Summer time, unrequited love and goals

[otakugirl]

Thank God that summer is here and school is over. I was really worried that dd would ruin me like my freshman and half my soph year. I was dd so much back then I did really bad at school. This time though I didnt let it mess meup. I am proud to ay I got A's and B's :)

 

I joined track and have been hanging out with friends. I am glad to have them in my life they are amazing and have helped keep dd far from me. Its weird my best friend is truly my best friend its so funny and weird how we are really alike in many ways. We even started doing this thing were we both wake up in the middle of the night because we dreamed of the guy we like haha. We are 2 peas in a pod. But I have been realizing that she also dd's and dazes out a lot. I have asked her about it and told her of mdd but didnt tell her I had it since I am worried of what she will think of me. I trust her so I feel I can tell her.

 

Another thing has happened to me. I have fallen head over heels for this guy. This has stopped my dd too but the problem is my feelings are one sided... I want to become his friend but its to late school is over. I tryed to talk to him when we were with a group of friends but the convo was akward... I feel he doesnt even want to be friends since I texted him once and he didnt reply to me (he replied to my friend). I even texted him about something school related but he didnt reply. (I dont text him a lot only those two times and the tims in the past when we were once talking). One of my guy friends is gonna help me get closer to him by inviting me over when they hang out. I feel I dont have a chance and I am just a burden to him but I cant let him go since he is the only guy I like. I know it sounds dumb and I know there is "more fish in the sea" but I cant stop liking him and I cant let go. I am the type of person who rejects many guys because I cant give them a chance. I cant go out with someone unless I have true feelings for them. I once spent two years liking a guy who turned out to be a jerk. I get so scared of being hurt. I have never had a real relationship before. I want this to work but am scared of the outcome. I mean we are not even friends.

 

 

Any advice?

 

 

Thanks to those who read this boring blog ^.^  !!

 

 

[Jennifer]

Hey again!
Wow, thanks for our compliments! Oh, and you're very welcome. :) I'm glad Ms. DustyRose agrees; I wasn't sure if everything I said made complete sense, LOL. :P But anyways, I wish you the best of luck. That guy doesn't seem to be worth your time. But don't worry, someone out there is and they're looking for you. :))

[otakugirl]

Hey Dusty Rose! Thanks for advice I think you're right it's best for me to let it be I mean I've showed him that I have interest and he doesn't seem to show the slightest interest for me. It sucks because I'm the exact same way I don't really like many guys often and when I do I become attached to them. I want to move on but it's really hard for me to because I really do like him.

[Dusty]

I'd say I have to agree with everything Jennifer said.

And I know what you mean about not being able to "let go" of a guy I like, I am exactly the same way. I am interested in so few guys, that when one DOES spark my interest, it's really hard to stop thinking and DDing about, and the crushes don't go away until someone new and better comes along.

However I will have to agree that the best thing to do is follow your head right now, not your heart. I know it's hard and it hurts, but it sounds like you've done everything you can in this situation and it hasn't worked. I think the only thing to do now is let him be, don't text him or try any harder. He knows you now, and if he likes you, he'll come to you. If he doesn't come to you, he isn't, and NEVER will be worth your time. To be honest, I'm in a very similar situation right now with a boy and I'm doing the same thing.

Good luck, I'm glad you have a great best friend to support and distract you, those can be hard to come by! x

[otakugirl]

Hey Jennifer! Thanks for your amazing advice I needed to hear this. I will keep this on mind. I am gonna still try but will stop when it is obvious he doesn't care :)

And yes I am now a senior! Thanks again for your help I appreciate it!

And that guy who called you repulsive was wrong and rude! Glad you don't give him anymore time he doesn't deserve!

[Jennifer]

Hey there!

Are you going to be a Senior? You mentioned your Freshman and Sophmore years and how daydreaming kept you from doing well those years. Wow, we aren't too far apart in age. ^.^ I just turned 15 and I'm finishing up my Freshman year. I still have 6 days left, and then after that I have a bunch of rehearsals for my dance recital and then my recital on June 16th. So, when I get out of school, I don't head straight to Summer. :P I don't know why I just mentioned that because it has absolutely nothing to do with your blog! LOL.

Anyways, you said you wanted advice? Okay...Well, I have been in a similar situation before with a guy, and liking someone a lot. I told the guy I liked him last year and he called me repulsive. It made me SO angry, and I cried for a little bit. But now I'm thinking back on it and I'm like, Okay, really? Why did I cry over someone who is a jerk? Why would I let his cruel words hurt me that much? I was a fool to cry over someone who didn't-and still doesn't-deserve my tears. I realized that, around him, I would be a completely different person. You know, trying to "impress" him, and what not. But why be someone else if they're not going to like you for who you really are? You seem like an incredibly nice person, and you also mentioned that you are afraid of getting hurt...Honestly, (Okay, please don't hate me :P) This guy sounds like a real jerk. You texted him twice and he ignored you both times, but answered your friend's message? How rude. I learned from a past relationship (not including the boy I was talking about earlier) that you can't be vulnerable to a boy. Meaning, you can't let this boy you're talking about walk all over you. It sounds like this boy kind of picks and chooses who he wants to give the time of day to and who he doesn't...? That's not the kind of guy you deserve. I probably don't have a right to say all of this about him, for I don't know him personally like you do, but at the same time, you did ask for advice, so I'm just saying what I think is the right thing to do in this situation.

Guys always think they're "in charge." You know? They always think they can rule a girl around and control the relationship...Don't let this boy be in charge of you. But then again, I could be wrong, so if he actually pays attention to you and gets to know you and starts to respond to your messages and body language, go for it! Nothing wrong with taking a chance in that situation. :)

Sorry, I do not mean to sound pushy or anything, but I think I know what type of guy you're dealing with, and boys like the ones I'm talking about are unfair. :( So, do what your heart wants you to do...But also, be logical! :P

Hope this helps in some way! Xx