Hello! A little about me and MD in my childhood

[Angela E]

Hi everyone!  I just found this site, and I have to say, like I've seen a lot of others say, I'm so relieved to have found other people like me!  I just thought I'd share a little bit about myself and my history with MD.

I have been daydreaming for as long as I can remember...at least since the age of four or five and probably longer, though I don't remember that obviously.  My older sister and I were very creative as children, and when we played, it was never like other kids play.  We had elaborate, intricate worlds with multiple recurring characters and plot lines.  We had lists of rules about what could take place in certain games and what couldn't...what characters had certain powers and which ones didn't.  My sister was the main "creator" of our fantasy worlds, and she came up with most of the scenarios and drove a lot of the action.  She would play all of the other characters, and I would just play myself.  She entertained me to no end, and it was magical.  We must have had at least 15-20 different games with specific sets of characters and plot-lines.  To this day (we're both in our mid-twenties now), we can vividly remember most of the games and their rules, etc.  I had plenty of other friends up until age 7 or so, but playing with them just wasn't the same.  My sister and I would always say that other kids just didn't know how to play.

Funnily enough, when we would swing outside together in the backyard, my sister would always ask me when we started to swing, "Do you wanna 'think' or do you wanna 'talk?'"  And then we'd decide whether we'd daydream or talk.  If we decided to "think," no one was allowed to interrupt us!  If our parents came up to us, we'd say, "Shh!!  We're thinking!"  And they thought it was totally hilarious and cute.  At that age, we didn't spend inordinate amounts of time daydreaming.  We had normal active lives and would spend lots of time playing and doing productive activities.  I did really well in school, etc.  But daydreaming was just something we did.  It seemed like something we were programmed to do.

Around the age of 6 or 7 my parents marriage fell apart and they began fighting all the time.  They both became very depressed, and our magical childhood world sort of fell apart.  My sister was also growing up and getting to that age where she would rather spend time with friends from school than time with her little sis, so I felt completely left behind.  My daydreams became a way for me to cope with real life suddenly falling apart.

From that age on, I've daydreamed compulsively.  I've managed to get on with my life, hold down jobs, do really well in school, make a small group of great friends.  No one seems to suspect that I am addicted to daydreaming.  I know my sister does it---she has briefly confided that she spends hours daily in fantasy worlds.    But she also has several other mental disorders.  I feel like I'm probably the most well-adjusted person from my family, but MD holds me back so much.

When I think of the amount of time I've spent in these fantasy worlds in the past several years, and I imagine what I could have accomplished had I devoted that time to my real life, it's staggering.  I don't want to look back at my life ten years from now and be in almost the same place and wondering "What if?"  I'm so glad I found this site, and I'm hoping that we can make the journey together a little easier.  :)

[Jennifer]

Welcome to Wild Minds. :) I hope you find as much help out of this site as all of us did. It  really helps. And, agreeing with Emily, the people here are really cool!

When I first started reading your blog, I was shocked at how much I could relate. When I was waaay younger, my sister and I would play around like children and be "princesses" or rockstars and what not. Eventually she grew out of it, and I didn't. Of course I do not daydream about being a magical princess or anything of that sort, LOL. But now, what I daydream about is intense. -And binding. I can't escape my fantasy world. :/ You're in your mid-twenties? I'm only 15, haha. I'm sorry to hear about your parents and about how your sister 'moved on.' Life isn't always easy, is it? Some things you are just forced to go through. :( I'm also sorry to hear about your sisters mental disorders. I actually do not have any other disorders. Well, only one other called Misophonia. It is extremely rare, is still being studied, and there's no cure of right now. But I'm absolutely positively sure it has nothing at all to do with MD. Misophonia would NOT affect MD in any way, I don't think.

If you're willing to get through, we're willing to help you at all causes! :))

-Jennifer

[Emily]

Well welcome :) I began dd at a young age also, around first grade. It began with a friend of mine, and though she grew out if it, I didnt so much. I had a good childhood, but was aleays a loner. And now, well, here we are. The people here are really cool :D They've helped me a lot. Again, welcome to the site!