Cutting Headphone Cords

[Sky with Diamonds]

This is something ive been doing for a few years. My DD got so bad that i actually resulted to stealing headphones so i then could do what i call "surface using". I call it that because i DD all the time, but when listening to music thats when my addiction appears to be tangible. And thats when my DD are the most intense.  Eventually, i get to a point where I am brave enough to get a pair of scissors and actually cutt any headphones that are in my house. Even after doing that, when i get an urge to surface use, I will still go searching for a pair of headphones. Like a drug addict looking for paraphernalia. And thats exactly what it feels like. And i feel its just as damaging and pathetic. Its strange because, it is really easy for me not to buy them. I wont do that because I know what will happen. But then, given the opportunity, i end up stealing them from people. I hate to admit that, but it is my truth. And i have to own it. MDD gives me an incredible adreneline rush, but overall leaves me feeling nothing but shame, guilt, and worthlessness.

[Wakethenight]

I suggest get rid of you music player. I had a similar problem since music is a big trigger. I thought geting rid of my head phones would work, but I just took my roomates. So, I got rid of my Ipod and other mp3 players and I don't put music on my phone. The only time then that I can be triggered by music  in an atmosphere I can control is if I am at home by my computer or in my car with the radio. Doing this cut down on my indulgent DDng or what you call surface using. 

[Jordy]

this is exactly what i have been doing cutting headphone cords, but i keep buying new ones...

[Ray Sandhu]

OMG, I have every symptom you have trust me when i say this, I have cut all headphone cords and thrown them out as well, I used to steal my brothers headphones just to engage in that activity, but it has damaged my hearing a bit and since I jump or dance sometimes( that gives me the adrenaline rush) when I am DDing, I have also hurt my knees a bit. But as long as you fight the temptation you will be fine, believe it or not I got my dad to block youtube and downgraded from a smartphone( you can fill it with music). And after the DDing, is the worse you feel completely in a slump and I have been there trust me, it makes you feel so pathetic and unproductive but some tips I can give you is go for a walk whenever you have the temptation to find headphones or buy them, and literally squeeze every ounce of strength out of you to stay focused on the present. I promise  once you even start doing it for 2 weeks, you can see improvement, the temptation wont be nearly as strong. If you ever want to talk more about it dont hesitate to send a shout, and Im proud you took the precautions to cut the headphones, it took me 4 years to finally do that.