Wednesday

[Sandra]

Today wasn't a bad day. I smiled, laughed, and engaged a lot. I yelled some, but it was a fierce engagement with someone I yell with/at a lot. It's what we do. I started a Bible study for women with different addictions tonight. I'm not super religious. At all. But it is another chance to positively engage with people. My main problem with religion is people using it as a crutch to be dumb. For the first hour, the preacher we watched connected astronomy and religion. His first statement was 'I definitely believe in science.' It was a practice in concentration. I did trail off a few times but I was able to come back very quickly. We are reading a book over the next six weeks. I think that has been my biggest problem with MD. It has taken away the joy I once had for reading. I get a couple of sentences in and I drift away. This will be a practice in focus. Mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Hey, I guarantee you won't get any sermons out of me. I just want to get better.

I am comfortable with my MD right now. I need it to be ok. There are many other things I should be more worried about. It brings me emotional comfort. It's like I have a partner.. Someone to go through the day with. I child be sad that I am supplementing not having this relationship with someone real, or I could take the comfort. For now, I'll take the comfort