January 2014 Blog Posts (56)


Here is a poem I've always found inspiring.  I have a phrase from it tattooed on my back.  It's called "Curiosity" by Alastair Reid


may have killed the cat; more likely

the cat was just unlucky, or else curious

to see what death was like, having no cause

to go on licking paws, or fathering

litter on litter of kittens, predictably.

Nevertheless, to be curious

is dangerous enough. To distrust

what is always said, what seems

to ask odd…


Added by Cordellia Amethyste Rose on January 31, 2014 at 7:21pm — 1 Comment

New to this sort of thing (:

This post it's super long, so I appreciate each and everyone who has taken the time to read this

So yeah.. I just found out today about two hours ago about Maladaptive Daydreaming. I have been daydreaming like for serious for about I dunno.. 10 years or so? At first it didn't mattered, I mean I was 9 years old, so what does it matter a little escapade to fantasy once in a while? It was about years later and still today that it has really became a problem. I'm in…


Added by Kema on January 30, 2014 at 5:36pm — 1 Comment

About me

I first starting this when I was 12.  Mine seems different than most I have read about and wonder if anyone has a similar experience.  My first boyfriend broke up with me and I started to imagine him watching me remotely.  It affected my behavior because I would act my best and imagine him wishing he was still with me.  Over the years it changed to other ex-boyfriends, teacher who did not think I would do anything go with my life, and my father who I stopped talking to.  As an adult it was…


Added by Jennifer T on January 30, 2014 at 5:17pm — No Comments


Today wasn't a bad day. I smiled, laughed, and engaged a lot. I yelled some, but it was a fierce engagement with someone I yell with/at a lot. It's what we do. I started a Bible study for women with different addictions tonight. I'm not super religious. At all. But it is another chance to positively engage with people. My main problem with religion is people using it as a crutch to be dumb. For the first hour, the preacher we watched connected astronomy and religion. His first statement was 'I… Continue

Added by Sandra on January 29, 2014 at 8:57pm — No Comments

A first for me too!!!

Hi  all,

I just became a member earlier today and have just now have gotten the courage to type something.

I have kept my MD a secret for sooooooooooo long that I am feeling very vulnerable and a little bit scared right now.

I am also very new to discussion forums in general so please forgive me in advance if I mess up (feel free to correct me if I do something wrong).

I realized that my daydreaming wasn't as normal as most when I was about 8 years old.  I…


Added by Alice in Wonderland on January 29, 2014 at 5:11pm — 4 Comments

How to Relate to People?

I find it hard to relate to people. When I talk to relatives (like cousins), coworkers and acquaintances it is so difficult to have a decent conversation that doesn't sound awkward on my part. I can talk with my mother and sister, I guess because I talk to them all the time and I don't have to worry about things like whether or not they will get offended or if they can relate to the show or issue I want to talk about because I know they will. With others, I don't know that and my…


Added by C. Foster on January 29, 2014 at 11:10am — 3 Comments


i had taken a strict disorder to NOT daydream anymore but once it starts its sooooo difficult to stop.yesterday,i daydreamed the entire night.i tried to stop myself but i just couldnt.there was so much of work to be done but there i was all over the place pacing and laughing like an idiot!a TOTAL idiot!i mean anyone who saw me at that moment would have thought i was mad or something...

thank god my mom was asleep or else...........

usually when i start to daydream (that is when…


Added by mary g on January 28, 2014 at 6:51pm — 1 Comment

Adderall for my daydreaming

I have not been prescribed this medication by a doctor, but I have taken 10mg on a couple of occasions for the purported energy that it gives you. Not only did I feel more productive and less all over the place, I didn't have the urge to daydream while on it (three separate times). Don't get me wrong, I will still daydream. But I will do it on purpose, instead of getting up compulsively from my desk during an assignment. I don't feel distracted by the scenarios and the feelings in my head. I…


Added by Queen Dopamine on January 28, 2014 at 6:00pm — 14 Comments

First post

So... I'm not quite sure what I was looking for when I signed up. I still don't know.

I read about Maladaptive Daydreaming today, and it really jumped out at me. How similar it is to me made me cry.

I've been looking for a while, looking for the reasons why I feel this way, and I feel this might be part of the answer...

I daydream, ever since I was a child. And it's getting worse, I think.

I usually daydream whenever I'm in bed,…


Added by Mel L on January 27, 2014 at 10:10am — 7 Comments

Crying during daydreams

So this new thing has started happening. Today has marked the second time where I have cried during a daydream. The first time I did it was only two days ago. I act out my daydreaming scenarios as they happen in my head, from facial expressions, to gestures, to dialogue, to actually moving around the room as they would (though I also just tend to generally pace around, even if they are sitting still). The content of my daydreams can be emotionally gripping and over-powering. In these two…


Added by Queen Dopamine on January 26, 2014 at 4:59pm — 20 Comments

I wish...

I wish I have someone to talk to about my daydreams. Not just about MDD in general, just my daydream content. Fo  those of you who don't know, my daydreams take place in an elaborate parallel universe, which is exactly the same as our own except for humans being kept as pets by aliens. We are still exactly the same, just as intelligent. Very few on earth know about aliens keeping humans as pets. I don't imagine it being another dimension, it's this one, but with the conspiracy. It is…


Added by Machelle Irby on January 26, 2014 at 2:51pm — 8 Comments


what do you do if you are ugly?my mom makes fun of me every single day. shes really pretty you see and she keeps telling me that im really ugly. im so fed up of hearing that.i look at myself in the mirror and wince.this is so not how i want to look.i tried to make myself look better.but no hope.some people make fun of me.

how do you accept the way you are when your own mother  doesnt?

we live in a looks oriented world where everyday we are bombarded with images of beautiful…


Added by mary g on January 25, 2014 at 9:16pm — 8 Comments

Dream Life vs. Real Life

I'm 15 and I've been daydreaming for about two years I think.  I remember the first time I really got submerged in a daydream how awesome it felt.  I didn't have many friends at the time so I made up my own and for once I felt accepted, even if it was only in my dream world.  I actually had multiple different daydream realms that I made..I think I had up to four at one point.  But I think that got kind of overwhelming for me so now I only have one really intricate…


Added by Amari on January 24, 2014 at 8:36pm — 2 Comments

My light

I waltz about, run around, trip and fall, laugh and pout. But my light to see is dim, the room is as dark as my own 'heart'... abyssal. Faces show on mine and it is quite obsurd. My gift of freedom is my cage. Of all the humans born in to this world why shall I be born so odd and different in these ways... My heart would be blank and black and unknown to me had I not found my light. My light may be dim but it is so due to distance and one day it shall be as close to me as the sun is its own… Continue

Added by Mишка (Miska) on January 24, 2014 at 6:46pm — 3 Comments

hearing music in my mind

I don't know if it is common or not but when I need to focus on something I  always start hearing songs in my head. Most of the times when it happens I have to stop what I am doing to try to clear my mind. That also happens when I am going to sleep. I noticed that I alwasy listen to these songs in the same week that they start to play in my head. I think that the solution would be to stop listening to music, but I love it. 

Does anyone have this problem? how are…


Added by Cristiano on January 24, 2014 at 12:27pm — 3 Comments

Book Reccomendation

It's called, The Secret World of Doing Nothing, by Billy Ehn and Orvar Lofgren (2010).

Chapter 3 is called "Daydreaming".

It might be interesting to some of you. A few pages of the chapter can be found here:



Added by Lucrezia Duchessa on January 23, 2014 at 5:51pm — 2 Comments


So that Sunday thing prompted me to have an adjustment made to my new prescription for wellbutrin. I may change brands. I have never felt like I did Sunday. Literally never. The first thing to pop into my head after those thoughts popped into my head was, 'I gotta quit taking this shit.' They still haven't gotten back to me about the adjustment so I'll call them again today.

Added by Sandra on January 23, 2014 at 1:44am — 2 Comments


I found that actually doing something instead of thinking about it is one step forward, I'm scared ill never become the person I wanna be cause she lives in my head and is me. I wanna give up her life cos she can have it back, it just makes all my motivation to be conscious go away and I wanna hold on to the motivation. Ill never figure this out. I need to be trained to become confident. That'll solve my hugest dreams.

Added by Lizzarina on January 22, 2014 at 5:18pm — 4 Comments

Who is actually happy with their education/degree/job?

Also, how old are you, if you don't mind me asking?

If you don't want to answer that, then how many times have you changed degrees and/or jobs?

As for me, I am currently a third-year in industrial engineering, and I'm always on the edge of falling into severe depression. And please don't try to convince me to switch out.

Added by Lucrezia Duchessa on January 21, 2014 at 4:52pm — 17 Comments

Bad Days

I cannot be alone with myself for too long. That's why I work so much. I usually leave work around 11 after being there all day so I'm extremely tired, too tired to sit around in my head. Well I left work at 6 pm Sunday night. So that gave me 7 hrs alone with me. I think I was ok for about an hr, then I went on major binge. I watched things I shouldn't watch for about 4 hrs. Also hadn't done that since before New Year's. Afterwards, and during, I went very deep inside of my head. A bad place to… Continue

Added by Sandra on January 21, 2014 at 7:00am — No Comments

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