Hi, everyone!

[Jennifer]

Hi, everyone.

 

I am new to this site, and just found out that I have Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder. I just want to thank you all for joining and for posting often because I found your posts to be really helpful.

 

I want to try and explain my MD condition, and I also have some questions about MD itself. :

       I am a 14 year old girl, and I began daydreaming when I was a child, around 8 or 9 years old. I have never told anyone like this ever before because I found it to be humiliating, but since we are all alike, I have decided to connect with others like me. I have all of the symptoms of MD, and music and TV shows usually trigger my daydreaming sessions. But what I am most concerned about is the fact that I don't do what I would necessarily call 'daydreaming.' I sort of 'act out my fantasies.' Like a play. I go up to my bedroom and blare music, and make up some kind of story, usually containing the same characters and plot, and just act away. I have this image in my mind of a girl, and I pretend I am her. She's a little Gothic, she has purple eyes, she wears purple lipgloss, and she's just...Gorgeous. I am explaining this because I have heard from a YouTuber that a person with MD, usually girls, plan out a character in their head and it could often be seen as an image of yourself, aka, the daydreamer. And that's what I do. I think of this fictional girl as "me" in my daydreams.

 Here's a link, I have a Photobucket account, and I edited this photo of a girl to my satisfaction and posted it to my Photobucket account. 

http://s803.photobucket.com/albums/yy315/kat2156/?action=view&c...

 

I also have an emotional connection with my fictional characters.

Even though I don't really daydream, does this sound like MD to anyone? Does anyone else do this?

 I'm sorry this is so dang long, I'm just so confused because I found out about MD on complete accident and realized that I have all of the symptoms except for the excessive daydreaming...I excessively 'act out my fantasies.' I am embarrassed of this, and tired of feeling guilty about this...It's really humiliating that I am 14 and do something like this, but I just need answers, please. Please, I'm practically begging, this is something I have kept quiet for numerous amounts of years, and I am hoping to God that someone will be able to understand exactly what I am talking about. Please, please please comment. Thank you SO, so much everyone. I hope I don't come off as annoying, haha, I am just so confused, and I find that this site and you great people may be able to answer most of my questions for me. Thank you!!

 

Jennifer. :)

[Jennifer]

@TJ

Woow, those are amazing!! You're really talented!

[Jennifer]

That's wonderful, I love photography. :) Haha.

[Jennifer]

@TJ

 

Ha, you're welcome. It sounds like you're into photography? That's so cool!

[Jennifer]

@TJ

I know exactly what you mean. I think you're just an active person, you know? That's not always a bad thing. :) I am just like you. ^^

[Jennifer]

@TJ

It sounds like an age situation. I think most younger kids/teenagers would use cartoon character rather than real-life people. I guess it's just because of the technology and cartoons today? I don't really know what else it could be. Maybe just the maturity.

[Jennifer]

@M

Hi again! :P Ha, I think it's easier for some people to think their daydreams rather than act them out.  I've just been acting ever since I was younger, I guess it kind of just stuck, lol. 

You sound EXACTLY like me with the whole editing photos thing! I cannot just imagine my characters, I find it too difficult. I will surf the 'net FOREVER just trying to find a new photo of a character to edit. :/ Kind of stupid, lol, but I can't seem to break the habit. :/ Ha, I laughed when your mom says it "shakes the house," lol! How destructive can daydreaming mbe? xD

It's funny that you asked if I could daydream without acting them out because just yesterday I found myself wandering and pacing around in a store daydreaming in my head. Then I started to realize how much I actually do daydream without acting them out, mostly in public. I realized how much my MD actually cuts into and affects my life. Usually when I'm out of the house with my friends or family, I start to think about my daydream and think out more of the plot a bit. :/ Kind of embarrassing. :P

[debbie downer]

haha, i'm so glad i made your day! :D

there are lots of people on this website that act out their daydreams, so one day i thought i would try it... i couldn't do it. xD actually talking out loud to my characters made me feel like i was insane, so i just stopped. the pacing makes me feel insane a lot of the time, though. xD i walk around in circles through my living room and my kitchen until my mom yells at me from upstairs to stop because i'm "shaking the whole house"... sometimes it turns into running without me realizing it. :P

yeah, i love editing pictures of my characters because i like to look at them in real life instead of just imagining them. i'm not good enough at editing to make them look exactly like my characters, but i get them to look pretty close. but of course the person who i based my main character's looks off of just had to go and get like 328473205732095 tattoos, so now i can't edit them off of him anymore or else it looks awful. -_-

can you daydream without acting out your daydreams? because i can daydream without pacing, like i daydream when i'm bored in class all the time. i also like  to daydream while lying down. that's when i think of the more calm (not the right word but whatever xD) parts of my daydreams.

[Jennifer]

@M

 

Woow!! I am PSYCHED to read your post! Thank you for informing me about your MD! So far, you sound most similar to me! Wow, I also keep a whole Photobucket full of photos of cartoon characters or people I found on Google Images and edit them to my satisfaction. I know what all of my characters look like, and I know their personalities.

You said you have one continuous daydream story? So do I...Sorry if I made that unclear. :/ I just have one storyline, and every time I daydream, I add to it as well. It's kind of embarrassing because when I act my daydreams out, I get lost in them, like I just lose everything around me and don't realize how loud I'm actually speaking. But it's weird, I feel like I'm crazy because I talk to "people" who aren't there. But it's always reassuring to know I'm not the only one. ^^ Thank you for commenting, this seriously just made my day!! We seem to have so in common!

[debbie downer]

hi jennifer! (:

i'm also 14, & i've had MD since i was 8 or 9, too!

that character that you described sounds so much like one of my earlier characters. i stopped daydreaming about her when i was 12, but she looked a lot like that, and instead of having purple eyes, she had one green eye and one blue eye. xD

i don't really act out my daydreams. sometimes i might mouth the words that my characters are saying to each other.

the only thing that sounds different to me about your daydreams, is that you make up different daydream stories each time instead of having one daydream story that you keep adding on to. but i've seen other people on this website that do that too, so it sounds to me like you do have MD.

oh, and i also like to edit pictures of my characters! i have a whole photobucket album filled with pictures of celebrities that i edit to look like my characters. xD but i keep mine on private because i don't want people looking at it and being like "...why did she edit the tattoos off of this celebrity that's so weird" or "why did she put glasses on him wtf" xD

but yeah, welcome to wild minds! :3 there are actually a lot of people our age on here. i've never really talked to any of them, but i've seen them post things, haha.

[Jennifer]

@TJ

Haha, you are absolutely right...This is all shockingly new to me. But one day I will meet them, haha! Glad to know I'm not alone. That's always reassuring. ^^