A Blog A Day Keeps The Doctor Away

[Stacy]

I have been suffering from MDD for as long as I can remember. I just never knew what it was called. Now that I know I have more hope than ever that I’ll be able to stop daydreaming. There are other people who do this. It has a name. People know about it. This is huge for me. I’ve been living in shame thinking I was the only one who did this. I was afraid even to tell my therapist about it because I was afraid I had schizophrenia or something awful that would mean I’d have to go on medication or something. I have tried so many times to stop and sometimes I have been successful. The longest I’ve gone was three or four months. It always starts up again. Sometimes without me even realizing it. I’ve tried so many things but I think the biggest change this time is that I know there are other people who do this and there is a place I can go to talk to other people who have the same problem. That makes a huge difference. I don’t feel so alone.

So I’m going to try to blog every day for as long as it takes me to comfortably be able to not have an episode. I’ve already been jotting down ideas for other blogs so I’m pretty sure I’ll be able to do it. I need to get this stuff out of my head. I’ve tried just journaling or blogging before but I think it makes a difference if I know someone else is actually reading it.

Its been 24 hours and 20 minutes since I decided to stop. I haven’t relapsed (yet but its still early). I’m doing pretty good so far. I think the fact that I have an outlet is helping me. A couple times I have started to say something to one of my characters and then stopped myself. I feel okay.

[Harry]

Yeah blogging helps. There are good ways in which you can use your DDs and come up with a blog entry. For example DD about some chosen topic of your interest. Often as your DD goes on something good comes out. You will even feel good about it since it was not a waste of time. Sometimes nothing may come out,only repetition of old thoughts. I too blog regularly and DD actually helps me do it though i started blogging to get out of DDs. Sounds contradictory yes,but it just means,i think,that DD can be used productively. I think even Maladaptive Daydreaming can be used productively. I don't have any clear cut strategy on how to do it.

[Stacy]

Thank you so much guys.  It means so much to have someone actually responding and sympathizing with me. I've tried blogging and journaling before and while journaling into my personal journal does tend to help when I'm in the middle of a "craving" I guess you could call it, blogging has always seemed like a waste of time because no one ever commented and I don't know if anyone even read it. I did have one blog I used to do that one really old woman used to read who's screenname was MotherTeresa lol. But she only commented once. It seems to make a difference to actually have my thoughts heard and not just have them be in my head.

@Raz- I have tried so many times and I always end up relapsing too. I think one big thing is not to get discouraged and give up. No matter what it is you are trying to do to quit, if you slip up you just have to move on and keep trying. Don't get yourself down about it. 

[Jenna]

I will try to read all your post. Also have you thought of Tumblr.com. It is a free blogging site and It may also help a bit.

[Raz]

Welcome, stacy. i also recently joined and got the same effect as you do now: i'm gonna stop this. it didnt work for me and if i didnt dd i would actually dream about my dds, characters, and plots. I wish you luck and i will read ur posts and hopefully learn from u on how to stop it. It also made a huge difference for me to know that there were other people like me and being able to talk to them helped me a lot. We all hide MD from basically everyone in our lives so being able to have a place to talk about it is a relief. I'll keep reading ur posts.

[Will Paine]

I am glad you have found out what your problem is. And I will try to help. I will try to read your posts everyday. I am not sure if I will reply, but I am sure alot of others will try to help as well. :)