I have been going through these dangerous mood swings. I know i suffer from depression but it seems like it happens it episodes because im not depressed all the time. I feel like i kind of just float…

[Marneesha]

I have been going through these dangerous mood swings. I know i suffer from depression but it seems like it happens it episodes because im not depressed all the time. I feel like i kind of just float through life as if i was like born and i feel like i was born in the wrong generation or something, it just seems off. this daydreaming is starting to get in the way, it has gotten worse and i don't know what to do about it. Im just confused and don't know where to start or end but like i said, im just floating through life, nothing really matters no more.

[J Noland]

I suffer from depression too. When I was younger it was very bad and I had some seriously dark times. I think the md allowed me to get through the worst times because when I wanted to die I would just slip into a different world until things improved. I often felt like I was walking through a thick fog in reality. Everything felt strange, even my footsteps. Now that I'm older these episodes are not as severe and in think it's because I have a better perspective and I sort of consider the depressed days to be like a cold or flu virus that I just have to let pass. I know I will feel better eventually. Things may not ever be ideal or perfect but they are at least better. Nowadays I tend to have ghost days where I feel like a ghost amongst the living. I just let it pass and know that it indeed will pass. You may want to talk to your doctor about antidepressants. Maybe you already have. I wish inwould have had them as a teenager when my moods were really bad. They make me groggy now so I don't take them but they have helped me in the past. Lots of people take them, I have to ask people what medicines they take for
my job and I'd say at least 50% are taking some sort of mood stabilizer. In any case I don't want you to feel hopeless or helpless with your depression. I know how bad I felt in my darkest times and it is so awful. I hope you can see the good times that are waiting for you. You look young in your picture, is that you?

[littleschrodinger'scat]

I tend to get into dangerous moods as well. The smallest thing could put me in the worst mood possible, even if my mood was fine before that. I can also relate to the "floating through life." Unless I have an exceptionally bad day or an exceptionally good day, I can't even remember the occurances of the day. Whenever I have a therapy appointment and she asks how a certain day went, my whole mind is blank. I can't remember anything at all from the day. I can recall everything I daydream but I have no idea when/where I thought it up.

[Ihaveitall]

Well, I can't say I've had dangerous mood swings but I can relate to the "floating through life" feeling. For me that feeling comes if I DD too much. Its like reality loses its meaning and, as you say, nothing real seems to matter. Whenever that has happened to ne I have forcced myself to get more involved  with real life because I have always known the next step would be depression. Our minds try to trick us and we have to be strong. And you're right, if we DD too much we start to feel as if we are in "the wrong time or generation". Strange isn't it?