Escaping Wonderland (between two worlds)

Last week I've experimented with 1-2 tricks from the forums (both happen to be John K's). 

What helps me daydream less is to immediately look at some object that is in the room and imagine I have fired an arrow at it from my daydream in my head out my eyes into the object I am looking at in reality. It causes my attention to gradually shift inside out rather than causing a sudden shock transition that will send my mind running back to the daydream for comfort. 

Archery. It  worked for momentary changes of attention. Really well. But only for a short time. 

My "imaginary armor and sword" seem to work for longer, as they remind me how being persistent and facing my problems courageously help me prevail in life. (I guess I am more the warrior type than the archer type...) It doesn't "wake me up" as easily, though. I've settled with a combo of waking up with an arrow and using the warrior attire to stay awake. Childish, but it's fun and helpful!

Another method, which proved very effective for me, is here https://wildminds.ning.com/forum/topics/daydreams-deceptive-problem...

Making yourself face reality can be cruel, but still better than facing more real-life cruelty later! Whenever I reversed my DDs, the result was always a copy of reality. I soon realized I always see things I don't believe I can chase. Yes, things may be close to impossible sometimes, but I have decided to fight fear, and fight for MY reality.

One of my imaginary friends played a major role in that (Teiresias, the imaginary snake I mentioned before). He asked me, "between living all-DD and with no DD at all, what would you choose? " Hard choice, but I picked the latter. He told me that's good, because I have to aim for the extremes if I want to get rid of my problem the fastest possible. And you know what? He was right. Since the moment I gave that answer I started improving rapidly.

After this point things become weird. Teiresias bit me with one of his "special poisons", which made my "dreamer self" separate from me, and get trapped in an "imaginary friend" body. A dying, poisoned body. Since that moment I've had close to zero DD (Teiresias is my most powerful imaginary friend). Believe it or not. As if I were cured forever.  But it doesn't end there.  

My Inner Self  (the imaginary girl that represents my true self) has been holding the Dreamer in her arms, in a most tragic manner, and doesn't want him die. So, during my programmed "DD hours", I've been negotiating with her about what I should do. This has been going in for days, and I know that my days of clarity will be unstable unless I reach a decsion of peace. I am obviously still living between two worlds.

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Comment by Alta Morden on October 9, 2012 at 9:36am

"I wonder if that's a form of Stockholm's syndrom :p"

Where we 'love' that which holds us prisoner.  Yeah, probably.  ouch.

Comment by Gina Black on October 9, 2012 at 8:55am

That is very true, Alta Morden. The truth is, the "dreamer" IS a part of myself. I can't remember my life without "him". I do remember a strong, smart, commanding kid that enchanted every adult, but that was too long ago. I have no idea how that child would have grown up without MD, so I can't relate. The only part I've kept is my smile.

Therefore, I feel empty without "him", as "he" has defined me. "He" has made my life rich and beautiful on many occasions, too (I'm starting to see where the cheesy lover scene came from...)

I wonder if that's a form of Stockholm's syndrom :p

Comment by Alta Morden on October 9, 2012 at 8:00am

Good and very strong point.  As long as at least part of us longs for the dreams, they can't die.

Comment by Gina Black on October 8, 2012 at 4:18pm

All my "imaginary friends" stopped talking since I wrote this. Ah, sweet feeling of sanity...

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