Didn't want to set a title warning about this being vent/rant/drama because they are my real feelings, but i guess others may see it that way so you know what to do, stop reading and go do something else.

That said i'll start: it's 3h30am, i took my 2mg rivotril at dinner time and it usually knocks me down feel hours later. GAD is back for sure and it's been time it doesn't show up as heavy as this. I'm dead tired and still thoughts won't…

Not sure where to put this. Its not like I am delusional or something. I just imagine what would be the 'optimal' things for the characters to say, if I were in their shoes or I was writing a script.

My fear of social situations is so bad that I have stopped watching many movies and tv shows because there is an awkward situation. I am too empathic, it feels like all that shit is actually happening to me and I get nervous.

I have been daydreaming as long as I can remember since a child- I am now nearly 50 & feel that I have dreamt my life away. By the time I was 18 I realised that I needed to stop the excessive dreaming as it was affecting my whole life. Ever since then I have tried and failed to stop.

I have wasted so much time. I spent holidays & days out with people ignoring them & going to bed early just so I could dream.…

hey everyone! ok...so before today i had never even heard of the term MD. Earlier on, i was randomly thinking about how i always daydream and thought of the term 'i live in my mind' to describe myself....so i googled it to see if anyone else had come up with it, and ended up here! reading through the symptoms was honestly quite scary because i can relate to most of them :\ its only now starting to occur to me that there may be something wrong with me...im starting to realise that i use my…

Hello everyone!

To start off, I just wanted to say thank you times a million to those of you who helped me get through my issues by commenting and helping me with my last post. I really appreciate all of your help. It really helps me out to know that there are others like me who are going through the same thing. :)

Anyways, I know a lot of great bands, and I know I have posted a blog similar to this one before, but this time it will be a little…

I was just wondering. All my characters in my daydreams have a significant other. I may have family and friends who love me, but I don't have that one person. What really gets me is this: I'm like 100% okay with being single. I actually prefer to be single. I guess the romance I create in my head is enough for me. 

Is this wrong? I don't want to have a boyfriend because in my head I'm already involved with so many other people..... And now, I'm starting to wonder if the reason…

Has anyone ever stopped day dreaming? or got close to stopping?  I just don't understand how i can't "stop" its my body my mind i have control over what it does. Or so i thought. I've been dealing with this since i could remember just little fun day dreams nothing to what they're like now.

I've always told my self "when i get to this age it'll be gone" "i'll grow out of it" I'm 15 now and its worse as its ever been. Most kids my age have hobbies or "friends" something they do on…

That word sums up life right now. Confused, overwhelmed, and hopeless. That's how it feels.

I went to a therpist this week, she was nice, she said all my goals were acheivable but I don't think she understands. How hard it is to stop. I hate mental disorders. I used to want to be a therapist and now I just hate everything about social science and psychology. I hate anything that puts emotions and personalities to a science. Like "if you're shy or anxious and don't have friends, you…

In advance sorry if this is boring (>_<)/

I have made a new best friend since I moved to my old town. Honestly I didnt think I could do it. I use to be very shy and never talked to new people (at my old town my friends were childhood friends). Luckly I got the courage to try and make friends and now I have no problem of making friends and am rather social (sort of.. still get nervous with new people).  I…

do you base them off celebrities or people?

because i do.........

i find it kind of hard to make up a persons face and what not so i base them off of celebrities and people ive seen

but over time i will kind of forget what the celebrity looks like so my character kind of looks like their own person.



anyway i thought id be interesting and post a picture of a celebrity that one of my charcaters is based off of.…

Why is it that I feel like I am living just to satisfy others. The actions I do satisfy others more then it does for me.

Why is it that when I think about the future I only know how others will feel about my future, and not how I feel about it.

Why must I satisfy others more then myself. If I could I would just stay in my room and still think about how others are thinking about me.

 Sometimes I wish Cystal would come along and sweep me away and…

Here I am sitting at my desk at work, crying, God don't let my boss walk in now. Had a big fight with my husband this morning. I so want to talk to someone, then I realize I have no friends. ha, I have over 1700 facebook friends who needed me for a squad add or farm neighbor etc. I don't know any of them. I have no real friend, no one who really cares if my life is falling apart. I guess MD is to blame, making real inter-human realtionships hard to form. Or is it just being an introvert. I…

"I guess it's just because I'm a very introverted person. I may act all happy and friendly when I meet someone or when I'm out with people but that's all it is --an act. The truth is, I like to be alone. I like to sit in silence and just think, about nothing or sometimes important things. But I like to just get lost in my thoughts. Sometimes I throw on an over sized shirt and take my pants off and just dance around…

I know this sounds crazy but I was thinking, what if I did vanish into my DD world, just gone. Unexplained missing person. What would my family, coworkers, etc think. I try to imagine this so I won't be so unhappy about being stuck here. I try to think of how I would be missed, maybe I would miss things here? I even imagine myself in my new world being sad about those I left. But....it doesn't work for long, I still feel I am living in the wrong world. But I have to try something.

I feel like Cassandra. But, I also feel like Fiona, Stokeleiyn, Astrid, Hanna, and about 5-10 other more minor characters. I feel as though I am these people, but that they are no part of me. I don't know if that makes sense. I don't really know how to articulate it correctly.

I have taken time to read a lot of blog posts on this site and read people's stories.

It almost comforts me to know that there are people here that encourage each

other and can relate because we all know what maladaptive daydreaming feels

like. One thing is true, we all daydream because we are missing something in…

(To start with I want to say this post was inspired by a blog by Roobles. Thanks Roobles!)

I think that more people than you could ever imagine have MD. Think about how many people might not have access to a computer and therefore wouldn't be able to find this website or any other website about MD. And then there are the people who just have never bothered to actually search to find out what they might actually have. A lot of people say when they first join this site that they've had…