She has everything in its place, the way it should be.

She has everything just so, the way it is supposed to be.

It all looks right.  No problems here.

Everything decorated with holiday cheer.

She walks the right way

She talks the right way

She laughs on queue

The world is a stage

And she is a star

And she always will be

Because she refuses

To let her fans

Her audience

Down.

She will not…

Dark rooms with four walls hold secrets and unbarable truths. It's something about the dark, quiet rooms that brings out old painful memories. I know people say what's done in the dark will come to light. But for me it's the opposite what I do in front of others is in the light. But wat I do for myself is in the dark. So it's more of what's done in the light will appear in the dark. For me…

I am so happy I found this site.  I have googled the most unspeakable things, haven't we all? Shock Value Education courtesy of the Wondrous World Wide Web. But to google "I pace uncontrollably in my room daydreaming my life away"... even the safety of my own computer, the deletion of history, of cookies... it rarely even crossed my mind. I am a freak. Google has no answers for me. Procrastinate, daydream, cyber surf.. wait I think I am…

First of all, to those who don't know, I have REALLY bad misophonia, which is extreme hatred of certain sounds.  There are some sounds that are so horrific to me that I'll pound on my ears and cry just to try and drown them out.  They're so bad, and I get so angry and horrified.  I've often wondered if it wouldn't be better just to be deaf and never hear anything rather than hear those sounds ever again.  The more frustrated I get, the more sensitive I am to the sound, so it just snowballs.…

The upside down question mark seems to fit really well with that title...

Anyways... This could sort of be considered an extension of my introduction, but I have several things about me that I think or wonder come from my maladaptive daydreaming. And I was wondering if any one else shared that same quirks.

-I am utterly terrible at spelling, and writing by hand has always been a bit of a struggle for me, I just really hate doing it and I feel like I would like…

I've been lurking around and posting hear and there for a while. But I never did any kind of formal introduction, so I figured I might as well.

My name is Marie. I am currently a junior in high-school, right now it is my dearest ambition to go to art school and become a graphic novel artist. I enjoy manga and anime, and the occasional American cartoon. I like action adventure manga and I have a particular fondness for really old cheesy space animes. And Gundam. I like Gundam…

Went to stay at a friend's house last night.  I should point out that my friend is a gay male; always felt more comfortable with gay males.  He knows the general background but doesn't know details of my childhood stuff.  He does not know about this though. Sat around watching It's Always Sunny in Philladelphia, which I had never seen.  Hilarious!  There was four of us and we just sat and watched tv and had a few drinks.  Took my mind off things and had a fairly normal evening.  2…

I didn't tell her about my MD. I just told her about my occasional bouts of anxiety and depression. I was saying it in a bit of a joking manner because I figured she wouldn't take me seriously if I asked to be put on Prozac or something. But after I told her, she told me that depression runs in my family and [in a non-sadist manner] I was excited. For two reasons;…

Read about this place in a magazine. So happy to know I'm not alone!!! I have had mass daydreaming problems for as long as I can remember! I constantly find myself thinking about various fictional characters or settings - my own creations or other's - multiple times every day. I've been teased, made fun of, had concern from others, and even been put on medication because of it. But I just can't help it. And yes, like most of you, I do deeply enjoy my daydreams. They're so much better than…

I am begining to suspect, I may be the oldest member currently attached to this Maladaptive Dreamer.   Good news, finally I am leading the curve on something!  It must be a challenge to build an interactive group from a selection of people who by their very defination do not interact with other real human beings, at least not well or on an emotional level.  There are of course exceptions but in general I think that…

1. maladaptive daydreaming is still debated as a diagnosis in psychiatry.

2. the said psychologist has not given any concrete CT, MRI or PET scan proofs to prove the origin of the disorder

3. the disorder is very much present. and it is considered to be an maladaptive form of personality, where by anxiety in a person pushes him to avoid a task at hand by day dreaming.

4. procrastination is a major part of this disorder .

5. as you said, medications like TCA and…

One of my friends committed suicide last year. I never posted any of my feelings about it on facebook or myspace because I hate it when people do that; I feel it's degrading to the person and disrespectful to the family. But here, not only am I anonymous, but not one other person on this website knows him. 

I felt so guilty. I was his ex-girlfriend/whatever we were, I don't recall any titles. But I never could say that I was in love with him. I loved him as a friend, but I never was…

This is verendus (awesome). Not only did those two little cherry bombs change my perspective of reality last summer, but they have led to a series of psychological changes to how I think.

First, it was that brief moment of clarity that I never though I would get back. The moment of what life was like without the constant emotion-draining daydreaming that swallowed my grasp of reality and fed me only a line of my own perfection. It was a staggeringly short moment of fresh air…

Nicole; 21; lesbian; little monster; electronic junkie

Those are the simple things you should know about me, now let's define them! :D

Yes, my name is Nicole (obviously) and I am 21 years old, I'm a lesbian who came out officially on 10/11/10. If you know what a Little Monster is, then you know that I really love Lady GaGa, she's my inspiration to live and be myself. By electronic junkie, I mean that I'm a huge electronic music person, I love to listen to…

I'm sure I'm not the only on here who feels like their life is a movie and your simply watching it, mindlessly going through the motions of a routine day. Every once in awhile we break out and realize, "Wow, this is real life, shouldn't I be focasing more?" And similar things like that before drifting back into the slow dream walk. Other times we break out from adrenaline.

My point is that I find it really hard to live in the moment, because I'm only half there, and the other…

So, me and my friend were arguing. She kept saying how her life was soooo awful and mine is so much better. It was annoying the **** outta me! Her life is so great she has no idea how much she has. but any time I mention all the starving other kids out there whos parents have just been shot dead and who knows what else she goes whatever. Ok, i need to calm down because im getting way to worked up over this..  I had no intention of ever telling anybody until she said this:" yeah, you keep…