hey everyone,

I've had MDD since about the age of 9 or 10, so basically all my life. I DD laying in bed with music, so nobody knows what i'm doing. They just think i spent a lot of time listening to music. I also pretend to be talking to other people (like theatre) but i always make sure that nobody finds out.

I always had friends in school but i never felt like i could really connect with them so i daydreamed. At home i always felt the same, though my family is pretty normal.…

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What are your thoughts?

I'm not much of a blogger, or really that social. That being said, I suppose it would just be best to get it all out right now--that is, the structure of what I seem to be experiencing. 

Make no mistake, this is going to be a very, very large post. If you have the time to read it and actually do, I applaud you. 

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i saw a counsellor today to talk about stuff.

We discussed self esteem, anxiety, depression,daydreaming, etc.



to explain md I  let her read that little blurb about md on the home page of wildminds. She wasnt shocked freaked out and said i was normal. She said That I have social anxiety and self esteem issues and my way of coping with it is daydreaming. She says next time i see…

I felt quite ok in the last years, especially in the last weeks, daydreams came most of the time only like flashes during the day, far less than what I have experienced in my teens and twenties. I know about surpressed feelings like fear and anger, hormones and nutrition (I want to write about this in the forum). So I thought I'm on my best way to cope daydreaming.

Yesterday the down-mechanism hit me again. I thought I had made a mistake at my job (accounting), due to my lack of…

Okay, so I have a Tumblr account, and I basically can't stop going on there (I've only had it for what, two, two and a half months?) and it's annoying because I'm spending most of my time on there. I've done the same thing with other sites, another social networking site, Neopets, Spartzmedia and stuff, where as soon as I'd get home I'd hop on those sites.

Today, I caught up with the stuff on my Tumblr dash then posted a post, telling everyone I'm not allowed on there for over a week,…

I probably should have written this when I was actually feeling this, but I'll try my best to explain how I was feeling a few days ago.

Every week or so I have what i call 'self-hatred attacks'. This is where I process my faults, normally my DDing, and start despairing and thinking about all the goals I have which I'm not going to reach (or so I think) because I spent all my time DDing. I convince myself that I will never change and will just waste my potential and end up dying…

im seeing a counsellor or therapist or whatever tommorow. My moms making me go because a month ago i had a break down and said i hated myself wanted to kill myself. heh. 

I know what I want to say about that, how should i bring up md? How should I tell her? How do I explain without her thinking its schizophrenia?  should I show her pictures ive drawn or posts from this site? 

So I've asked a few people in chat on here in the past, but no one that's related. I have an extremely hard time talking to people on chat because I start pacing or daydreaming what I'm going to say, and then the convo has moved on. Does anyone else have this problem?

I…

Hello...

So i just got to let this out. I don't want to stop DDing, ever. It's like its who I am. I've been DDing since as long as i can remember even a toddler. When i was about 3 or for I told my mom about "my world" of course im a little kid she thought This was normal to play and pretend and talk to imaginary friends. But now I'm 20... and my 'world' is still there.. Of course she doesn't know this. around 8 years old i realized I wasnt normal.

anywho, to the point. I've…

I didn't have a horrible child hood. I wasn't abused or anything. my parents were divorced. To this day at 22 I want a closer relationship with my dad. I see him often but the relationship is lacking. I constantly have an attitude but inside I'm so stoked to be around my father. I started DD when i was about 8-9. I was someone else. My mother(in my fantasy) was gorgeous,affectionate and i was the golden child. My father in my fantasy was handsome..loving i guess..but his character never…

Hello everyone! I'm Shelly and I think I have figured out all the reasons I DD.

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2. I suffer from an embarrassing skin condition that is caused from my skin rubbing together and it has caused me major depression and has made me fear sexual…

admit it.  you've had numerous sex scenes in your daydream, I do.



Though I find it awkward and creepy, I feel like im just....watching. Some characters have more sex scenes than others, some characters I just dont want to see that. Im not in my own daydream so i dont like, watch myself have sex with someone (oh god) there just 2 characters having sex and ya sometimes i feel weird .When i was younger i was paranoid people could read my mind and see im thinking about my…

What about all the time spent dding: Does anyone feel like they are betraying life?  Sometimes I do.....  I have spent the past week dding EVERY WHERE!  We have already discussed dding while driving.  Well I have been doing it at work, when driving and even while having sex. 

Are we betraying our "REAL" life and "REAL" loved ones?  HELP!

I have been having a hard time lately (emotionally) so I think it has triggered my overwhelming dding lately.  It's the only…

I have to admit I'm not a fan of the whole "verify that you are a REAL person" process on here, but I understand that online spam can be a problem.  Just the same, some of us don't possess the courage that Cordellia Rose has shown by identifying herself as a Maladaptive Daydreamer.   The rest of the world simply doesn't take this topic seriously at all, and I don't believe it will anytime soon. 

I'm at the 4 decade mark, and I NEVER directly discussed this with anybody.  I know I put…