Where wild minds come to rest
I have taken time to read a lot of blog posts on this site and read people's stories.
It almost comforts me to know that there are people here that encourage each
other and can relate because we all know what maladaptive daydreaming feels
like. One thing is true, we all daydream because we are missing something in
the real world. Me, well i'm missing a girl in my life. In fact, you can read all
about my life problems in my other two blogs. I hate maladaptive daydreaming.
It makes me want to kill myself. I need to see a therapist, i know it...it just hurts
so much now. I told my mom about my daydreaming but she can't help a lot.
Maybe a therapist will...I am so numb from smoking weed every day and
watching life go by. It hurts to know that maladaptive daydreaming screwed up
my life. I am 17 now. Sometimes i daydream about all the opportunities that i
watched go by. I work now, play hockey but I want a more social life, especially
on the weekends. I wish I got a job earlier, I wish I played hockey when I was a
kid. But even when I was a kid, md made me a procrastinator. I daydream while
doing everything but I know if I wasn't daydreaming I would be performing
better. I feel so hurt. I feel so empty. I just need to meet more girls and I will be
happy. I just need to get drunk on the weekends. I just need to
concentrate. I just need to get rid of md. I hate md. I hate md. I hate md. I hate
md. I hate md. I hate md. I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!! I can only go forward, no matter how
hard I wish I could go back...I must make the best of the rest of my life. One thing is true,
everyone on this website is depressed. I admit it. I am depressed because I am a
dumb stoner, I was always fucking dumb because of md. Because it made me not
able to concentrate on the moment. I am depressed cause I might not have a
prom date. I am so sad...........................................................................................................So
sad........................I am also so fucked up in the head. I think I will be happy if I
put my dick in some chick................But i would be happy if that
happened.................................................And if i had a girlfriend that I cared about and loved. I know deep inside...........I would be happy. And you know what people.
I don't know you people in real life but I love and care about you because you guys know
what it is like. Mding is like falling forever. Because all you do is contradict
yourself in your head. And you know what people, we all have goals, we all have a
main goal, and we all have something missing and we all daydream because we
want what we dont have and you know what people!!!!!!!!!!!! I made a list of all
the shit I read on this site that helped people stop daydreaming or daydreaming
less and I put it all on this blog! because together, we are going to fucking stop
daydreaming. My plan is to see a therapist! I see my family doctor in 3 days.
Then I will ask for a reccomendation for a therapist and I will ask for adhd pills because I took
them before and they help me concentrate but I stopped because wack side
effects. (loss of appetite, extreme fatigue at night)
Please people, read my other two blogs, it pretty much explains my life
goals...Fuck it feels so good to get everything out. And when I see a therapist, I
can tell her about my mental disorder called maladaptive daydreaming and
hopefully she can help me. I actually told you guys my thoughts. you guys
probably think I am so fucked up. Truth is, we're all fucked up. I am the most
fucked up my life problem is so fucked up, I destroyed myself with all these daydreams. All i care about is
getting pussy and you people probably think I am fucked up for this. But you
know what, at least I said it. And i never told anyone this because I am scared
that people will think I am fucked up. Not fucked up for liking girls lol but
fucked because its my goal in life right now. And i'm sad because I can't
achieve my goals cause of daydreaming. But you guys dont know me in real life,
you just know what it feels like; a curse. I love my family, I like my friends, some
more than others. Now just one more thing. Once I accomplish my goal, I will be
able to live life, and even if i daydream, I won't be depressed. I won't feel the need to stay in my bed every morning and daydream for like an hour before
getting up and taking a shower. Starting right now,
I will do my best at everything I do. Tomorrow, when I wake up, I'm going to try
my best to go straight to the shower. I just need a therapist to help me. I need
perseverance. I need your guys help and tips and encouragement. I need love.
I need my life, happy as can be.
How to stop maladaptive daydreaming (based on the blogs i've read on this site)
Concerta - adhd medication (what my doctor prescribed me for md)
Zyprexa –treatment for schizophrenia and bipolar disorder
Vyvanse – treatment for adhd
Fluvoxamine – anti depressant
Serdolect- treatment for schizhophrenia
Private subconscious mind treatment
Wearing something on yourself to remind you to not daydream
Finding that “clear spot” in your head by concentrating on something for a few moments and increasing that time gradually
How to daydream less
Avoiding your triggers
Common triggers: listening to music, playing video games, reading certain books, watching television, lying in bed after you wake up, going to certain websites, when trying to problem solve (although this can be useful).
Being around people and socializing
Getting involved in activities that you enjoy (for me its playing ice hockey and biking)
Getting involved in activities that you might not enjoy but require concentration (for me its going to the gym)
Being busy, running errands, avoid procrastination, looking at every chance as an opportunity to focus better, having a job is good, try to make a weekly checklist of goals that should be accomplished
We might not be able to get rid of our md forever so its important to learn how to control it well in our every day lives. Its going to take persistence and effort every single day.
What I Usually Daydream About
My daydreams usually rotate around me as the main character. I imagine myself having conversations with people I know in real life.
Smoking weed makes me daydream more and have more intense daydreams. Sometimes it'll make me realize something.
I daydream about everything though.
Sometimes i daydream about my future, sometimes i daydream about people i see on the bus, sometimes i daydream about society, sometimes i daydream about people and the world and how the world was created and what is our point on this earth, sometimes I daydream about why we can't all just get along, regardless of race and religion. Why do we feel the need of forcing our opinions and ideas into other people? I mean your opinion should be heard and respected and so should everybody's but doesn't mean you have to believe in it.
Take Concerta (ADHD medication my family doctor prescribed me) every day for a month and see how things go
Start seeing a therapist (maybe a cognitive behavior therapist)
At the same time make an effort to talk to everyone
Make an effort to work hard at everything you do
Change your negative thoughts into positive ones
Don’t give a shit about what people think about you
Go to the gym
Do “personal development” to raise your self confidence
Remember that none of your daydreams will ever come true unless you work towards them; tell yourself that whenever you daydream
Look at your daydreams as a goal, but remember you have to work towards that goal, procrastinating won’t do anything