In a parked car. Other stuff, too.

[Wish Upon A Wish]

There's this thing I notice I often do- when I've driven somewhere, usually back home, and am in not hurry, I will sit there and DD for a bit. It's not caused any trouble or anything, though I wonder if anyone's noticed that sometimes there's a large time lapse between the car pulling up and the door opening.

A while back, I house-sat for a few days, and I spent a lot of time DDing, and just lazing around, doing jackall, but I did have to drive a few times. One of those times when I got back, I drove into the garage, put the handbrake on, turned the car off, and sat there for a solid ten or fifteen minutes in my fantasy world before thinking I should probably go inside.

I probably looked quite depressed, sitting there, as I believe I had my head down, eyes sightlessly staring towards the bottom of the steering wheel, maybe towards my lap, for much of the time. I also spent a lot of that time with my forehead resting on the top of the steering wheel.

I probably look quite depressed to people when I daydream, due to the fact that I sit there, expressionless, head down, eyes unfocussed. Well, that's not all the time, but quite often, especially when I'm either in the car, as described, or still in bed.

And those last few words lead on to something else. I am hoping to start studying again at the end of January, and my last course ended... I believe it was the tenth of July. I haven't a job, though I am half-assedly looking for one, but I'm not really doing anything 'productive'. (But seriously, why is the only thing considered 'productive' something that will help me get a job or earn money?) Like, what I'm doing now is dance each week, martial arts usually once a week, though I could go twice, and to Dad's every other weekend. I'm also doing a bit of painting, and have painted a couple of things different to my usual "trace-a-screenshot-from-an-anime-called-RWBY" style. I mean, I'm not doing all that much, I could and probably should do more, but it's not like I'm doing absolutely nothing.

I got a bit off point there, but I've also messed up my sleeping pattern, going to bed well past midnight, and it's just getting worse (it's currently 1.50am) and I'm also waking up approximately 10am.... and staying in bed until 1.30pm, and having a half-hour shower. And that time I'm in bed? I don't even read any books. I just daydream.

Also, my eating has turned really bad. I have no set pattern except dinner with Mum and sometimes my brother, which always happens, somewhere between 5pm and 8pm. So dinner is a good meal I have each day. Sometimes I have another meal, or just a few crap things to munch on, but I'm really not eating much, and I need to eat more often too.

It's just out of sheer and utter laziness.

I recall someone on here mentioning something about us being quite sensitive to the food we eat, so I should probably eat more regularly and a bit better, and maybe I'll be more productive.

But I'm just so lazy, I just can't be bothered making something, or I'm too indecisive and don't know what to have.

Well, 1.57am. I ought to go to bed. Set an alarm at like, midnight and go to bed then, and an alarm at lunch and get up then. Later make it earlier. And a little earlier than that, so I'm not getting up at some stupid, ridiculous time. 9-10am should do it.