Hey Everyone, I haven't been on here for a long time but I've been having some deep thoughts so I was just wondering if many of you feel the same way. Do you guys ever feel as if your entire life is fake? I feel like the only place of comfort is in my own room. I go to the grocery store, I feel insecure. I feel like everyone's watching me but somehow I pull myself out of that feeling of insecurity. I feel like I can't be my true self with anybody. Nobody truly knows me. They only know the a…

 right now i did not felt like studying and i was daydreaming again so  that is the reason i am on this site right now writing this blog ,,,,,,,,,,coming to this site motivates me to stop daydreaming,,,,,but right now i think it is more of a excuse not to study thats it,,,,,,,,, ,,,,,,,,,,,

I haven't been very active on the site, even though I wanted to be. I've been really occupied with school and trying very hard to keep interest in... Well, anything. From my last blog entry, a lot has changed.

I've been diagnosed with severe General and Social Anxiety, Depressive Disorder and Panic Attack disorder. When the new Diagnosis information/book comes out on ADHD my psychiatrist and therapist would also like to discuss that possibility, since the majority of symptoms…

When I daydream I do it throughout the whole day....in between other things that are going on.....I feel like anything can be a trigger....sometimes I have mini daydreams  then longer ones....when I have short ones I don't even realize im doing it...I feel like anything can be trigger

So yea, I think the last time I was here blogging was about 8 months ago.... It sounds like a long time but really it hasn't felt very long. Recently my days have felt like seconds and my weeks like minutes. Months have passed by and I feel like it was only just yesterday that I was here, pouring my mind out on the internet for other people to read..... So for all of those who still remember me, HI! It's been a…

I'm not sure what the generational breakdown of the members on this site are. But I'm sure that many of you share experiences of vivid fantasy role play as a child. I remember distinctly that when I was little I used to wonder if playing pretend with invisible things was a strange and abnormal thing, I also recall watching episode upon episode of Barney the purple dinosaur...remember how he encouraged kids (almost compulsively and subliminally) to use their imagination? "Barney is a purple…

1.What are some of your triggers?

2.What has made you daydream for so many years? What has motivated you to keep daydreaming

and not want to stop?

3.Has daydreaming slowly become boring to you or is it now just a addiction that cant be stopped?

4.What are some methods you have tried to stop MDD and have any helped?

5. How has it interfere with your daily life?

6.How many hours a day do you day dream?

7. Are you attached to…

okay, so I don't know how much you guys know about fandom/fanfiction terms, but I'll stick definitions in at the end. And I'll also be using them a lot, sorry.

Anyway, I realised something- My story in my head is like a book series or whatever, but most people have said that. But sometimes I have a thing where, usually when I'm reading/very recently read a book, I'll sort of integrate myself into that book in my DD, not permanently,  but just do some scenes for a while and that's…

I don't know if this is the best place to ask this, since most people here have MD, but I was just wondering, what do people without MD think about when they are alone, like when they are walking by themselves or driving? I have been trying to stop daydreaming in those situations but I just don't understand what else to think about. I guess in those situations it is normal to daydream? 

I read something on another site where someone said they don't know how to watch…

I got a very disturbing report that some men are propositioning women for sex on here.  This is completely inappropriate and will not be tolerated.  This is not a porn site, and I don't want anyone (male or female) to feel sexually harassed on here.  If this has happened to you, please message me immediately, and tell me who it was and what they said.  You can remain anonymous.  If you have done this, please stop IMMEDIATELY.  Anyone sexually propositioning another member risks suspension.…

Both were written around Christmas. I really should get down to writing moar.

"Night Air"--December 24th, 2012

Night swirling colours in the fireplace,

violet, navy, warm ember bright

the bustle, the warmth of the flames

an owl outside, the stars above he sees

in the silver light, beyond the trees

beyond the cliff, below the sparkling valley

streetlights dash on for ages

"Mundane"

I am mundane.

No…

well i think my whole family knows i daydream bcoz they have caught me talking to my self,,,it is so embarrassing,  i remember once one of my friend told me that her neighbour hood lady talk to her self  ,,she said""i have seen her do this number of times ,, i think she is mad ""and then she started laughing In order to make her believe   that yes i also think doing lik this is so weird i also joined  her and laughed on her neighbour hood    lady....................That was the time that i…

Till Yesterday,I didn't think what I'm passing through is a disorder,I though it was just boredom and sometimes mild depression,so I surfed the web for solutions for this issues.I couldn't find anything that's compatible with problem.

My daydreams became annoying and destructive for the past two years,I couldn't focus in school though I don't daydream during lectures,I get acceptable grades but not the grades that I used to get.It gets worse every time I fail in something or feel…

I'm being treated for psychotic symptoms and it's making it so hard to daydream.

I feel like I'm at a fork in the road and I have to decide whether I want to get better or live depressed, but with my daydreams.

It's hard. On one hand, I want to get better. I want to be a musician and have friends and do all sorts of normal things. I don't want to be miserable anymore. I want to be a happy, functioning person.

On the other hand, I can't let go of this. I've built up this…

Hi im Molly and i've been maladaptive daydreaming ever since i can remember. All through my elementary school years i got bullied because people would catch me daydreaming and thought i was weird. Im in my last year of middle school now, and ive learned to hide it. Im kind of happy i have this due to the amazing pros that come from it, those the cons tend to get in the way of my school work a lot. Im really happy im not crazy and other people have MD. Im also ecstatic that there is such an…

I've been daydreaming excessively and I began to worry about it so I looked it up and came across MD (Maladaptive daydreaming). I started out just imagining me talking to someone a friend from school, neighbor, family member usually a person I would see the next day. I imagined what our conversation would be like. This wasn't  bad, BUT THEN it got so bad that they were no longer conversations, but a whole other world! With many characters and different events. I would laugh, cry, argue and…

I was wondering, how many of you look at pictures while daydreaming? I read some discussions just now and people said that they cover up pictures while daydreaming because they feel like someone is watching them. Well for me it's the opposite, I look at pictures of the people in my daydreams (obviously you can only do this if your characters are real people, which most of mine are, but I suppose you could look at pictures of other things if they are not real people). So does anyone else do…

Well I haven't posted a poem here in a long time and it does not have anything to do with MD at all. Yet, I feel I should post this for those who may be able to relate with this poem. It's hard to explain, being in my  best friend's position and have had to dealt with suicidal friends before. Though one did it for attention and one is alive, but I'm afraid we barely talk now.  Lately my best friend is really down, and I'm terrified she's becoming suicidal. I so desperately try to make her…