ive wanted to learn how to lucid dream for a while now but everytime i try  fail. but i seriously want to get the hang of it now because i think itd be really cool to lucid dream and see my characters and stuff. im going to bed soon so i hope i can tonight. i will tell you all about it whenever i lucid dream finally.

I got a wild hair to do a search on my problem of daydream and involuntary hand movement. I found links on maladaptive daydreaming. yeah a name for it, I identify with all the symptoms just too bad not much research on it. I've done it my whole life, even as a baby. when I day dream I'm gone totally in the movie in my head and I move my hands. I can't see my hands or much anything else. but sometimes the noise of my fingers rubbing together "wakes" me up. Sometimes I even let out a squeek.…

Has anyone ever tried cognitive therapy for MDD?  Where or how did you try it?  How does it work?  Thx.

Still neglecting this site.

Ooops.

I told my best friend about MDD.

We were both quite drunk. And we haven't mentioned it sense. I don't remember what her reaction was and I don't think she remembers me telling her. In a way I'm glad. I dunno if I'm really ready for her to know yet. 

I can't get out of my head. It's been non stop dd lately. I'm not complaining but I don't understand the increase of daydreaming. I dunno what has caused it. 

     It's all really frustrating with me. I know what I'm doing wrong, and I know how to fix it, I just don't. I hate myself for that. I feel like I have no self-control or will-power. The thing with me is I always have a plan of action, if you asked me any question, I could give you a life-saving answer, btu the doing part, it's harder. I'm just getting tired of everything.

    Today I've been a raging B word to say the least. My cousin & aunt came over and I wasn't…

It's been about a month since I last blogged here. My life is very hectic right now. I've been EXTREMELY busy this summer and I've kinda been going out of my mind. Everything is so stressful and I have all this responsibility and I have to be the person who does everything (it's not like anyone else could do it right anyway). I don't think I'm even making sense right now...... UGH.

This is probably the first time in this past month where I've had any real alone time, and…

wow,im not sure if you will all think me crazy asking this question.

its difficult for me to explain what i want to know,so i will explain my experience.

when i was younger(around 12),way too old though for the kind of stuff i describe i had a kind of hobby,obsesion or passtime,whatever you want to call it.i was living in the time of bouncy balls.you know the small rubber blls we used to play with.

i deided(or maybe someone else),it doesnt matter it…

I know it seems far out there but maybe 1 year under socially enforced mindful meditation would certainly help.  Are there any alternatives?  What do you think?

What do people think of this idea?  Do you think there are enough of us out there or registered on this website?  Can we  form self help groups of at least 5 or more in our city or local region?  Meetup.com would be a useful website for this.  What are your thoughts?

In memory of those who lost their lives (12 died) and the 59 injured at the Colorado movie theater and their families and loves ones, I encourage fellow malaptive daydreamers to consider abstaining from maladaptive day dreaming this Sunday. 

I feel powerless as I hear about this tragedy in the news.  It is a reminder to all of us that one minute you can be alive and another minute you are dead.  Life is such a gift and so precious.  Those who lost their lives in this tragedy will not…

I've been super busy and haven't had much time to get on here much to my dismay. I was also out of the country for about 2 weeks and only got back a few days ago. 

I'm doing well though. For the most part. Things seem to be looking up and I'm happy. 

However, I've been living in a pretty much constant day dream like state. 

I'm living parallel lives. It isn't really harming anything though. I'm a lot more distracted but that's pretty normal. 

I dunno though. It's…

This is an experiment to see if writing about a reoccurring DD will help make it go away. There is this scene that keeps replaying, like a song being stuck in my head, for months now. I am not a writer, I am an artist, so the use of words is strange for me. But we will see if this helps me move forward.

The Chase

There is snow everywhere, no sound, silence, the way it is when there is deep snow. No rustle of leaves or chirping of birds. All the earth watches in silence. I can…