I remember it starts at the very young age. I was really shy at my school during prep and elementary days. I don't speak to my classmates. My teacher would ask me questions but I can't even open my mouth. I knew from then that there is something wrong with me. I got average grades not because I'm dumb but because I get distracted a lot. I mean, A LOT.  I always find myself staring out of the window in my class and think of  anything else than my teachers lecture. Because of my shyness the…

Hi everyone , i have registered here nearly three years ago yet i only have one post and i rarely log in here i have had MDD for as long as i can remember and i kinda gotten used to it until this last 2 months .



Growing up my childhood was filled with abuses and traumas daydreaming was my only escape since i was 8 or 9 i remember my parents would catch me in my room pacing and making wired faces but they didn't make anything of it now it only happens in my head and i learned to cope…

It is certainly odd, to think about the irony of the current state I'm in.

Ask anyone and they would most likely tell you that the "normal state" would be to be wide awake in the real world. For us that have MD we often find ourselves in a dreamworld, while still present in the "real world", meaning our daydreams are like a withdrawal from reality and should stress us out and interfere with our life to the extent that we waste time we should use for important things like getting…

I don't normally have a lot of good news when it comes to MD, so I thought it was important to post. This week has been amazing. Saturday afternoon, I spent a few hours writing a poem about MD, which was an emotional experience. When I went to pray that night, I broke down crying. I haven't DD since then. There have been a couple times when I wanted to or almost did, but I didn't. I have been praying constantly, and I keep repeating the last line of the poem Invictus, "I am the master of my…

I want to preface this blog post with the fact that these pictures seen here are in no way my whole collection of DD art: there are…

The reason that I haven't posted on here in a long time is because, little by little, I am getting over my DD! I will be moving into college next week so I'll be plenty busy to stop even more. I have been extremely involved this summer, that helped curtail my DD: I taught summer school in Englewood, volunteered for Bernie Sanders, went on a road trip, and spent time with friends.

With that being said, I haven't stopped completely. I still draw and paint about it, but I have…

Hi everyone,

I haven't been doing very well. I have been stopping my DDing but I always catch myself DDing in small amounts without even realizing it and I feel like I'm going to end up completely dissociated from reality if I don't get a handle on it. I know some people on this site don't want to let their daydreams go but I WANT them gone. I'm so sick of having to daydream things to feel. I'm fucking tired of having to daydream to distract me from my boring life that is…

Does anyone know the youtube-channel called Veritasium? I find it an amazing channel, and I stumbled upon this video.

It has nothing to do with MD realy, but I do find it very inspiring and motivating. I recommend everyone to watch it!

(it's only 9 minutes, in case you wonder)

Click this to go to the video!

Hi! I've been on this website for about half a year but this is my first blog post here.

Maybe, that's because I've  never felt so frustrated before. I always thought that my future would be better than my present. And no, I wasn't simply talking about it, I really tried to improve things. But nothing ever seemed to work.

My biggest problem is communicating with people. It seems almost impossible for me. I have some friends (which I found very surprising), but these are friends…

for as long as i can remember, my daydreams have involved romance as a main theme. and for as long as i can remember, i've been desperate for a relationship. "boy crazy" doesn't even begin to describe me. when i go somewhere, my first thought is always i hope there are cute boys. when i'm not daydreaming, i'm almost always thinking about boys and how i can get a boyfriend.

in spite of this, i am eighteen years old and had never been in a relationship until about a month ago.…

I played this little game called 'Air Pressure' some time ago and.. I cannot spoil anything else.

If you want to play it do NOT research about it or read the comments on the website you choose for it. It has three endings, if you don't reach all of them you might not understand.

Here is a link without comments:…

 ..........there is a time when it is a curse. no matter when or how it is used, you steal time from reality and loved ones. 

        I started  dd   as  a  young kid. I was influenced by movies and upbringing.  I would mimic anything or anyone in  my mind.  It was fun. I thought I was  developing my imagination.

        as a teen, while being grounded, I played a  favorite record over and over again  while slipping into  dd   to be free.

the record was…

Hi there,

I am trying to quit MD. Go all the way this time. On my own 5 days in, and I am not doing it right. 

I know that I have been skirting around any real deprivation. I have been going soft on myself, by allowing myself to watch DD-related stuff on Youtube. This is, as you might imagine, a waste of time. When I waste time like this, I know that I am wasting away. I can't look at myself in the mirror for more than 5 seconds without reeling…

I have been taking apart my daydreams by analyzing all my characters and how they make me feel.  I’ve found that it is connected to things that happen to me in the past. There are emotional things I can’t deal with, like love, jealousy and intimidation, to name a few. When I daydream I am covering up some kind of emotion. To find the underlying causes for my DD I started writing in my journal. When I try to DD now, I experience a complete block. I don’t know whether it’s temporary or whether…

Note: Long-winded post ahead. Peruse at your own risk. :P 

So I have to get this out. 

I am on Day 4 of trying to quit DD. Any setbacks in that plan then? Why yes. Yes there are. It’s a bad time to quit MD for me, because I want so badly to be absorbed in the political issues taking place across an ocean from me. I am pretty sure that Scotland is about to get a second chance at gaining its independence from the UK. 

I am a half-jewish American…

anyone ever have a character in your DD that you didn't create? that you don't know from some movie, book or life? a mystery person. I have, from the beginning. I think if I could just figure out where this person came from, I might get to the bottom of why I DD. I can't remember the first time he appeared in a DD. If I could, I think it could answer some questions. I thought about hypnosis but I am afraid of that. How to make myself remember.

every once and a while i come back and think about posting here so i was reading my old posts and was kind of surprised at how different i am now

im happier than ever i guess, which is weird because im kind of at a terrible inescapable place in my life and im more mentally ill than ever, but w/e. i was reading about how i hated my mental illnesses and i just.... dont feel that way at all anymore??? ive sort of become part of a community for psychotic ppl + schizophrenia spectrum ppl…