The other day I had a moment of clarity about my life. I looked at myself and thought, what the heck have I done with my life. Nothing. Nothing at all really. So then, of course I have begun to DD at every possible moment. When I don't have to be engaged in life, I am off in my mind.

Sometimes, I think that DD cripples me. Sometimes, I feel like it saves me. I guess it truly is an addiction.

Usually, I have no desire to stop because it feels harmless to me. A few days later, I…

i dont do this anymore, but when i was younger, as a source for character apperances i would use cartoons instead of celebrities. From that i would try to picture them looking like people.

i have a feeling no one did this, but  was just thinking about it and it made me laugh a bit.

mostly because the characters i had were so random. I had dash from the incredibles, elroy from the jetsons, red from the movie hoodwinked, and i based a character off of a cartoon version of a doll from…

Hello out there! I guess I'll use this as my introductory post of sorts. Also, HOLY WALL OF TEXT, BATMAN!  I'M SORRY. D:

For some background information, I'd like to say I've lived in a very stable family, and like to think I've led a fairly mild real life, silly as that sounds typing it out. c:

I'm an only child, my parents are together, I have pets, it's all really nice. My parents are the type of people I can hug or talk to anytime, they're very open minded,…

is this not the sweetness you crave?

your heart's desire?

solitude from reality?

no. it is bitterness to me

the bitterness grows in the marrow, 

the poison flows through my veins,

my life is fading

drained by the bitterness in me

I weep, I cry out. 

there is no where to run 

no where to hid

for the monster is in me

I am but a shell

all that I was is gone

I disappear as it…

 I used to DD about a girl who I admired and it made me become obsessed with her. Has this happened to anyone else?

Being able to guide your DD, control the scenes. Is it possible? and to what extent. This is what we are talking about on the radio show today, 3pm eastern time. 

So,  I posted a discussion, couldn't find a way to make a poll, so I just asked the question, to what extent can you control your DDs? I would love to get some responses and see what other people feel about this. 

My Poll;…

My latest blog entry is entitled "Daydream Believer."  It describes some of my feelings and experiences with maladaptive daydreaming.  Feel free to read it at mymendingwall.com

I haven't been on here for quite a long time- there's now a bunch of new people, so hi to you all, and welcome.

I'm kind of hoping to update how things have been lately, and I'll try not to ramble and merge onto different subjects as I usually do, so hopefully it'll be neater and more readable. I probably won't be in chronological order or anything, though.

I checked my last blog post today, I mentioned I'd started study. I now have music in the car and I find…

Hi people.  Its been a long time since i've posted anything.  I thought i'd let you all know i'm leaving tomorrow for a month long meditation retreat called a Dathun.  The retreat will be located in Colorado.  My hope is it will help with my MD.  When i return, i'll give you a review of my experience and whether it helped me or not.  Take care and Merry Christmas everybody!

Good, early morning Wild-Minders,

   I have been searching for a name to put to a mental episode that happened to me when I was younger. From between 4th grade to about 9-10th. Now this is a story I don't share with many, but I know that all of you are more understanding than other people could ever be. From what I have read over the bit of time I've spent on here (I hope to spend much more) I have read a wide range of involvement when it come to your DDs.

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Well, hey guys. I'm 15 years old,  and i realize i have this...thing. I want to explore it fully, control it, rather than supress it, i wanted to know if anyone felt this way and if you could help me, its affecting my grades, i am naturally smart, its just im getting to distracted now a days, and the problem is that i am really good at it, i can daydream about anything, anytime, right now i consider it a good and bad thing

I never really saw my daydreaming as a problem, per se. This has always been my sordid secret. Sometimes I'm not where my body is, that's the most I've every admitted to what I do. My husband doesn't even know, and we are so close.

Out of curiousity, and perhaps a bit of obsessive studying, I just googled about my fantasies and was brought to a phrase: maladaptive daydreaming. Now I can be a tad phobic about medical conditions, but this was the first time I ever had something…

Lady Tuesday isn't my real name.  I've never told anyone about my daydreaming before.  And I don't plan to anytime soon, at least not anonymously.  I'm also not comfortable sharing my daydreams either.  Maybe, one day in the future, I'll feel ready to tell you about what goes on in my dinky little head.  It's not anything heinous or embarrassing, it's just I feel that my daydreams are something that belongs to me, and me only.  The characters I've made up are very dear to me, the…

Been reading a lot of stuff about people believing there's a link between MD and OCD. And while I can see how it makes sense it never really occurred to me, whenever I've filled in forms or been asked if I have any OCD like behaviours I've always said NO. 
Perhaps I should discuss it with my psychiatrist when I go for my medication review, but the reality is I probably won't mention it... I don't really like her.

Listen to me for a moment 

Think about me for a moment

All I want is a moment

A moment of your attention

A moment of your affection

A moment, A moment, A moment

I need you

I want you

I crave you

A moment, A moment, A moment

It's all a dream but,

I want you

I want it all, I need it all

I need a moment of peace

From the raging beast

A moment, A moment, A moment

Quiet please, silence…

Does anyone have any tips on how to stop MD?  Or at least control it to some extent?

I feel like its ruining my life!  In fact I know it is!



Whatever I MD about I base my real world around it, Things have really gotten out of hand, For example, Long story cut short, In my daydreaming I had a baby, And I was going out and having unprotected sex! In hope that I would actually get pregnant, I know its insane! Lucky I didn't get pregnant and now my daydreaming is based around…

I've been mding since i was about 6-7 and im 19 now i only found out about this site through googling stuff about depression and anxiety. I thought it was normal and everyone did it when i found out it was a condition and many people have it i felt a sense of belonging i knew i was a bit different from the average person in terms of the way i think and stuff but never knew why this explained a lot and helped clear my head. I dont think mding will go away i think we just have to live with it…

I really don't know what I'm typing this for. I don't know if it will help anyone to understand who doesn't have MD or maybe let someone else know they "aren't alone" in what I am about to explain. I highly doubt it will do either of those things but here it goes. I feel kind of stupid typing this because it almost seems like I'm trying to say "Hey! Look at me! Pay attention to what I have to say!". Anyway, here it goes. I realized I had a problem with daydreaming when I started to play as…

I have been gone for a while... I did start that new job, and in the beginning it was great as I was so consumed by learning new tasks and staying alert-- I didn't daydream much!  Then, it kicked right back in and I was also on 'side alert' to make sure no one would catch me!



It really made me realize how crazy this really could be to the average person!  



I haven't been able to see my therapist for a while though, as right now I'm in the 90 day period of my job where I'm…