I have suffered from this since at least early teens.Possibly longer.I had an overactive imagination as a child and would act out movies after watching them.My mother thought it odd and would tell me to stop and that I was being silly so i would hide this activity.maybe why it became MD??? Could this be a reason?? So it has continued on into my 40's.Althought it has changed and became less of a time consuming thing.Maybe because as we age we have less to fantasize about?I do notice it can be…

Hey all my fellow DDers: Does this site help or hinder?  I am conflicted.  I want to stop but, not really.  I hate missing life and feeling unfulfilled, yet I love the escape of real life dding gives me. 

Such conflicting emotions: guilt, confusion and frustration.  I feel like my life is never really one way or the other.  Just a jumble of ups and downs. 

DDing has become some sort of therapy for when everything that is "real" is out of control, it is the one thing I can…

Hi people, i just wanted to know how you felt about the idea of using Neural Programming as therapy for MD.  I've been doing online research and have found out that beta sound waves are supposed to help with OCD.  So recently i've been listing to beta wave sound tracks by my wireless bluetooth headset throughout my day to day life and it seems to be helping.  I've heard a lot about how music often triggers MD in a lot of us so by that logic maybe it can un-trigger(lack of a better word) MD…

          Just a short diary sort of thing, again, in the hopes that it'll de-stress me, so you'll probably find it quite boring.

          So, I went to bed at 11AM this morning; woke at 3PM to the door; wasn't for me; wasn't even the right door he was knocking in. So, I enthusiastically acknowledged his mistake and apologised for the fact I couldn't help him whilst refraining from punching him in the face for his mistake in waking me. Great start to the day.

          Layed…

Here's an except from our book and a concept drawing done by Gethin.

I remember the day I pulled on my first Canaan kit. It was number 47, Alain Plante. It still fit Gabe, he just felt bad for me and figured it would cheer me up. It was the most perfect shade of purple I had ever seen. A deep royal colour accented with two golden yellow stripes striking through the chest. The number and Plante’s name were a crisp white on the back. It looked like it had never been worn before,…

Anyone ever do that? He said it may help to "tell" the subconcious to not be so intrusive.

This is just an old poem I wrote a while back last year. It's not very good, but feedback would still be nice.

Bubbling, unrealistic, desires,

so inseparable we need pliers.

Hone you're so venomous

it leaves blessedness.

A secret I won't tell

how these actions impel,

because I've become an addict

to the pain you inflict.

I hear your whispering  call

and fight my inner brawl

to your…

These days I realized that I've been feeling anxious and plain paranoid in situations that I shouldn't be feeling these things in the first place. I haven't hung out with one of my bestfriends for a long time since she does have a lot of work this semester. But today is my mom's birthday and yesterday last minute I planned to make cake for her and surprise her at 12. So I called my friend last minute, somehow convinced my mom to let me go at night to her house. And that's where I made the…

I'm typing this because it feels like signing a contract. I want to stop DD, right now, today, not tomorrow or next week or next month, now.

Simce I DD from early childhood, this will be my biggest challenge so far. And my biggest fear.

But I guess I've reached my breaking point. If I don't stop I'll go mad. I'm 21 and when I look back I don't recognize myself. I want my life back, actually, I want my mind back. I want to see things, see through a window without having…

A rising football star struggles with his professional and personal life when he is given custody of his dead brother’s twins.

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I woke up to the sound of the wind bashing the garden gate against the side of the flat. F***, I didn’t shut it. That ****ing dog probably s*** back there and I’ll tread in it. I rolled over and, forgetting I had fallen asleep on the couch, flipped onto the floor.…

I've written the introduction to a story based on a DD that I've just started writing (I haven't got very far and it'll probably be unrecognisable once I've edited it). Here it is. Please comment/leave constructive criticism

When our ancestors first escaped the catastrophe, they fled to the corners of our island, to the North and to the West. Unable to use the roads which the Order controlled, they travelled by sea, and thus the first…

I woke up this morning feeling very positive. Last night I had a conversation with my mother which led to me "coming out" about my addiction to fantasizing. She looked so confused, but was surprisingly supportive. She kept saying that humans have the ability to self heal. My long search for answers has been an attempt to self heal. Joining this networking is also an attempt to self heal. So, I will give myself credit for not just allowing maladaptive daydreaming to overthrow my entire life.…

hey everyone,

I've had MDD since about the age of 9 or 10, so basically all my life. I DD laying in bed with music, so nobody knows what i'm doing. They just think i spent a lot of time listening to music. I also pretend to be talking to other people (like theatre) but i always make sure that nobody finds out.

I always had friends in school but i never felt like i could really connect with them so i daydreamed. At home i always felt the same, though my family is pretty normal.…