I have been suffering from MDD for as long as I can remember. I just never knew what it was called. Now that I know I have more hope than ever that I’ll be able to stop daydreaming. There are other people who do this. It has a name. People know about it. This is huge for me. I’ve been living in shame thinking I was the only one who did this. I was afraid even to tell my therapist about it because I was afraid I had schizophrenia or something awful that would mean I’d have to go on medication…

So far since i joined the chat i have talked and interacted on forums  a lot and it seems our DDs got as most common themes:

. your ideal self in a plot line you invented or in a plot line that follows events in real life

. a character and a plot line that could be a version of you, a character created by you or a character from a book/movie/tvseries/anime.

. romantic relationships and obsessions over celebrities or real…

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So the other day I was fed up with daydreaming and decided I needed some answers to clear all the clutter in my head. 

So I went to go see a therapist. Except that she wasn't real and she was just another made-up character in my head. In fact, she had her own made-up little office and made-up desk and I sat there in my daydream talking to her about my daydreams. 

And this actually helped me gain some insight into my daydreams (why I feel compelled to daydream,…

For quite a while now I have been saddened about how society labels you with a social reputation, and it sticks to you forever.  When this reputation sticks it basically prevents you from changing your personality. 

For a while now I have wanted to change mine from being energetic and outgoing to something else. Because unlike when I first started going to school I a sometimes scared to meet or talk to people from time to time. But with my social reputation, I feel that I have…

                Inspiration. I’m constantly asked “What inspires you to write?”, whether it is by an online quiz or an actual person. I am then expected to answer the question in one to two sentences, no more or no less. This question then leaves me staring at my interviewer, open-mouthed and distant, for at least several moments. No, it is not because I have no inspiration… It is because I seem to have too much.

                I am inspired the moment I wake up in the morning, by…

I was just curious what the age of our eldest member was.  I'm almost 41 and the other day I was thinking about my inablilty to stop MDing and will I be doing this when i'm 50, 60, 70, 80 plus?  Does this ever get better with age?  I mean are you able to control it more, have more success in eliminating it, or is it worse because it has become such a reinforced behaviour?

Maybe its just me but when I drink, its like the urge to DD goes away. Well not completely go away but the urges subsize in a way. I feel no pressure from the outside world. Well, you probably know how it feels to drink anywway. everything seems how could you say it.........easier in some way.

Anyways back to the point, for the first time i started eeing a phyccologist and she diagnosed me with anxiety, which in her point of view causes my DD. I know alcohol is deppressent,…

Right now at this moment I am going through one of the worst things to ever strike me... EVER. 

It is like I want to do something besides what I am doing right now and just go do something else. But then I think about doing that and then I suddenly do not want to do it anymore...  I hate this feeling, I get it every so often and it just sucks. 

Like right now I suddenly WANT to go play god of war II. But then I think of doing it... And then I instantly do not…

I've come in a time in my life where everything has come to ahead and im uncertain of were i am heading. Even though, being in the last year of my course, less then two months to go, i've come to realise, which is something my therpist has said, even though i'm MDing more and more, The coping, which i use the coping mechnism is breaking, and it's not like that its breaking because i'm starting to get out of it, in the sense life is becoming more and more difficult.

Everyday is hard,…

Well, I'm supposed to be studying... but I don't have my materials... again. So here it goes, SHORT BLOG POST STYLE!

I'm going to use the next few minutes to tell you about a few of my daydream characters, because I have nothing better to do. I'd also like to hear about some of yours, if you feel like sharing!

Please excuse my spelling and grammar. I'm going to make this a very informal blog post... This will not occur very often, I…

Today I was just walking to class, and a girl stopped me. She took the time out of her day to tell me one thing. And this thing ruined my day.

She told me with many, many curse words in it (that I am not going to put on here as I do not know if I am allowed to). But basically she said: EVERYONE hates me, I will never do anything worthwhile in my life, no one will love me, no one even COULD like an ugly human being like me, that I am stupid (I just act stupid alot but that is…

I am just curious... 

Has anyone been caught while they were dealing with their problems? For me I just sit there (or lay down) and just process what I am thinking before I continue on. But for any others out there, how do you deal with whatever you have and have you ever been caught?

I do not quite have the same problems as people on here but my good friend Lizzie got me on here. I may not have MD but I have ADHD. I may not have the same problems, but they are still bad nonetheless. So I thought I would start off with what it is like for me.

If you have ever talked with a person with ADHD before, you know how bad it is for them to stay on one subject. With me it is not much different. I drift from topic to topic, quickly changing from games to music. From music to…

Doctors want to redefine autism

I wonder what I would be classified as now. 

I find that when things go wrong, or dramas happen in reality...my DDing is more difficult to get into. And yeah, I am trying to give it up and do it less and less. But sometimes when things get hard (in real life) I feel like I really need my DD. But it's hard to get into it.

I have health issues and had a few dramas this week. Rather not say what. It might set you off!!!! (; DDing that is.

Does anyone else find this? Reality does sometimes knock the DD's out of you. I guess…

Okay, if you don't like dramatic blogs and venting, this is going to be one so I would stop reading it here.

Okay, I've been feeling quite horrible for some time, umm actually I've been feeling nothing for quite a while. It is quite hard to explain, but it is like I have no soul/have no emotions at all. It has made me think of hurting myself before, many times  actually but the most I do is rubber band snap a tiny bit or hit myself in the head lightly(Sometimes kind of hard, I…

    I watched a man cry the other day. I watched his head drop, and the tears roll down his face. I watched as his body trembled, and his breathing grew hard. I watched him, like he was a movie and I was the audience.

    This all happened as I waited for a ride home, outside of the public library connected to my school. I had just gotten out of a tough lab, and was ready to go home and start on all of the papers I had due the next day.

    As I walked to my normal place of sitting…