I am trying to write more when I MD, so at least I get something productive out of it all. Here is a snippet from what I was able to write today:

A small girl of 4 years danced on the edge of reality. As she crossed the stone bridge over Canteur creek, her mind made the wilting poppies brighten to vivid crimson. The shade from the trees scattered light on the creek below and a strong breeze blew from the south, ruffling leaves and muffling the sound of the…

For anyone, trying to stop MDing or curb it...  the question we ask ourselves is when does DDing  turn into MD.  How much is too much? Should I not DD at all because it could lead to MD?   Can I still DD but try to put limits on it?  Am I capable of putting limits on it or does it become a slippery slope? Should I just avoid my favorite MD scenarios that lead to bingeing where I daydream for hours on end? How do I manage this?   

 Dr. Eli Somér who first proposed the phrase,…

There's this thing I notice I often do- when I've driven somewhere, usually back home, and am in not hurry, I will sit there and DD for a bit. It's not caused any trouble or anything, though I wonder if anyone's noticed that sometimes there's a large time lapse between the car pulling up and the door opening.

A while back, I house-sat for a few days, and I spent a lot of time DDing, and just lazing around, doing jackall, but I did have to drive a few times. One of those times when I…

well divorce took forever cost my 6,000 and I got stuck with motorcycles I had to sell for payments. praying they'll keep paying for them. I'm still angry and I don't think I'll ever get over it. my boyfriend is great we have little problems, heck my son takes all my time and working part time to take care of him. so I have no money and way indebt, probably if I can get free legal help file for bankruptcy. but that cost a big chunk of money to file so maybe not. I try not to think about it…

I haven't really had any major withdrawals from MD, yet.  I noticed that I am having creative urges. For example, I was walking my son to daycare and I looked intently at a tree and the grooves in its bark - they looked like wrinkles - I wanted to take out a pad and just draw every indentation, curve, valley, peak, shading of the bark of the tree.  I have never taken an art or drawing class.  I think I may just do that one day- just sit by a tree and draw it. Maybe take a drawing class.

I found this poem today and I really like it :)

A Dream Within A Dream- Edgar Allan Poe

"Take this kiss upon the brow!

And, in parting from you now,

Thus much let me avow-

You are not wrong, who deem

That my days have been a dream;

Yet if hope has flown away

In a night, or in a day,

In a vision, or in none,

Is it therefore the less gone?

All that we see or seem

Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the…

I thought I would experiment for the next thirty days and do my best to not MD. Today, there was no MD.  It was difficult as I was walking around the park with my son in his stroller and I wanted to daydream.  Instead, I felt the hot scorching sun on my face and watched other parents with their kids. My son is only 22 months but he always wants to try  the playground equipment that is really for older kids. Really admire his adventurous spirit and his confidence.   I normally now would turn…

I am a maladaptive daydreamer.  My first memory of an all-consuming day dream session was when I was 12 years old. I remember I locked myself in my room for an entire Saturday. I told my parents I was reading or doing homework. But I was actually just sitting there, in an alternate reality.  I remember getting hungry and sweating from how warm my room was, but I just sat there, unable to pull myself out of my alternate reality. I still remember what the daydream was about, but it's far too…

I'm staying in front of my pc right now and I'm enjoying old cartoons.

Being a 90s kid, I only watch real cartoons, if you know what I mean. Actually I think that this whole " brain refresh " thing wouldn't work with today's cartoons ( you have to be handicapped to like them, but that's another story ). 

Cartoons will take you back to your childhood, but it's actually more than that: they will transport you to a universe in which everything can be simple, the world has…

Thursday the fifteenth was my first day of high school and 9th grade and I was a Freshman! All summer I was so excited about high school and hardly nervous at all...until the night before. The night before the first day, I was very, very nervous and had trouble sleeping. Eventually though, I got to sleep and woke up and got ready for my first day. 

The bus was beyond crowded. Lots of Freshman had to sit three to a seat, including me. It wasn't too pleasant. The unlucky people…

Ok, so for those who don't know I have SERIOUS social problems.  I pretty much can't get along with anyone, in person or on-line.  It's a huge part of the reason I'm on Disability.  I couldn't get along with anyone in an office environment or even online working from home.  Plus, I have a million sensitivities to sounds, light, profanity, touch, taste, etc which make it very hard to enjoy hanging out with people.  I took a big step today.  I joined a Highly Sensitive Person group on…

1. Time goes by very fast.

My virtual Sim named Tony was an adult when I started to play the game and now he will become old in just 5 virtual days. Well, he had a successful career, many lovers and a great son, so Tony lived his life quite well.

Anyway, this life is very short. I mean the real life. Every virtual reality is just a reflection of our real reality.

Take a few minutes and remember the times when you were a kid, playing…

My goal on daydreaming is to let go of daydreaming. Letting go of daydreaming is when you stop daydreaming and you stop thinking about daydreaming.I am ready to stop daydreaming ,however that left me with having to make friends and being social. And I am terrified of speaking to anyone ,and everyone.I have to worst social skills. I have to think about my words before i say them over and over in my head. I do not know if this helps or not. I am left with only one option : make friends. I know…