“You’re supposed to be the leading lady in your own life, for God’s sake!”

-Arthur Abbott, The holiday-

I’m rarely the leading lady in my own life, in real life I shy away and escape to DDs. In my MD world I’m a leading lady, but…

I wrote some poetry on MD. The first one is called Imaginary Friends and the other one is called Daydreamer.

I'm never lonley

because when I start to feel sad my "friends" appear.

They go with me everywhere amd say all I need to hear.

They smile and laugh with me.

Not with their friends while I sit alone.

They respect and apperiacte me.

Unlike everyone else.

But they are in my head,

And I know this, but I can't stop.

Because they fill the…

i have been trying to write down my daydreams, so that i'll never forget them, even if i move on to different characters and a different story line.

today, i wrote for two hours.

afterwards, i felt like i was... tired of daydreaming. it was really weird. usually i don't get like that. i'm sure that feeling will go away by tomorrow, but right now i really just don't want to daydream. but i can't help it, so it happens anyway.

hm.

do any of you ever get…

Ok, so I’ve never ever ever told anyone this before, but after finding this website I think I’ve finally found the courage to say what has been bothering me for my entire life. I thought I was the only one who felt this way, I thought I was a freak, but it looks like I’m not so here it goes….

This sounds really bad but I believe that my MD has come from the fact that I don’t feel that my mother is my mother. I have no clue why I feel like this because nothing has ever…

              I feel like I am in between my daydream world and reality.  I can see everything that goes on in the worlds but I am not there (physically for my daydream world, mentally/emotionally in reality). I just wish that I could become a part of my world. There isn't anything special about reality. I don't feel like part of the world. I feel like everybody is able to make connections with others, but I can't.  In my world there is an honest, true  bond between the characters.…

I've been in the mood to write lately---spent the last 2-3 weeks working on an original story that is not from my daydreams. It's only one chapter, 7 pages long, and I still don't like it enough to share. Then today I thought, maybe I should try writing a story where I'm the main character. The words should easily flow and sound more natural to me. But what could it possibly be about that's interesting? Hm...perhaps visiting daydream worlds?

I imagined it to go something like…

so afew days ago i needed to get up at 6 in the morning for work so i went to bed at 9pm and i DD untill 3 in the morning! 6 hours of DDing and i only had 3 hours sleep and gosh was i tired in the morning, i must of stoped my self from DDing at least 2ce in thoes 2 times i stoped myself i was so annoyed with myself because i couldnt stop and i didnt know why i couldnt but i still carried on untill 3. i ended up telling my self  'STOP!'  and…

I'm tired all the time because my brain makes too much noise. Why won't it shut up? Stop making me miserable you stupid grey organ.

I'm in the happiest relationship I've ever had right now, I don't want it to be ruined by all this paranoia and instability.

Happy bloody christmas I suppose

Too cold to go outside and walk, I'm bored and fidgety. I feel empty inside. Nothing to do, just want to lay in the bed and DD. Husband is home, off for the holidays. I'm trying to be "social" but how can he just sit and watch tv for hours? I want to escape into the other world sometimes. Just wishing to be someone else. Where is the joy of life?

                                                                                          Dreams

                                                          A dream is an escape from reality.

      Reality can be boring sometimes

In a dream I could be a superhero saving lives.

In a dream I could be a superstar.

In a dream I could be find true love.

However a dream is all pretend.

The sad truth is that it will probable never happen

You can…

I live in Christchurch, New Zealand, and we had yet another "once in a lifetime earthquake" That's 5, now, in a little over two years! Ugh I'm getting soo goddamned SICK of these goddamned SHAKES! We went, after the first, like, 12 shakes of the day, and  picked my big bro up from work, and there was a really strong shake while we were driving at 80km/h! then when we got back I found my effing shelves had fallen over and EVERYTHING was on the floor in that little 1m x 1m space by…

I have been going through these dangerous mood swings. I know i suffer from depression but it seems like it happens it episodes because im not depressed all the time. I feel like i kind of just float through life as if i was like born and i feel like i was born in the wrong generation or something, it just seems off. this daydreaming is starting to get in the way, it has gotten worse and i don't know what to do about it. Im just confused and don't know where to…

Ok i have been meaning to do a blog on this for awhile.

Does any one else notice their is more females than males with MDD , well on this site anyway.  I am not sure if this is true but that is what i have seen. Interesting.....

Also i find it easier not to MDD if my room is clean. RANDOM!!!

Recently my day dreaming has gotten worse. Now everything seems to trigger it even simple tasks. Since im always wanting to daydream. Im doing final exams right now in schooland that 100 minuets of sitting down at a time.....and its never been this hard not to day dream. Andmy MD has never gotten in the way of my life this much before. I wason the Internet and found out that some people couldlucid dream (control dreams while sleeping). that would make my life so much easier  we spend 50% of…

Hi, everyone.

I am new to this site, and just found out that I have Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder. I just want to thank you all for joining and for posting often because I found your posts to be really helpful.

I want to try and explain my MD condition, and I also have some questions about MD itself. :

       I am a 14 year old girl, and I began daydreaming when I was a child, around 8 or 9 years old. I have never told anyone like this ever before…

So, I had this poem that I wrote years ago, and completely forgot about until I was thinking about trying to write again. I searched through my notebooks but couldn't find it and then I remembered that a friend of mine saw it and asked if he could use it for a song/spoken word type thing. I said yes so I thought he might have still had it on his computer and he did!

So he emailed it to me and as I read it, I realized how close it  hit home with my daydreaming (back before I ever knew…

I kinda want to make a blog of my daydreams and maybe some other stuff that goes on in my life, but I don't know if I should use something like blogspot (it's free, I think) or if I should just use this little blog thin here... I'll think about it. In the meantime, I'll probably just use this one to post everything. 

--------------------------Ramble warning!------------ I ramble in this.

Okay, a while back I thought I had minor depression, turns out I had glandular fever (by the time I did the blood test it was actually gone, I'd recently had it) and he gave me some sleeping pills, because I had trouble sleeping (that was the main problem), and some zinc, because the insomnia could've been caused by lack of it but they…

So, I know that a girl posted something about "would you watch yourself daydreaming?" not long ago.  Well,  I would really like to see others daydreaming so I can compare myself to them and see what they do! That would be very interesting to me. I would like to see if anyone else does it very intensley like me. Or similar to me even, because that would be a relief and varify that I am normal. If any of you know of any videos, let me know. I saw some on youtube, but it was a bit…

September 28th: 38 day driving license challenge.

November 4th, exam day... Well... -Experience is what you get, when you didn't get what you wanted- R Pausch. 

I've never failed anything I've worked so hard for before.…