I'm on a roll with blogging today.

Perhaps, it was motivated by the experience I had today. Not only forcing myself to be social and get out and it ending up being one of those RARE positive experiences for me - but also being so off the cuff about MDD... but also perhaps, it was due to pent up frustration from having the lack of privacy at home to DD...but I was motivated to write another huge scene of my DD.

When I was into writing and calling myself a writer ...trying to…

It just popped out of my mouth. As if I was telling her that I was a Gemini and liked long walks on the beach. I mean ...boom. "Yeah, I have Maladaptive Day Dreaming disorder." Like it was nothing. 2nd person I've ever told and I hardly know her.

I had a kid play date with another "crunchy" mom. I cloth diaper and blah blah. Kind of hippie here. Met her through a local mutual interest group on Facebook. She added me and we hit it off. So many similar interests. Both hate being…

I am so thankful that I stumbled upon and joined this network today. I have only recently (about 2 months ago) discovered the term Maladaptive Daydreaming but feel so much better having done so. Finally, I have an answer for what I have been doing for as far back in my childhood as I can remember and know now that I am not alone in doing this.

Now in my 40's, I still daydream daily and am now convinced my 10 year old daughter is daydreaming as well. She has a character that she has…

I have become so indecisive and insecure. I can’t decide where to go , whether to go, when to go, what to order, what TV program to watch, what bag to carry, where to go 1^st if I go to get food. I am totally confused. I am also the hardest on myself. Almost demeaning myself when there is no one else to do it. Scolding myself for being indecisive, for being fat, for taking the wrong decisions, for being…

Hey all,

Came across an interesting article outlining the history of psychological research into daydreaming...referred to as "mind wandering" in the article. 

http://blogs.scientificamerican.com/guest-blog/2011/12/22/the-origins-of-positive-constructive-daydreaming/

It discusses three types of daydreaming…

If you truly want help read the whole thing....

I hope this helps you guys.

I noticed that whenever I would think I would not daydream. By thinking I mean basically talking to yourself (and only to yourself) in your head. By doing this I controlled the urge to daydream. I know they say to avoid triggers like music, t.v., etc. to prevent daydreaming but I thought to myself "what kind of life is that?" And I decided to find a way to stop maladaptive daydreaming.…

There was a part of me, that always knew, that if i didnt get this under control, i would be an adult child, stuck in my ways. I had always thought i would eventually grow out of it, that was partly denial, part wishful thinking. I couldnt have been more wrong, because as i got older, it got worse.

I have never felt more ashamed, or patheic. And coming from me, that is saying A LOT! I am finally starting to tell people about my MDD that will hopefully help in some way. I…

“Finish every day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.”

I forgive myself. Or will try to. I deserve to be happy. I want to. I just don’t know how.

Okay, so I haven't thought this out very much, and it may be a little ramble-y, but I will try to avoid that.

So I just read a comment (by MatthewR) a short while ago, and I thought, how many of you appear cold and distant on the outside, but emotional on the inside? Or do you often feel more emotion in your fantasy world than when things happen in real life? Or are you often emotionally cold and withdrawn, and it shows? Or... well, what's your level of emotion-feeling…

I stalled a bit in writing. I have not abandoned it. I haven't lost hope for that. And I am not down. But a tad bit disappointed. Oddly enough my DD/Story needs a bit more ....thought. That's right. I have to put MORE thought into my DD. Something isn't it?

Plot holes abound.

Anyway, I have returned to the less manic DD's and instead I'm looping again. The same scene loops. Over and over until I fall asleep. Maybe subtle changes in dialogue or gestures. I'm so…

http://www.reddit.com/r/MaladaptiveDreaming/

Let me know if have any suggestions.  Thx.

I have been away for a while and I am sure some people are wondering where I went. In the middle of August Bryn and I got married in Wales. We went back to London for a week to pack then move back to Canada. I was accepted to do my Masters at The University of Victoria and Bryn was offered a job at The Pacific Undersea Gardens so we have rented a flat in Victoria, British Columbia. It took a few weeks to get moved in and about a month to get our internet.

I am at school Monday to…

I always took my ability to write for granted. I didn’t realize being two years away from studying any subject that allowed me to exercise that ability I would lose my (according to me) flair to express myself/have an edge irrespective of what I was doing/have at least according to my imagination “to my hukum ka ikka” (ace in hole) .That edge whether imaginary or real served me well. Maybe it was an ability to respond to given material that training in the school system provided, not a…

“Be a better person. You can’t keep your personality out of the work. It’s impossible…. If you’re rigid or you’re distorting reality, it goes into the guitar. And when you play it, it comes back out. It’s disturbing. I used to believe that but I never had any proof of it. But I’ve played enough handmade guitars and then later met the maker. Sure enough, it’s inseparable….”

So true ... I have tried to keep the two separate, pushing me a point of…

I have some news that will probably anger many people.  It's certainly angered a few of you.  

As many of you have probably noticed, Alex constantly talked about wanting to die and hurting herself.  This is very serious to me.  I couldn't just sit by and not respond.  Many of us, including me, tried the gentle approach of sitting with her for hours and just talking to her.  That didn't help.  I eventually tried the tough love approach.  That only angered her.  I didn't know…