The title says it all.There are times i really want  a boyfriend. All my friends have one n at times i feel that even  want to have someone in my life. But the problem is that im scared that if i get into a relationship i will sacrifice my MD. I feel that because of being preoccupied with the relationship i will stop daydreaming . i have been dding for so long that now if feel that it is a part of  me and if i ignore it,it will be like betraying myself and also the characters of my daydreams…

I imagined my character finding love. I saw her went through hardships. I imagined her meeting him. I imagined her getting pregnant. I imagined two beautiful fraternal twin--a girl and a boy. I could feel the love for these two children. They were beautiful with the color of their father's eyes and hairs.

What I couldn't imagine was love. I couldn't imagined how intense their love is or how it develop. I couldn't bring this man to life. I can't truly feel him.

This…

I think many of you also have trouble staying focused when you are trying to work or study.

I find that sometimes I go into a "MDD tailspin" when I have a lot of work/ or important work to do. I remember distinctly that when it came to studying I was always distracted by my MDD. I also have an underlying hyper vigilance that usually gets in the way.

I found this online site/ company called focus@will

Here are some links:…

 I am finding that when I go on a MD binge that I don't take care of the house like I should. Dishes pile up. Piles of dirty clothes. Not picking up after myself.  Then, I come off my binge and then try to detox my house. 

It’s a rare night.

Sleepless. Slightly haunted. In a good way though.

Feeling the memories of past nights reverberate in my bones.

My skin remembers what my head does not.

Things that other people said to me echo in my brain like I just heard it yesterday

But it has been so much longer than that.

Everything feels so far away.

I’m behind a veil.

I’m looking sideways.

I feel a thousand things that I said before on my lips tonight again.

I’m aching…

There's a girl I've been seeing for a long time. She changes, evolves. I meet her different places, we have different first dates. 

Sometimes we bump into each other at a convenience store, sometimes she's a new employee at clients business I work with. She's just like me, she likes the same things I do. She understands me, supports me. We talk about stuff I like to talk about. Supercomputers, video games, she has it all.

I've come to realize that just about…

I need some thoughts on this situation that a friend of my friend is going through.She is unhappy and hurts everyone both intentionally and unintentionally and does not know what she wants. she has no friends, only "friends" for the sake of hell as she described. Is it okay to hurt others to be yourself? even if you dont know who you are?

I didn't receive the type of validation and attention that children should receive. I don't think many of us did.  It caused me in my teens and early 20s to struggle for an acceptance and validation that cannot be found outside of one's parents. I think it's an issue many people struggle with, whether or not they have daydreams. 

What makes it interesting enough for me to post about it though is how these issues are affecting my daydreams. My assistant manager at my job is, in short,…

I posted this in the Famous Project thread that escarei started, but I thought I would share here separately, for those who aren't following that post.

I got into character as Alex and conducted my own real interview. It was a lot of fun! I hope more of you make videos like this, even if you just give us the raw, uncut footage. It would be really interesting to me!…

So here's the thing. I used to love maladaptive daydreaming because it gave me a safer happier world to rely on. But now I realized, I could've had so much more in life if I didn't spend hours and hours daydreaming. If I'm not listening to music and pacing in the room, I'm zoning out during study time and engaging in scene playing in my head. Either that or I allow myself to sleep for a period of thirty minutes just so I could engage in some sort of fantasy in my head which then turns into 2…

Hello everyone. I am so glad to have found this site. I am a 50 year old woman who for most of my life thought I was insane because I could not get these voices in my head to go away.  I was convinced that I was schizophrenic because I could not get the noise to stop no matter how much I prayed, begged or medicated myself I think I have been on every anti depressant there is. Of course I was depressed because there was so much I wanted to do but could not because I could not focus. I have…

I daydream excessive because of life. It became hard and I need a release. When there are too much to bear and too much to feel I turn them into stories in my head so that the burden may be lighter.

I am not like some people that say they feel alone in a group of friends, but I understand their feeling. I can sympathy with them—the feeling of being an outsider in group where people know each other. I can understand how my MD developed. I was lonely and hurt. I was afraid and…

I've had it. I'm completely at my wits end with all the nonsense. Here's the deal. I have had it with all the people blaming MD for ruining their lives. Regardless of popular belief, MD is NOT uncontrollable and if we ever want to be taken seriously about it we have to be very careful of how 'normal' people understand and perceive it, because I personally don't want society to learn incorrect or blown out of proportion ideas and assumptions about it ,then have myself prescribed on the next…

wowo its been such a long time ive come here . almost a month.. ihave to type fast cuz if mom sees me on the computer and not studying shell scream at me...

the last 2 months have been the most difficult months of my life.. in college i failed for 5 subjects..i couldnt face my classmates after that. evryone knew i had failed because the professors read out the name of failures in the class...

my mom was furious with me... now im under 24 hr surveillance by her ..

i feel so fed…

I told one of the guys in my college class about my MD. Before I told him, I had to watch how he reacted to similar things and he reacted just fine. When I told him, he was very supporting and even recommended me to his teacher/ therapist. I really wanted someone professional to talk to so tomorrow me and his teacher/therapist are going to talk about my MD.

Before you talk to anyone close about your MD, watch them react to different types of situations before even considering…