Love and Laughter

[Sky with Diamonds]

In my opinion, the two most important things in life are love and laughter. Having MDD deprives me of both. It does this by dripiving me of having healthy relationships with people. Thats what i long for the most. Im so tired of being lonley and feeling traped by MDD. My profile picture for this site is obviously not me. But thats how my life use to be. Being with friends, and belly laughing. Thats also why i have such a hard time of letting go, becasue i use to have what i value most. And now it just seems like a distant memory. Since ive had it once, i know its possible to have it again. But its just been so long, i dont know how to get it back. Fellow MDDers, how do you balance having MDD and having positive relationships that involve laughing? And i dont mean just a simple laugh hear and there. Im talking about uncontrollable, gutt wrenching, painful laughter that makes all the hradships in life feel worth it. I want that back. More than anything. More than i want to stop DDing even. Thats all i want. To share that kind of laughter with people, once again.

[taffle]

I haven't had "uncontrollable, gutt wrenching, painful laughter" with friends in a long time. Nowadays, I laugh at shows, manga, dramas, and stuff I see online, but I can't seem to laugh with people aside from my parents.

[Rafael Hernandez]

Like ShellyBelly i think the same. But sometimes MDD can be coupled with other problems (like me with social and general anxiety). So firts you need to find what are these problems, and if they exists, go after them so you can have better quality of life.

But as i always says, to find them is better do it with a professional like a therapist.

Good luck Sky and remember you are not alone in this.

[ShellyBelly]

I was thinking the same thing. I believe I may have avoidant personality disorder as well and it is hard to get close to people. However, I have friend who also has similar social awkwardness and we get along fine. Maybe we need to find more people like us. In other words, maybe in some respect it isn't you, but maybe you just haven't found the people you truly click with like that yet.

[Larry]

Well, I can't say I handle things like that all too well, but I'm figuring that if you want to belly laugh you gotta giggle first. And in order to giggle you have to have a smile on your face...and with a smile on your face friends will come.
That's my theory anyway. :0)