Ok, so for my next story for class, I thought I'd try and write the blog of the person in my first story, Miles.  It's basically her chronicling her descent into madness as her sensitivities take over.  I have NO idea if it's good or completely boring.  Does anyone actually want to read this?  It's largely biographical, so I'm even more connected to it and even less aware of whether people want to read my boring issues.  It's not nearly done.  I just thought I'd post what I have so far in…

Here's the book:  "overheard in a dream" by Torey Hayden.

Torey Hayden writes a lot of non-fiction.  SHe's a child psychologist who has written books about all the messed up kiddies she worked with, and she's one of my faviourite authors. 

But a couple of months ago i stumbled across a NOVEL that she wrote.  It's about a psychiatrist trying to 'unlock' a supposedly autistic boy, and he works a lot with the little boy's mother. 

What's interesting here…

I've been mostly on the outside of my own mind these last couple days.  It feels strange, almost alien to be immersed in the real world as much as I am right now.  It isn't the productive, positive, happy feeling from a few weekends ago either.  Its hazy and dreamlike.  I went to bed last night feeling sick and today a migraine is trying to come.  Maybe its the migraine?  Migraines always do funny things to my brain.  I get words mixed up, forget names/words, get dizzy, nauseous, and…

Last week I made an appointment with my fam doc for depression pills..I told him a lil stuff about my past and of course me being sensitive I broke down crying, well some tears came out and I held some in. I have to find a psychologist or a counselor to talk to..he thinks its what i really need is to talk to someone about whats bothering me. I don't blame him and I think 29 years is the…

Sorry it took me so long!! I've been extremely  busy, we just found out that we have to move out, so we've been moving all of our stuff out of our house. It's not a bad thing though, I've never liked this house anyway! So, finally, 7 days late, here it is, enjoy!:

Maladaptive Daydreaming

What is Maladaptive Daydreaming? A known 4% of the world has it.(10) Most people have never heard of it before, due to the fact…

I found out about this sight in the magazine 'Scientific American Mind'. I was kind of surprised that I am not alone.  I mean, I never thought I was the only one on the planet who daydreamed and fantasized so much but it never occurred to me that psychologists (and others) would studying it on a formal basis. The article in the magazine put a new twist on my condition (or mental illness). I just figured it was part of the psychosis or something and it may be, but thinking about MD as…

Hi, All:

I've been handed a really messy plate of life lately. Won't bore you with the details. However, if I didn't have my fantasy daydreams to retreat to for a stress break, I don't know how I would have handled things. Saved my sanity! An oxymoron, I know.

Hang in there.

Caet

I just found out about this syndrome today, and I feel like something huge was lifted of my shoulders. There is a reason for my obsessive daydreaming!  I was so relieved, I just wanted to laugh out loud. Not only is there a reason, but there are others like me, which was, if at all possible, even more of a relief.

I haven't ever really kept a blog, so if things are getting a bit strange, forgive me. I have to ask you others though, are your fantasies often violent? Like…

what i would really like right now is a hug. someone to tell me that im not a freak, that theres not something wrong with me, that theres something to like about myself

im completely ruining my life. its my birthday tomorrow. now 24 years of doing and achieving nothing, because i cant cope living in the real world, and spend all my time trying to escape in my head.

lately ive been intentionally hurting my mum. shes only ever tried to help. yesterday i…

I was feeling so positive yesterday. Maybe I can blame it on the weather, feeling the sun's rays is exhilarating. I love walking and walking and daydreaming of course. Any excitement at all causes me to daydream. It's sad really that I cant enjoy happy exciting moments in my own life but instead feel this intense need to daydream up a better scenario. Why isn't what is happening in these moments enough for me... if something is bringing me joy in my real life why can I not just live in that…

I took a chance and emailed my prof about my anxiety and told her how bad the smacking is.  I didn’t say it was her that was smacking so much, only “people in class”.  I had mentioned it briefly on the first day, so she would know why if I was flinching or covering my ears.  I told her it’s not a good idea for me to do a presentation with my anxiety, and to my surprise, she understood.  I told her I’d like to do another assignment but would take the grade deduction if necessary.  She…

She has everything in its place, the way it should be.

She has everything just so, the way it is supposed to be.

It all looks right.  No problems here.

Everything decorated with holiday cheer.

She walks the right way

She talks the right way

She laughs on queue

The world is a stage

And she is a star

And she always will be

Because she refuses

To let her fans

Her audience

Down.

She will not…

Dark rooms with four walls hold secrets and unbarable truths. It's something about the dark, quiet rooms that brings out old painful memories. I know people say what's done in the dark will come to light. But for me it's the opposite what I do in front of others is in the light. But wat I do for myself is in the dark. So it's more of what's done in the light will appear in the dark. For me…

I am so happy I found this site.  I have googled the most unspeakable things, haven't we all? Shock Value Education courtesy of the Wondrous World Wide Web. But to google "I pace uncontrollably in my room daydreaming my life away"... even the safety of my own computer, the deletion of history, of cookies... it rarely even crossed my mind. I am a freak. Google has no answers for me. Procrastinate, daydream, cyber surf.. wait I think I am…

First of all, to those who don't know, I have REALLY bad misophonia, which is extreme hatred of certain sounds.  There are some sounds that are so horrific to me that I'll pound on my ears and cry just to try and drown them out.  They're so bad, and I get so angry and horrified.  I've often wondered if it wouldn't be better just to be deaf and never hear anything rather than hear those sounds ever again.  The more frustrated I get, the more sensitive I am to the sound, so it just snowballs.…

The upside down question mark seems to fit really well with that title...

Anyways... This could sort of be considered an extension of my introduction, but I have several things about me that I think or wonder come from my maladaptive daydreaming. And I was wondering if any one else shared that same quirks.

-I am utterly terrible at spelling, and writing by hand has always been a bit of a struggle for me, I just really hate doing it and I feel like I would like…