Where wild minds come to rest
I am new to this site, and just found out that I have Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder. I just want to thank you all for joining and for posting often because I found your posts to be really helpful.
I want to try and explain my MD condition, and I also have some questions about MD itself. :
I am a 14 year old girl, and I began daydreaming when I was a child, around 8 or 9 years old. I have never told anyone like this ever before because I found it to be humiliating, but since we are all alike, I have decided to connect with others like me. I have all of the symptoms of MD, and music and TV shows usually trigger my daydreaming sessions. But what I am most concerned about is the fact that I don't do what I would necessarily call 'daydreaming.' I sort of 'act out my fantasies.' Like a play. I go up to my bedroom and blare music, and make up some kind of story, usually containing the same characters and plot, and just act away. I have this image in my mind of a girl, and I pretend I am her. She's a little Gothic, she has purple eyes, she wears purple lipgloss, and she's just...Gorgeous. I am explaining this because I have heard from a YouTuber that a person with MD, usually girls, plan out a character in their head and it could often be seen as an image of yourself, aka, the daydreamer. And that's what I do. I think of this fictional girl as "me" in my daydreams.
Here's a link, I have a Photobucket account, and I edited this photo of a girl to my satisfaction and posted it to my Photobucket account.
I also have an emotional connection with my fictional characters.
Even though I don't really daydream, does this sound like MD to anyone? Does anyone else do this?
I'm sorry this is so dang long, I'm just so confused because I found out about MD on complete accident and realized that I have all of the symptoms except for the excessive daydreaming...I excessively 'act out my fantasies.' I am embarrassed of this, and tired of feeling guilty about this...It's really humiliating that I am 14 and do something like this, but I just need answers, please. Please, I'm practically begging, this is something I have kept quiet for numerous amounts of years, and I am hoping to God that someone will be able to understand exactly what I am talking about. Please, please please comment. Thank you SO, so much everyone. I hope I don't come off as annoying, haha, I am just so confused, and I find that this site and you great people may be able to answer most of my questions for me. Thank you!!