I am sorry I have written a lot but I would like you all to hear my story. The first paragraph is on my experience with God helping me with stopping my MDD. The second paragraph is on my night terror that is linked to both God and my MDD. Wow I never really thought i was this religious until now! Please try and enjoy if possible.

I don't know what you guys would call a spiritual moment but I believe it is…

Whenever I daydream I listen to music and I can pace my apartment for hours at a time and I can stand for hours at a time. Well that has caught up with me! For over three months I have had this horrible pain in my groin and I found out my ligaments are all out of whack, so now I am in physical therapy for it. I didn't tell my doctor that I pace and stand like that, but I kinda put 2 and 2 together. I just wanted to warn anyone who paces about this problem. I try to watch my posture now LOL,…

Do any of you guys try out different roles in your daydreams? The protagonists in my daydreams are not always consistent. Sometimes, the protagonist is a strong female warrior, other times she can be a battered abused woman or even a normal housewife. In the past few days, I daydream about a pregnant woman and saw her through childbirth, even though I have no desire to be pregnant at this time.

I like to daydream about being a different person and putting myself in their shoes,…

How do i "break up" with a specific daydream i've been having for like years? I'll admit it's a Harry Potter daydream lol. But it's gotten so boring lately. Like i've literally done every storyline i ould think of. There's nothing more to daydream about in that world anymore. And yet it's hard to escape it. Sometimes it's the first thing i think about when i wake up.

I have 3 major storylines, one including myself disguised as…

Hey guys! So today was pretty easy at least in terms of dealing with MD, mainly cause I was in the public eye for 95% of the day, so I didn't have a strong temptation to "surface use" but of course when Im at home, its a completely different level of temptation. But today went well, I just kept working on my History paper which is late, but right now Im motivated to just finish to the best of my capabilities. But other then that, i got nothing new today, just hope you guys had an amazing day…

I tend to not have any control over most of my daydreams. As in I have no input. They sort of just play themselves out like a little movie in my head. Most of the time it clouds over my vision and I'm thrown into my dream world. Sometimes I'm part of the dream and sometimes I'm just watching. But whether or not I'm a character in the dream doesn't seem to give me any control over what is happening in the dream. Everyone I've spoken to that daydreams says that this hasn't happened to them and…

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Here's a question: Maybe its not actually DDing that is holding us back? Maybe thats just what we tell ourselves and we believe it. For me, it still takes over my life and i have absolutley no handle on it. But latley ive been putting myself out of my comfort zone and good things are happening. I think ive been using DDing as an excuse to not make an effort with life. I realize now that i cant wait for life to happen. Because it wont. It wants you to make the first move, and then gives you…

Hey guys,  just here with my daily update, I put in that sweat equity for 15 hrs!!!,  not easy though, isolation with no distractions while being deprived of DDing at times, not fun, but I promise to all of you MDers, who are trying to stop temporarily until they can control it, It may really suck throughout the day just having too go through the pain of being conscious and focused the whole day, but when all is said and at the end of the day, when you look back on the day it feels good to…

Well, I didn't have time to even DD or at least "surface use" with music, cause I was working next to my study buddy all day at Uni for 14 hours! woot, but all I can say is even though I did have a strong urge at school to ask for my friends headphone and go into my world, I just went for a walk and grabbed some coffee, and came back and just got back into it, getting some fresh air can do the trick sometimes guys!, but only day 3, long way to go, but right now I feel good mainly cause of…

I am totally get boring from this same situation and same scene always running on my mind.I honestly want to get out of this situatio na dmy friend recommended me to Doctor.Hope i will search a good sikertarist.I am totally fed up of this life.

As I figured, the first couple of days are well lets say are extrodinarily difficult to overcome, as in the 2nd day I almost gave into my trigger of music, but was able to keep composed( even took it drained hours of my time just resisting it), but Im glad to say I have made it too Day 2. I honestly felt like crap cause i felt like i need a fix of some DDing, but it will get easier to bear in time i hope. But other than that Im out for the day and hope to make it to day 3.

Hi guys I am starting a thread of blogs, to show you my progress as I overcome MDD, I have done extensive research to have the blueprint of success in overcoming this unproductive act( I know some people may be okay with DDing) but this is holding me back from reaching my full potential. To go along with MDD, I have had a really low self-esteem and acted out as the "nice guy" and let people take my kindness for granted and walk all over me( this includes my ex gf, my ex  friends,…

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So, I've shared the story about how my MD came about. Now, I feel I can talk about more current events. I've been in an on and off relationship with a guy since my senior year in high school. It started out as a fling. It was strictly sex based. At some point he started to feel deeply for me and over the years he's expressed it more and more. Even after I moved out of California and ventured out into the military, he still called and checked on me. I appreciated having…

I just discovered a Music Festival called Delfest that I really want to go to as I am a fan of some of the groups playing and just discovered a lot more awesome bluegrass and folk groups that I was just jamming and chilling too. Like I really want to go to this.

Did not take to long for me that I don't really have any friends, let alone friends that would even be interested in such a unpopular music scene. 

For about the past two hours I was in a really deep…

This is something ive been doing for a few years. My DD got so bad that i actually resulted to stealing headphones so i then could do what i call "surface using". I call it that because i DD all the time, but when listening to music thats when my addiction appears to be tangible. And thats when my DD are the most intense.  Eventually, i get to a point where I am brave enough to get a pair of scissors and actually cutt any headphones that are in my house. Even after doing that, when i get an…

A couple months back I went through a breakup, and well It was very difficult, and i ended up turning to md to cope with it by goinginto my own imaginary world. It has become harder to cope with after the breakup, and also going forth, I have really bad triggers, like I use "very loud music" too get into my trance and I have the repetitive movement of jumping, which believe it or not has affected my knees, as the impact from jumping has given me knee pain, and im afraid if this persists, im…