my Experiment with MD

[dreamholic]

hi  I am 35 years old , I got MD since I was 13 years old as a teenage I loved  daydreaming , it all started  from my school , I was in love with a girl and I proposed her to be my gf,  unfortunately  I got  rejected, so I started to day dream about her, I found it  to be interesting and pleasurable, I was happy to say  at least I didn’t  get rejected in my dreams, so I started encouraging  my DD’s  and then I started dreaming  of other girls, this habit of  my went uncontrolled and  literally  I started to  get every new person I meet in  in my DD’s and tried to impress them, initially I was happy I though it weird but it’s fine until no one knows about it , but then as time went things  started getting worst , I started to day dream in public, I started getting people in my DDs whom even I don’t know, if I see a beautiful girl passing by,  next moment she is  my DD girl, if I see a expensive car, it’s in my DD,  driving the same car,  I started to do things  twice one in real world and same thing in my DD   soon I started to become unproductive I started to losing concentration, my memory became week, I couldn't remember things , this  brought me lot of stress and anxiety,  I did got caught few times by my friends and relatives  while I was DD ,they just saw me walking on the road talking alone  laughing making gestures, some of them did come back to me asking if everything was OK, I end up giving some stupid excuse  and  changed the topic but then these incidents kept me releasing that my DD is getting out of control, I need to control it or get rid of it before people start calling  me as  psycho, I always released that it’s something wrong deeply inside my mind,why i have to dream of every bull shit i see, i started getting depressed, but then i decided to fight back , i was confident that i am not the only person, bless by MD, (the word  MD i came to know recently before its i didn't have any name for this)  

Psychology is a science without a definition , every person has a unique mind, not all therapy works for all , meeting psychologist or therapist wouldn’t help much, there is no magic pill that works on mind, so instead going scientific way I decided to look for answers in spiritual world,

I am Indian,  spiritualism have deep roots in our culture , when I was kid I  heard lot of  stories on how ancient yogis applied different mind controlling  techniques through yoga to achieve Gnosis, this is one of  the subject which also fascinated me ,so I thought now it time to hit it,  I started reading books and  traditional manuscripts on this subject, I started  visiting  traditional yoga school and scared places , remember  I was in searching yoga for mind not for body, most of yoga school/studios teach yoga’s related to body but most of them even don’t know that yoga for mind do exists, in ancient India it was believed that to achieve higher level of senses  you need to have a perfect mind, to make your mind perfect you need to purify your body, so by going through  different stages of yoga one can prefect body and then  mind, in today’s world we are just practice yoga for perfect body no one bothers going beyond that, back to topic after spending few months trying different yogic techniques, I  came across over a very interesting  yoga medication known as “yoga nidra”  in modern terms  it’s also called as “ dream yoga, but it’s not popular, this very simple mediation , allows  you to intercept different layers of mind so called conscious state, the sub conscious state and the unconscious state and with bit of practice  you can actually reprogram your mind , you can archive highest state of relaxation which helps calm down your mind,  sounds interesting isn’t it,

well by now I won’t be  surprise while you guys reading this sentence most of them have already goggled the word “yoga nidra” and  learned how it works, in case if  your still  haven’t  done it yet please Google this term , try to understand what it is,  in my next blog post  I will discuss more on this subject and how this worked for me

[Jennifer]

Congrats on finding the name for your condition, and being determined to move on and not let this take over you. Sounds like you're doing the right thing; Finding something you can confide in and believe will help you move on with your life and not let MD get to you as often. :) Congrats again!

Good luck on your journey!

-Jennifer