]

Congratulations on the new job! For me the issue is that the DD take too much of my time away so I don't do my studies :( Best luck to you with managing working and DD, I have a feeling that you will be able to work it out :)

[Sky with Diamonds]

I am currently looking for a steady job, and yes, i do worry about if i would be able to handle it. I very briefly held one job for less than a week, due to it being extremely face paced and my anxiety and stress was at an all time high. I quit on the spot and felt like a complete loser. After that, i knew i was dropping out of school, and soon my family would know the truth. The day i quit was honestly the closets ive come to attempting suicide, just because of the total worthlessness and hoplessness i felt. It took me an enire year to find another job, and now im looking once again. And i am so scared. Im scared ill never be able to really function in society. Anyways, congradulations on your new job! It sounds like you will be just fine, working while having MDD :)