Dark Rooms

[Marneesha]

Dark rooms with four walls hold secrets and unbarable truths. It's something about the dark, quiet rooms that brings out old painful memories. I know people say what's done in the dark will come to light. But for me it's the opposite what I do in front of others is in the light. But wat I do for myself is in the dark. So it's more of what's done in the light will appear in the dark. For me atleast. Music holds pain, deeper than what we imagine. The artist probably doesn't even know how much pain is in their voice. But that's just me, I hold stuff to myself. Letting people know or in on your problems, worries, frustrations, and insecurites is a sign of weakness. You may not think so but I do. My mind is wild I can't control it. These other beings cannot satify it, that's a challenge that not even I can conquer. I watch and listen to the small minded people talk but they really have nothing to say. It's like a series of repetition. Like watching a rerun of Martin. You laugh and that's all you can do because you heard and scene it all before. You know how the ending will turn out. So that's why I stay to myself, no one can tap into this hidden universe. Lol not a universe more like a treasure chest. U gotta find the chest, then the key. Hopefully you can open it, that's if the lock isn't rusted and jammed shut from waiting centuries for you to find the lost key. Life is an unpredictible gift where your eyes are blind folded. You never know where your going even when you do. Nobody knows we just play the game until the game is over. What are haters? Lol it's funny becuase everybody have them except me. Why is that? Or maybe I do, and never paid attention because I give no one the time of day. Or maybe those who are claiming they have them really don't. It's all in their head the only person that's hating on them is them. They take one step forward and two steps back. Fighting with their conscious and subconscious minds with their insecurities they endore but try hard to reject them with a facade. Put that togther they are their own haters and they are fake to themselves. What I just said I don't know just speaking my mind. If someone read this they would say I'm crazy. But if they were like me they would say this girl has a lot of meaningful things to say. But guess what? I'm the only person like me so I can't be mad if an individual hasn't reached my level of mentality. People unlike me would call that..how do you sAy it? A hater? Jealousy? Lol no what a pitiful world we live in. We were born to struggle and die. With the hope that in between those two events we witness love, fortune, happiness, and reproduction, just not In that order. A few of them things I listed are unrealistic. But 1 out of 4 isn't bad. But the 1 which is reproduction is often frown upon as if offspring, babies, and extention of you whatever you wanna call it is some form of punishment. But success is not how much money you have and how you live. It's how well an organism can reproduce. And you now understand why I don't give these superficial, ignorant, shallow, and uneducated people the time of day. Call me stuck up, rude, a bitch or whatever you want, you forgot to call me an individual. And I'm no longer ashamed of that.

[Marneesha]

Yeah, when i wrote this i was in a whole other mindset, now i barely understand what i was talking about.

[stormy]

What's done in the light will appear in the dark.  Never looked at it that way but I so agree with you.  It's true.