Attention gotten? FABULOUS!

Now what? o_O

Well frankly I've been sad and anxious and when I say anxious I mean: HOLY CRAP IM ANXIOUS!

Something I'm frustrated…

Thank God that summer is here and school is over. I was really worried that dd would ruin me like my freshman and half my soph year. I was dd so much back then I did really bad at school. This time though I didnt let it mess meup. I am proud to ay I got A's and B's :)

I joined track and have been hanging out with friends. I am glad to have them in my life they are amazing and have helped keep dd far from me. Its weird…

It's very difficult to write own dreams on paper because my dreams are beyond the limits ,I wanna share it with people but scare that they will laugh on me.It's too crazy like a child after watching a T.V program or reading a novel start dreaming about it.In dreams i always a powerful ,dexter and industrious kind of person.I sometimes in dreams be a fairy or a T.v or sports celebrity.It's too childish but i think this is my world of fantasies which can never be snaches away by someone or…

There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship, smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying.
When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown,
The dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.

Excert from Pink Floyd -comfortably numb

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I t's too bad when i know that i could do this ,but i couldn't because of my MDD.It generally happens to me in my studies when i tried to put my best and i have almost prepared for class test or paper but at last i couldn't get good result because most of the time at last moments i start day dreaming and then  waste my lots of time in fantasies and when i come in my real life lost so much things....people think i'm dull,  not willing to complete any task and also careful and lazy but it's…

I can't do it. I thought I could tell someone I trust, but I can't do it! DDing is SO personal to me that I'm embarressed. I'm worried that they will think I'm sick, in the head. "Why would you fantasize about that?" Well, I don't know why I do it - but I can't stop because it's like I HAVE to. Keeps me sane. End of story.

hello everyone

today I find out about my daydreaming also has a name maladaptive daydreaming and it's not only me who has it  and it's really a little bit relif to know that 

i was start this thing at age of 15 when I had an accident and i lost my one hand after that i lost my confident and outside world is really hurting me so much ,it still do!,so i start dreaming about myself as a perfact person who has everything  in her life back than i really don't think about it as a big…

I use my MD as a means of escape. I lie to myself, saying it really helps me but in the end I know it’s just an excuse. With each and every daydream that I have I lose another piece of myself. I use my MD as a distraction from my own feelings and emotions so I don’t have to face them. It’s so hard to even explain what I’m feeling on a normal basis and I write most things off as "whatever" and play indifferent. But it’s because I‘m not sure how I should feel…

Okay, earlier this year I made friends with an exchange student, and she's pretty damn awesome. Her birthday's tomorrow, along with her party, and honestly, I'm kinda scared for it. She's inviting some people in her sports team she just joined that I don't really know, and I don't really actually mind that, I think. I've got her present and I'm a little nervous she won't like it. I was actually looking for a wolf silverfoil, one of these type of things:…

Hi everyone - I havent been here for a while...moving house is a really big thing. But I am SO happy in my new abode! (:

Anyway, yeah...I am a bit of a fan of Jane Austen and in learning a bit about her life and how she died quite young and without a partner in the end. I wonder if she was truly happy? "Persuasion" was one of the last books she had written and is a favourite of mine. It is an agonising story (like a lot of them I guess) but has a wonderful end. I wonder how the…

 I've been doing a lot of thinking. When people use the word "introvert" to describe me, I get really sensitive. Why are words like "weird" and "introverted" negative to most people (myself)? I'm starting to see a positive side to it.

  Don't get me wrong, the maladaptive daydreaming has got to stop. I don't think I could ever see it as a positive thing for me, maladaptive means counterproductive. Daydreaming, just daydreaming every now and then and letting your imagination…

Today wasn't the best. My third day at driver's ed, the last two were fine, nothing big, but today during our thirty minute break I kinda stood alone awkwardly, and I had two so called friends who just passed me up and then I saw them pointing at me and laughing and it made me mad and broke my heart. Eventually I went to sit next to my other friend, which I didn't want to cause I felt like I was annoying her, but I didn't wanna stand alone anymore. So I sat next to her and she didn't seem…

IT's been awhile since I've posted anything on here, partly because I never think of it, and partly because I have trouble finding the motivation to articulate what I'm thinking in a coherent way.

Probably, if I had a good group of close and reliable friends to spend time with in REAL life, even 1 or 3, you probably wouldn't see me on chat even once a month. 

I sort of feel my university life has been a waste. It happened so fast. There I was in high school, unhappy with the…

I havent posted in awhile :P. ive thought of good topics but by the time i get to a computer ive forgotten.

I was thinking alot the otherday and i was thinking "is md a gift?"

i know there was a post before called "gift or curse" and alot of people said its a "curse"

but i was thinking like

we, a selected few of people, have the ability to vividly come up with stories with characters who feel very real and its going on all the time

i think were like..........really…

So I was sitting at the bus stop when something as innocent as a bus advertisement turned the tide of my daydreams. The ad was for Carolina Performing Arts. What particularly caught my interest was the picture of a violinist, who looks startlingly similar to my main daydream character. It was like someone had literally grabbed him out of my head and put him on the side of a bus (with a…

Maybe not everyone's cup of tea but the lyrics are definitely for MDers.

(the song is "Undo Your Mind" by
Eivør)

 
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I'm back. :P

So, basically I just related living with MD to drowning in a deserted ocean with no one there to help. I feel as if I'm drowning in my MD, and everyone in my family doesn't understand the depth and seriousness of my condition. (Not that it's serious, but I do feel like I need help.) I try to address the fact that only medication can stop this, but there isn't any known cure for MD…

So I havent been dd much due to my mind being on my crush. Its way better than laying in bed and dd. I do dd a bit still about him hehe. So I gained the courage to ask him to dance with me at prom and he said yes! I am happy but atthe same ime worried he wasjust being nice. i want to text him or talk to him because I am scared I m a burden on him. It is hard to say sine he is just to kind. What should I do? I want this to work.

I haven't been visiting this site in awhile.  I finally managed to publish my first novel as an ebook.  It is on a site called smashwords.com, you can find it by doing a search on the author name which is "Veradance".  You can download 20% for free so give it a look.  The reason I bring it up was this is really the first productive thing I have done with MD.  I am close to 60 and have lived with this my whole life, I learned to manage it.  I hope to write more and improve with each one.  I…