Musing about writing

[S K]

I always took my ability to write for granted. I didn’t realize being two years away from studying any subject that allowed me to exercise that ability I would lose my (according to me) flair to express myself/have an edge irrespective of what I was doing/have at least according to my imagination “to my hukum ka ikka” (ace in hole) .That edge whether imaginary or real served me well. Maybe it was an ability to respond to given material that training in the school system provided, not a talent that stood on its own. Maybe it is something that is situational; it needs necessary mental stimulation and consistent mental stimulation to work. Maybe it only surfaces occasionally, either way I’m wondering if it’s something I can back on in a career as a kill, not having a writing career as such but one which employs that skill. If I can’t depend upon it even though it interests my brain, is it something I can make a career in. I don’t want to go down that route to a career that seems dead to me. But again the deadening element may just meet my own pre-conceived expectations. I studied Accountancy in my +2. I liked the subject and scored really well. But the image of accountancy in my head was one of boredom courtesy of the media, especially cartoons. Every single cartoon has a negative stereotype of accountants as boring, balding sleepy old men, of dusty library corners with hardbound books withering away, a corner of Hogwarts in my minds’ eye. I sometimes fear that the media influence and fast-moving social change screwed up the wiring in my brain though the truth is a lot more complicated.

[S K]

Thanks. .. your replies always make me feel better.