Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
Good, early morning Wild-Minders,
I have been searching for a name to put to a mental episode that happened to me when I was younger. From between 4th grade to about 9-10th. Now this is a story I don't share with many, but I know that all of you are more understanding than other people could ever be. From what I have read over the bit of time I've spent on here (I hope to spend much more) I have read a wide range of involvement when it come to your DDs.
When I was young I became so mentally involved in a world that I believed it. I became split, mentally. There was a part of my mind that was "me" and a part that was another person entirely. The other part had the ability to come and go as she pleased but most often would spend her time "in control" of my body. She would push my mind into the background or sit there herself and just "watch". Now comes the embarrassing part. In this she was an alien and here to study humans. Through a device supposedly planted in me she was able to transfer her mind into mine from her home planet(thus allowing the ability to travel between worlds daily). She would spend our days here and our nights back home. Every night (for the duration of it happening) I only ever had dreams of being her "back home". Now enter a third party into all this. Like an imaginary friend (that I couldn't see due to a cloaking device) there was another person who followed me and her and talked to me and her. He was supposedly there to watch her back and was also a lover of the other one's. Him and I sometimes would talk at night when she was gone and unable to find out. Although I could not see him I was able to feel him.
Months ago I did some research and was looking for a way to explain this. I came acr0ss Dissociative Disorders. Dissociative Identity Disorder in particular. Now I am hoping to get feedback from anyone who has ever been so far down their rabbit hole to experience something remotely like this. Or if anyone is knowledgeable (book or personal) on if this would be considered something dissociative or not. It's not the only split I've had, just the earliest. They come, some go. I am open to any and all questions. And thank you in advance for any feedback you can give.