i havent been on in a while, so im just going to blog about a thought i had in the car today. I was thinking about characters who i based their appearance off of. they look like the celebrity, but they have their own apperance in a way....you know?



like, theres twins at my school. theyre identical twins but they say "we dont think we look alike at all"



thats kind of what my characters are like. they look like the celebrity but i personally think they look different. its…

Hi I'm Angela,

I found this site over a month ago. I was researching a story and couldn't focus, so I googled daydreaming.  I read a lot of the postings and immediately recognized myself in a lot of the posts.  I was relunctant to post mainly because I'm a cautious person. I have had vivid daydreams since I was around 4 years old. I'll be sixty-two in a couple of weeks. I  must admit, the term " maladaptive daydreaming"  threw me a little bit.  I've always considered my daydreaming as…

My progress has been great so far. I've climbed out of the dreamcave's depths, using little tricks and willpower. I am way less absent-minded, and can observe reality almost as well as "normal people". I am so close to the exit...

And yet can't get out.

I just don't know how to live outside MD. It has been defining me for life. I have ways to deal with reality, but my system is lacking: and the reason is simple. I've been always living in Dreamland, and…

Got an email from a coworker, "I made brownies, come get one". So I politely go to her desk, put on my fake smile, offer my fake nice person pleasant chatter, offer my thank yous and compliments. Walk back to my desk screaming inside. I wish I could be that nice person, that happy person that everyone likes to be around. But I'm not. I don't even want to be here. To be around anyone. I would much prefer to be…

Having working for years with my DD and other psychological issues I come to the following conclusion about my DD: They are the place I hide the part of my personality I cannot use in real life.

I once learn that the strategy think what you want, say and do what other want from you was the best way to live in peace. It certainly was a clever choice once, when I was a child. But I just never learned to be myself, to say what I mean to know what I wanted.

I needed a life crisis…

Last week I've experimented with 1-2 tricks from the forums (both happen to be John K's). 

What helps me daydream less is to immediately look at some object that is in the room and imagine I have fired an arrow at it from my daydream in my head out my eyes into the object I am looking at in reality. It causes my attention to…

Alright, this might be a bit long so bear with me. I'm not usually a big fan of sharing private stuff online but I guess I'll make an exception for once and open up to you guys. I, like many of you here, suffer from MD, I until very recently thought this condition was something unique to me and was pleasantly surprised to discover that there is actually a name for it and a group of people who are the same as me in this regard.

I'm turning 20 soon and I'm European by birth and…

Hello everyone,

Have you all heard of that show called My Strange Addiction? It's this weird documentary, on channel TLC, about real people who have strange addictions, or just strange behavior that they repeat.

( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9LY5Z6tyrY8 )

And I know another season of this is coming up, and I thought 'Well, maybe...Just maybe I could sign up for it and describe my…

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/daydreaming/2012/10/06/maladaptive-daydreaming

As you've all noticed, I haven't come on this site in a long time. Well during the summer, I told my bestfriend about my MD and about this site. She was supportive towards my MD and she didn't think I was crazy. But she wasn't too fond of me coming on this site. She says that I should focus on reality and interacting with real people more. She thinks that I come on this site for comfort knowing that there are people like me. She argues that if she looks up her insecurities as well, she…

It seem the most stupid idea I had for a while. But just now I feel trying anything for a change. I just feel so tired all the time.

So my eyes are dry. Its quite common problem for people working on computer. But the eye drops I used are not working anymore. I'm trying gel. But I just begynn to ask myself what is the psychological meaning of dry eyes. I am going to a therapist who is very focus on body, learn me to breath or to sit relax.

So what is the psycological meaning of…

When I first started on the internet, in around 2000, I did several searches on daydreaming, and variations using other words.  I never found anything helpful, and after sporadically trying for a few years, I had given up.  For some reason three days ago I tried again and was startled to discover this site and to read the paper by Jayne Bigelsen and Cynthia Schupak (Compulsive fantasy: Proposed evidence of an under-reported syndrome through a systematic study of 90 self-identified…

CHAPTER 1:

          No man is an island, but give him a workforce and he can build one. All he needs is the passion to succeed and a willing crowd, a rare combination in this egotistic society. Imagine, however, an individual, no one special, but one who has an idea. The idea is to gather a crowd of other individuals like him self. Now, as the saying goes, "three's a crowd", but how about three thousand, three million even. An endless…

In the morning when I woke up I started DD.  I wish I could enjoy the time with my son and not DD.   I also surfed the Internet looking at the lives of certain celebrities which is also a trigger for my MD.  Any time I am walking (normally with music but can be without) I also DD.  One day I think I daydreamed so much that I had a headache.  There is cycle-  DD, Guilt, DD, Guilt.  I sometimes beat myself up as to why I can't stop this MD.  Otherdays, I say to myself it is a condition you are…

I am obsessed with figureing out why I DD about certain things. I think I am finally starting to see a pattern, at least with some themes. For example, at times when I am needing to be neutured I DD about a child, one who needs to be cared for. So I in the DD become the care giver, that I really need in real life. I finally made the connection yesterday when I was really angry at my husband for acting childish and not taking responiblity. That leaves me to be the "adult" in the relationship…

So, I'm going to get straight to the point with this blog post. I know from talking to a few of you, and from lurking other posts, that a lot of you are just as 'socially awkward' as I am. We aren't the outgoing extroverts that society wants us to be.

Truthfully, I believe being an introverted and shy guy or gal has its advantages. But easily making friends isn't one of them.

For over a month now, I have been trying to make friends at my new…

When you get what you want, the daydreams weaken.

After my "graduation" I got  money and sex a boyfriend and a job: I wanted both for a long time and, naturally, they were anti-MD motivation. So I improved a lot during  2011/12. I also achieved things I never could before. 

Example: I had social phobia, but my job was to sell things. Bad match! But I had learned a trick online: creating an imaginary shield that…

"Maladaprive Daydreaming."

So that's what's going on in my head! At last, I know!

...But I still have MD. It can't magically disappear just because I know. Damn!

Probably sounds familiar, right? I'm on the correct escaping path,  but my brain is still a mess. I need to organize it.  So...I am going to write down my progress. You are probably the only people who can understand me, so if you feel that something's off, feel free to call me crazy (it's better if I…

so sorry for the low volumn! I used a new hands free headset for my phone. No volumn control on it. Not sure what I'll do next week. If I have to hold the phone I won't be able to type in chat.