Has anyone ever stopped day dreaming? or got close to stopping?  I just don't understand how i can't "stop" its my body my mind i have control over what it does. Or so i thought. I've been dealing with this since i could remember just little fun day dreams nothing to what they're like now.

I've always told my self "when i get to this age it'll be gone" "i'll grow out of it" I'm 15 now and its worse as its ever been. Most kids my age have hobbies or "friends" something they do on…

That word sums up life right now. Confused, overwhelmed, and hopeless. That's how it feels.

I went to a therpist this week, she was nice, she said all my goals were acheivable but I don't think she understands. How hard it is to stop. I hate mental disorders. I used to want to be a therapist and now I just hate everything about social science and psychology. I hate anything that puts emotions and personalities to a science. Like "if you're shy or anxious and don't have friends, you…

In advance sorry if this is boring (>_<)/

I have made a new best friend since I moved to my old town. Honestly I didnt think I could do it. I use to be very shy and never talked to new people (at my old town my friends were childhood friends). Luckly I got the courage to try and make friends and now I have no problem of making friends and am rather social (sort of.. still get nervous with new people).  I…

do you base them off celebrities or people?

because i do.........

i find it kind of hard to make up a persons face and what not so i base them off of celebrities and people ive seen

but over time i will kind of forget what the celebrity looks like so my character kind of looks like their own person.



anyway i thought id be interesting and post a picture of a celebrity that one of my charcaters is based off of.…

Why is it that I feel like I am living just to satisfy others. The actions I do satisfy others more then it does for me.

Why is it that when I think about the future I only know how others will feel about my future, and not how I feel about it.

Why must I satisfy others more then myself. If I could I would just stay in my room and still think about how others are thinking about me.

 Sometimes I wish Cystal would come along and sweep me away and…

Here I am sitting at my desk at work, crying, God don't let my boss walk in now. Had a big fight with my husband this morning. I so want to talk to someone, then I realize I have no friends. ha, I have over 1700 facebook friends who needed me for a squad add or farm neighbor etc. I don't know any of them. I have no real friend, no one who really cares if my life is falling apart. I guess MD is to blame, making real inter-human realtionships hard to form. Or is it just being an introvert. I…

"I guess it's just because I'm a very introverted person. I may act all happy and friendly when I meet someone or when I'm out with people but that's all it is --an act. The truth is, I like to be alone. I like to sit in silence and just think, about nothing or sometimes important things. But I like to just get lost in my thoughts. Sometimes I throw on an over sized shirt and take my pants off and just dance around…

I know this sounds crazy but I was thinking, what if I did vanish into my DD world, just gone. Unexplained missing person. What would my family, coworkers, etc think. I try to imagine this so I won't be so unhappy about being stuck here. I try to think of how I would be missed, maybe I would miss things here? I even imagine myself in my new world being sad about those I left. But....it doesn't work for long, I still feel I am living in the wrong world. But I have to try something.

I feel like Cassandra. But, I also feel like Fiona, Stokeleiyn, Astrid, Hanna, and about 5-10 other more minor characters. I feel as though I am these people, but that they are no part of me. I don't know if that makes sense. I don't really know how to articulate it correctly.

I have taken time to read a lot of blog posts on this site and read people's stories.

It almost comforts me to know that there are people here that encourage each

other and can relate because we all know what maladaptive daydreaming feels

like. One thing is true, we all daydream because we are missing something in…

(To start with I want to say this post was inspired by a blog by Roobles. Thanks Roobles!)

I think that more people than you could ever imagine have MD. Think about how many people might not have access to a computer and therefore wouldn't be able to find this website or any other website about MD. And then there are the people who just have never bothered to actually search to find out what they might actually have. A lot of people say when they first join this site that they've had…

Last night I told my mom about everything. I tried to start it off as no big deal, but naturally, I ended up crying and saying stuff that didn't even make sense.

She was really nice about it, which honestly makes it worse for me. I feel like the biggest dissapointment ever as a kid. Which I know is wrong, because I didn't ask for this, it's no one's fault. She's thinking I might have a mild case of Asperger's. When she said that I blew up. I was surprised at how upset I…

yeah,

although my DD decreased a lot, there are still days (like these) where I'm flooded by external triggers and the unstoppable fantasies become almost law. So here am I, due to the needing of express my self.

Will be the sweet smell of spring's flowers, or the impalpable rain of pollen that envelops me when going to the university, it seems to me i've passed a breaking point, there is no more way to hold them, and then i start DD.

Ok, DD is creativity but losing the…

So, I once again have fifteen minutes before class, and rather then die of boredom, I have decided to write about life. Not life in general, because that subject would be much to broad, but more specifically the recent events within my life, and all the wonderful lessons I have learned.

To sum it all up, without boring you, over the past few weeks I have aced tests, failed tests, had several panic attacks, and cried of joy. I have lost a competition, and been bullied to the…

               I feel that DD has made me shy. I use to not be shy in 6th grade I was loud and made many friends. I have lots of friends still but I am shy and dont talk to much. I feel that I do not have a personality sometimes. For two years I have been going to a high school but had to move my jr year. I hated moving away from a place i felt confortable. I managed to over comming my fears and made lots of friends. My problem is just talking to them. Its not that I do not want to bt I feel…