These are two follow up thoughts I had from the reading of the same blog/quote at two different times:

WONDERINGS

From the blog diaryofadaydreamaddict:

I Have A Commitment Phobia.....In My Relationship With MD

The dialogues, images, the social behaviors and scenarios become a net of comfort regardless of my external situation. It's not a…

Hi All

I've been reading a lot on the effects of childhood trauma disassociation and connection. I have a reading list related to these issues and have sifted through the internet but was unable to find downloadable pdf/ epub version of these books. (Yes I'm the type who tries not to buy ebooks if I can get them for free). Was wondering if anyone had access to the following:

1) Born for Love: Why Empathy is Essential and…

I just joined the site.  This is my first time joining any site like this.  I only recently discovered the concept of maladaptive daydreaming, although I have searched for some time for some kind of explanation for whatever it is that my mind does.  I have wondered off and on for a long time if there was something wrong with me mentally, but like they say "crazy people don't think they're crazy" and I have at times thought I was crazy.

I have been daydreaming, as this site…

Im torn between being optimistic, and being realistic. Its so lonley, that there isnt a single person in my life that knows how traped i feel from this addiction. Im also torn from taking responsibilty, and feeling guilty, for what i am, and what i have let my life become. Where is there to turn to for help? How can i conquer this addciton on my own? As soon as some parts of my life start to turn around, i find myself being pulled back into my old ways. Which is the furthest thing from…

To anyone's knowledge has there ever been a convention of MDD? Just imagine it...if there hasn't and there was. I really think if there was I would do my best to attend. Even if I drag my family with me.

It has been a surreal experience for me to find this site. To blog about it the way I have already. Every time I read a blog post by someone here and reply it feels out of body.

I just cannot stop repeating that I'm in my 30s. I know I say this over and over already but…

do you ever just daydream so much in one day, that you cant do it anymroe and your head feels weird and youre trying to daydream but its difficult??? sometimes my head hurts or my jaw hurts if i daydream too much (is that weird?) im having the feeling right now. 

just some thoughts

i havent been on here in a long time. theres a lot more members since the last time i checked lol! Im in college now and have to go to class in 2 minutes so I just wanted to say...hi c;



I have been trying trying to see md as a hobby, is that weird? idk im like, writing little things down that are important about it, im trying make more like...an activity? idk, to do after im done homework...so i dont fail. cause in high school it distracted me alot and i didnt do so well. i still…

Well, sorta.

As like with most of us MDD began as early as we can even remember. But I think in all I've read on this site by others I can come to the conclusion that many of us had a point in time when we really say the MDD "took off" ...meaning - we were no longer little children where this is "normal" and we realize that maybe there is something different about us. AND that it starts to change our life as well.

For many I have noticed it was Middle School years. It…

I have had MD as long as I can remember and it feels like when I grow a little older then my minds gets slower. Is it just me. A few years ago my mother told me that I had selective memory which means that I listen and remember the things I want then tune everything else out. maybe because she has to tell me things more than 3 times to get me to listen. I think it's so true but I'm not sure. I mean…

Here ye, hear ye. I just thought of a random idea. My idea was to write a tell-all book about my MDD experiences. Maybe i'll inspire someone to actually speak up and be bold and frank with their therapist or psychologist. I'd like to let my experiences be known so that if your therapists look at you funny you can write down a link and send him/her my e-book and say ''You think my story is crazy? Wait till…

I've found this book by Byron Katie "Loving What Is". I think it is wonderful, especially for us daydreamers, who want to escape from our problems. Byron Katie wants us to see the reality, as it is, without having negative thoughts about it. She uses four questions to find the reality behind the problems. She doesn't want us to ignore the problems, but just to see the facts and the reality. This will lead to a peaceful mind. She says we can only care about our business, so it is important to…

Since as long as I can remember I've had an "overactive imagination." My parents would chuckle about how I talked myself to sleep my entire childhood.

I always have and only have been able to fall asleep daydreaming. The severity of it comes and goes throughout the years. I have phases and periods of time where it bleeds into my responsibilities. Causes problems. But I go through long periods of time where it isn't a problem. At least not from my perspective.

But I want to talk…

Today, Septemnber 7th, is a date i always refer back to when reflecting on my life. Ive spent all of my life with MDD. But once i started middle school in 2004, thats when my DDing took a drastic turn. Thats when it became uncontrollable. It was definetly a coming of time in my life. But i feel as if my MDD stunted my growth. I cannot seem to let go of my past. Having MDD feels like having a time machine. I can go back and fix certain things and picture how my life wouldve been different.…

I made a plan to stop daydreaming all together once school started this fall. I was going to focus on my education and get a job. My plan was a complete fail. I've been pretty stressed out since summer ended and now I'm daydreaming even more. Daydreaming wouldn't be so bad if it didn't use up all my free time and get in the way of my responsibilities. I just feel so bummed out at this point.

What world prefer, the "reality" or the fantasy?

This post was posted on  my blog on blogger, but I feel like I should cross post it here. I've read a lot of Maladaptive Daydreaming blogs on the internet, and it seems like most people have a two step recovery plan:

1. Stop themselves from daydreaming from moment to moment
2. Fix the root cause of the daydreaming, usually by forming or developing their…