I truly hope that I or anyone else on this site will not wake up someday years later and not know the difference between what's real and what's not!

No matter how much I talk with someone or am around someone, it feels like there is some sort of invisible wall between us. It feels like I am far away and only vaguely aware. I can’t make friends. I can’t feel what I want to feel for another person. I just have a disconnect with everyone I interact with; whether they be in real life or on the internet. I feel bad because I want to feel something for someone else but I can’t. I want those…

Anybody notice the pretty decent-sized MDD community on Tumblr? Well, they claim to have MDD but all they really say is that they daydream kinda often.  Don't tell me I'm the only one who sees the enormous amounts of false claims on Tumblr, maybe it's all in my head.  :P

I am......  Wish I could have the life I dd about.  Frustrates the hell out of me.  Anybody that says that "Life is What You Make It" lies.  If my life was what I made it in my DD.... Bliss!

Finally got my lawyer to schedule a court date because this has gone over a year now in divorce. I had to meet him to look at the motorcycle to see if I would take it and the payments. yeah I may have scratched the paint but he's beat it up. Its covered in dents and the rear blinkers held on with duct tape. I've been trying to distract my self all day from violents and angry daydreams. I'm 8 months pregnant I don't need to be stressing out, day dreams make my pulse rate soar and I'm already…

The other day I had a moment of clarity about my life. I looked at myself and thought, what the heck have I done with my life. Nothing. Nothing at all really. So then, of course I have begun to DD at every possible moment. When I don't have to be engaged in life, I am off in my mind.

Sometimes, I think that DD cripples me. Sometimes, I feel like it saves me. I guess it truly is an addiction.

Usually, I have no desire to stop because it feels harmless to me. A few days later, I…

i dont do this anymore, but when i was younger, as a source for character apperances i would use cartoons instead of celebrities. From that i would try to picture them looking like people.

i have a feeling no one did this, but  was just thinking about it and it made me laugh a bit.

mostly because the characters i had were so random. I had dash from the incredibles, elroy from the jetsons, red from the movie hoodwinked, and i based a character off of a cartoon version of a doll from…

Hello out there! I guess I'll use this as my introductory post of sorts. Also, HOLY WALL OF TEXT, BATMAN!  I'M SORRY. D:

For some background information, I'd like to say I've lived in a very stable family, and like to think I've led a fairly mild real life, silly as that sounds typing it out. c:

I'm an only child, my parents are together, I have pets, it's all really nice. My parents are the type of people I can hug or talk to anytime, they're very open minded,…

is this not the sweetness you crave?

your heart's desire?

solitude from reality?

no. it is bitterness to me

the bitterness grows in the marrow, 

the poison flows through my veins,

my life is fading

drained by the bitterness in me

I weep, I cry out. 

there is no where to run 

no where to hid

for the monster is in me

I am but a shell

all that I was is gone

I disappear as it…

 I used to DD about a girl who I admired and it made me become obsessed with her. Has this happened to anyone else?

Being able to guide your DD, control the scenes. Is it possible? and to what extent. This is what we are talking about on the radio show today, 3pm eastern time. 

So,  I posted a discussion, couldn't find a way to make a poll, so I just asked the question, to what extent can you control your DDs? I would love to get some responses and see what other people feel about this. 

My Poll;…

My latest blog entry is entitled "Daydream Believer."  It describes some of my feelings and experiences with maladaptive daydreaming.  Feel free to read it at mymendingwall.com

I haven't been on here for quite a long time- there's now a bunch of new people, so hi to you all, and welcome.

I'm kind of hoping to update how things have been lately, and I'll try not to ramble and merge onto different subjects as I usually do, so hopefully it'll be neater and more readable. I probably won't be in chronological order or anything, though.

I checked my last blog post today, I mentioned I'd started study. I now have music in the car and I find…

Hi people.  Its been a long time since i've posted anything.  I thought i'd let you all know i'm leaving tomorrow for a month long meditation retreat called a Dathun.  The retreat will be located in Colorado.  My hope is it will help with my MD.  When i return, i'll give you a review of my experience and whether it helped me or not.  Take care and Merry Christmas everybody!

Good, early morning Wild-Minders,

   I have been searching for a name to put to a mental episode that happened to me when I was younger. From between 4th grade to about 9-10th. Now this is a story I don't share with many, but I know that all of you are more understanding than other people could ever be. From what I have read over the bit of time I've spent on here (I hope to spend much more) I have read a wide range of involvement when it come to your DDs.

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Well, hey guys. I'm 15 years old,  and i realize i have this...thing. I want to explore it fully, control it, rather than supress it, i wanted to know if anyone felt this way and if you could help me, its affecting my grades, i am naturally smart, its just im getting to distracted now a days, and the problem is that i am really good at it, i can daydream about anything, anytime, right now i consider it a good and bad thing

I never really saw my daydreaming as a problem, per se. This has always been my sordid secret. Sometimes I'm not where my body is, that's the most I've every admitted to what I do. My husband doesn't even know, and we are so close.

Out of curiousity, and perhaps a bit of obsessive studying, I just googled about my fantasies and was brought to a phrase: maladaptive daydreaming. Now I can be a tad phobic about medical conditions, but this was the first time I ever had something…

Lady Tuesday isn't my real name.  I've never told anyone about my daydreaming before.  And I don't plan to anytime soon, at least not anonymously.  I'm also not comfortable sharing my daydreams either.  Maybe, one day in the future, I'll feel ready to tell you about what goes on in my dinky little head.  It's not anything heinous or embarrassing, it's just I feel that my daydreams are something that belongs to me, and me only.  The characters I've made up are very dear to me, the…

Been reading a lot of stuff about people believing there's a link between MD and OCD. And while I can see how it makes sense it never really occurred to me, whenever I've filled in forms or been asked if I have any OCD like behaviours I've always said NO. 
Perhaps I should discuss it with my psychiatrist when I go for my medication review, but the reality is I probably won't mention it... I don't really like her.