I always took my ability to write for granted. I didn’t realize being two years away from studying any subject that allowed me to exercise that ability I would lose my (according to me) flair to express myself/have an edge irrespective of what I was doing/have at least according to my imagination “to my hukum ka ikka” (ace in hole) .That edge whether imaginary or real served me well. Maybe it was an ability to respond to given material that training in the school system provided, not a…

“Be a better person. You can’t keep your personality out of the work. It’s impossible…. If you’re rigid or you’re distorting reality, it goes into the guitar. And when you play it, it comes back out. It’s disturbing. I used to believe that but I never had any proof of it. But I’ve played enough handmade guitars and then later met the maker. Sure enough, it’s inseparable….”

So true ... I have tried to keep the two separate, pushing me a point of…

I have some news that will probably anger many people.  It's certainly angered a few of you.  

As many of you have probably noticed, Alex constantly talked about wanting to die and hurting herself.  This is very serious to me.  I couldn't just sit by and not respond.  Many of us, including me, tried the gentle approach of sitting with her for hours and just talking to her.  That didn't help.  I eventually tried the tough love approach.  That only angered her.  I didn't know…

I have a new story line going through my head....I am in love with my male character....I have made him a father of an old friend and have only actually met this person once 30 years ago.........Now, I am actually very little interaction with them via social media. We have not talked privately, just comments and stuff. Now I have become excited to see when he is online and happy when he comments on my posts. We have NEVER said or done anything inappropriate and not sure he would, he knows I…

It's Mental Health Week, and about time I talked about some issues that have plagued me

Emotional abuse:

I realized a few days ago that this is the first time in my life where I dont have an emotionally abusive person in my life. My roommate moved out, and all of sudden it hit me, that I have been dealing with it for so long, its only now that I became aware of it. This scares me a little, that maybe I have a propensity to put up or choose or am unable to recognize…

Since I just signed up here, I figured I could use something of an introduction blog post to just talk about who I am and how I ended up here. I'm just going to be typing things out as they come to mind but trying to stay in order, so this may get a little long. I'm also not going to hold back some personal information since I am attempting to explain myself, so keep that in mind before you start. If you do take the time to read it all, I hope you find it interesting or at least…

hi.

the other day i bought a necklace that is an owl with glasses.

i bought it because my main character (and my favorite character)'s nickname is owl, and he wears glasses.

i love this necklace so much and i'm never taking it off for as long as i live. (okay, maybe that's a lie)

it's so weird how it has a meaning behind it and i'm the only one who knows. it's almost like an inside joke with myself, only it's not really a joke. i don't know, i just think it's…

This is an interesting article that one of my facebook friends shared with me.  TBH, I didn't think any of my facebook friends read any of my posts about daydreaming, but apparently this one has.  Check it out.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/10/03/mind-wandering_n_4024852.html

I cannot believe it. This site inspired me to begin to type down my DD. I am back full swing with the DDing. After a break for a couple weeks. I did want it back. I'm lost and gloomy without it. I cannot bear to not DD. I'm nowhere in the place where I could let it go. I just cannot. I will save that for another entry.

But, I just finished chapter one. I feel good committing my DD and my characters to print somewhere. My Livejournal on "private" actually. I feel like I'm saving them…

I'm sorry this is so long - I'm treating it like a journal entry. I've never posted to a site before and don't think what I write will be of any help, but just reading posts of others who suffer this has helped me immensely. When I researched this, and learned this MDD was a thing, I hit the roof. I've suffered from this for almost 20 years. Just writing this post right now feels like a gulp of fresh air, so if you're reading - I'm sorry it's long winded and rambling.

I've never…

Hi everyone, I just got home last night from a 2 week school trip to France. It was one of the best experiences of my life and I'm definitely going to go back some time in the future!

During the trip however, my daydreams seemed to dramatically increase. I think all the new places, situations and surroundings fuelled my imagination and I couldn't help but use these new experiences as inspiration for my fantasies. It was literally occurring every single second, even as I stood at the…

Hello,

Can I be honest when I say it's nice to know i'm not the only one in this crazy world who's a "day dreamer"

I found out about this website in a science magazine talking about Maladaptive daydreamers and was like, Oh my goodness, there are other people out there and there is a forum for it too!

I was shocked to say the least.

So a little about myself.

Maybe not a little since I can really go indepth…

Well, I saw my GI doc, and he finally provided some answers to what’s been going on.  He said my chart was an interesting read.  He thinks my liver failure was perhaps the result of a blood clot in the liver, which was perhaps the result of my surgery, or it could be a reaction to something they gave me in the hospital like the anesthesia.  He’s certain it’s nothing I did or took.  He’s also certain it’s a surgical complication.  The only part of that I question is how I might have gotten…

Okay so I have researched and read that is takes on average, 30 days to break a habit. Since my MDD is in the stage of doing it out of habit. I have started this no MDD challenge with myself. I want to break my MDD habit by the end of October. If I don't break it, I want to at least improve on controlling it or slow down on how much I do it by at least half.

Hopefully this works and I will do an update in November to see where I' am.

---Mynx

I had to write an essay on the prompt "Imagination is the key to a full life". I ended up spending the rest of the exam MDing about posting this. Lucky for me, I managed to finish it and it was only a practice. Safe to say I strongly disagreed to the prompt.

I always dream about real world stuff. I use people I do know (not famous) as my characters. I will dream one thing for awhile and then I move on, but not before I have a whole story going on.....

If anyone ever needs material for a novel, I've got ém........LOL 

I've MDD'ed pretty much my entire life and like most people here, would rather be on my own than with most other people.  I'm what you might call a high functioning person, with a university degree, good job, lovely husband, etc, and I'm incredibly grateful for my blessings.  Which makes me wonder why I'm still doing this. 

I think my MDD started as a coping mechanism for a difficult, volatile and lonely childhood.  But ultimately, I'm not a child.  And it's my own decisions, not my…

So I have a relative, a kid. He's 9 years old and i'm afraid he might become an MDer because he's actively daydreaming.. I started MDing when I was 10 so i'm a bit worried. I don't know how sto prevent it or if I should......

I just don't want that kid to go through what i've gone through and am going through.....