(To start with I want to say this post was inspired by a blog by Roobles. Thanks Roobles!)

I think that more people than you could ever imagine have MD. Think about how many people might not have access to a computer and therefore wouldn't be able to find this website or any other website about MD. And then there are the people who just have never bothered to actually search to find out what they might actually have. A lot of people say when they first join this site that they've had…

I caved yesterday. And while I am disappointed in myself I also think the period of time without the DDs was a good learning experience. I learned that I could actually quit (if even for a short period of time) and I've learned a lot about my triggers. 

I've given up on quitting (although I am going to make more of an effort not to do it as much, or at least not while other people are around) and here are my reasons (or excuses. Depends on how you wanna look at it).

While it is…

This is gonna be a tough couple days. I have the next three days off so I'll be home alone. Its gonna make things difficult. Actually tuesday most of the day I'll be working at my second job but today and tomorrow anyway will be hard. So here's my game plan:

First of all I've found that when I occupy myself with other things I tend not to DD. So I'm writing myself out a specific schedule, as detailed as I can make it, and make sure that every second of my time is accounted for so I…

So it has now been 3 full days with no DDs. I'm proud but at the same time my confidence is starting to waver. I had the day off today and was alone most of the day in the house so it was a hard day. But I made it through.

A lot of times when I start to quit (this time included) I find myself almost arguing with myself over whether I should start up again. Its kind of like the whole devil/angel on the shoulders thing. The "devil" (not the actual devil. I'm not having satanic…