Commiting it to page.

[Stormy]

I cannot believe it. This site inspired me to begin to type down my DD. I am back full swing with the DDing. After a break for a couple weeks. I did want it back. I'm lost and gloomy without it. I cannot bear to not DD. I'm nowhere in the place where I could let it go. I just cannot. I will save that for another entry.

But, I just finished chapter one. I feel good committing my DD and my characters to print somewhere. My Livejournal on "private" actually. I feel like I'm saving them somewhere. And it feels like I'm legitimizing my DD too. By making it more into a "book" I'm typing out instead of just this quirk addiction. Though it is very much still Maladaptive DDing - it's at least something else too.

It's really surreal to see it coming out. As it's scifi I find I will fail at a lot of the science part. But that isn't so important right now. I can even literally type out: (insert scientific stuff here) just to be able to keep going without breaking my pace with the story or getting stressed out by the details that I clearly would need to research.

Anyone else doing this? I know some of you are. I have read it so on your blogs. I can't remember exactly who said they were but I know some of you are as that is what inspired me to do so. How does it make you feel? To see it ...to read it.

Do you obsessively read what you write over and over? I am a touch OCD. Maybe more than a touch. So that is some of it. But I read and read and read it. And feel pretty pleased as punch.

[JenBren]

I'm like Michelle, I can't write it down for fear someone will find it and read it. I do however keep a journal of a different sort. Once I found out that MD existed, I did all the reading I could. I bought a journal and keep printouts of some of those articles in the journal, highlighting the characteristics that I exhibit. I also have clippings of quotes or photos of daydreaming, and cut out pictures of characters from movies or lyrics from songs (whatever the case may be) that trigger my daydreams. I even print out images from Pinterest that resemble some of the story lines from my DD. So I'm keeping a journal without putting it down in words. If someone else finds the book, they would more than likely just think it was random things that interest me. It feels safer that way. 

[Stormy]

Thank you so much Matthew! Yes it does make such a difference. Michelle have you heard of Livejournal.com? I've had an account (well several) since 2003. THere are settings on them. The private setting is such a great private place to put thoughts down somewhere online where it's password protected. It would be difficult for someone to get into your recorded thoughts and such there. Unlike things that are kept on a desktop word processor or written journal or notebook. I do enjoy having an livejournal for the sake of privacy!