Last night I told my mom about everything. I tried to start it off as no big deal, but naturally, I ended up crying and saying stuff that didn't even make sense.

She was really nice about it, which honestly makes it worse for me. I feel like the biggest dissapointment ever as a kid. Which I know is wrong, because I didn't ask for this, it's no one's fault. She's thinking I might have a mild case of Asperger's. When she said that I blew up. I was surprised at how upset I…

yeah,

although my DD decreased a lot, there are still days (like these) where I'm flooded by external triggers and the unstoppable fantasies become almost law. So here am I, due to the needing of express my self.

Will be the sweet smell of spring's flowers, or the impalpable rain of pollen that envelops me when going to the university, it seems to me i've passed a breaking point, there is no more way to hold them, and then i start DD.

Ok, DD is creativity but losing the…

So, I once again have fifteen minutes before class, and rather then die of boredom, I have decided to write about life. Not life in general, because that subject would be much to broad, but more specifically the recent events within my life, and all the wonderful lessons I have learned.

To sum it all up, without boring you, over the past few weeks I have aced tests, failed tests, had several panic attacks, and cried of joy. I have lost a competition, and been bullied to the…

               I feel that DD has made me shy. I use to not be shy in 6th grade I was loud and made many friends. I have lots of friends still but I am shy and dont talk to much. I feel that I do not have a personality sometimes. For two years I have been going to a high school but had to move my jr year. I hated moving away from a place i felt confortable. I managed to over comming my fears and made lots of friends. My problem is just talking to them. Its not that I do not want to bt I feel…

Hello MDers,

I know I have posted numerous amounts of blogs involving questions like How should I tell my parents about MD? Should I tell them at all? How did your parents react to those of you who told? And blah, blah, blah. Well, I finally told them what has been going on for…

So most of my characters have pretty strange or obscure names, so I've actually never officially met anyone with the same name as a character. I'm going treeplanting over the summer, so I'll basically be spending three months with the same 25 or so people (hopefully I like them, haha). The foreman has been sending us emails and I just realized that one of the guys in the crew has the same name as a character of mine. Has anyone known anyone with the same name as a character? Is it incidental…

My therapist actually came up with "Maladaptive Daydreaming/Compulsive Fantasy" while google searching the symptoms that I explained to her. Funny. I spent several years doing that, and she comes up with it in a day. Go figure. She asked me if I would ever consider stepping out of my creative world and into reality completely. I said that I would like to manage it better and then move on from there. To tell you the truth, I'm not sure that I would KNOW how to be Cassandra anymore. I'm so…

I feel my life isnt as fun as my dd's. I rather have magic and do fun things than this regular boring life.

Does yone else feel this way?

Okay, in my DD, I have one character who has been around since I started (at the start, sometimes she was me and sometimes she was her, now she's just her and I'm me) and I always called her Girlie (not sure why. Like a little kid calls (somehow I typed 'also' instead of 'calls'. What?) their stuffed animal things like Fluffy, Woofer, Uni, based on either the animal or it's looks) and I later realised, because I occasionally introduced her to friends (In the DD, and these scenarios never…

How can you not see

How can you not understand

Stop being selfish 

When I try so hard

To always be there for you

Stop being selfish

You do as you please

You view life through a mirror

Stop being selfish

Sometimes I…

Everyone else seem to say things like, "I always wondered whether I was the only one who did this" and "I thought this was normal when I was younger but now I see it's not" and stuff.

The thing is, I never thought about it, I just did it. I never wondered if it was normal, if anyone else did it, if maybe it was a mental disorder or whatever, I just daydreamed. Is there even one other person who never wondered that stuff here, o am I the only one?

(P.s. I heard…

          ive heard of drawing you characters but everytime ive tried i felt really uncomfortable drawing them for some reason. i can get them to look the way i want to so i hate the drawing. i have them all in my drawer and im hoping one day my mom isnt like "lol whos this" because that would be awkward.



           but in art we got an assigment to make a sculpture of a person out of clay, and then were going to paint them and stuff, and i was excited because im going to make one…

I realize how easily I can day dream and how often I do it. It sucks sometimes when I daze out on tests (like my oh so important Taks today). I try not to dd but before I know it I do. I need to start having some self control I feel bad because when I am in the car and have my headphones people want to talk to me but I rather dd. I also want to gt rid of this before it causes bigger problems. I just wonder how to stop when I have no self control. Hopefully I wont daze out on my math.