Just a thing with stuff, and a little bit if DDs. Not really important, but if you want to read....

[Wish Upon A Wish]

A little while ago, a video popped up on my dash on Tumblr. I watched it and at first found it amusing- I had never considered the idea of someone belly dancing to techno. But I watched it. And later, I watched it again. And I saw another by the same girl, and then watched all the videos from another girl too.

And I think I've discovered my new favourite thing, and will (hopefully!) be soon learning to belly dance. And the dancing has basically taken over my daydreams (which is kind of annoying as I seem to be more inclined to move with the dancing than I normally would be- actually, it's like me singing in a daydream, and I move my mouth in real life.)

So that's going to be fun, how can it not?! But it's weird, because dancing has never, ever been a thing I do. it's extremely difficult for people to get me to dance at New Years Eve parties, and almost impossible any other time. I hated Jump Jam in school, and when we did dancing in year 9 or 10 for PE, I hated it, hated it, hated it.

I don't express myself very often, especially not in movement like that. Like, I'm comfortable with my body (I'm a nudist- all it is to me is another body. A bunch of skin.) But it's just using it to express myself I'm really self-conscious about, so it's kind of scary too. I mean, I don't, won't even dance in private.

And also, the girl in the first two videos I watched, she was in a Homestuck cosplay (dressing up as characters from a web comic) and I've considered cosplaying before, but never done it, and now this video is another thing that's pushed me towards doing so. Whether I do end up cosplaying or not, I don't know. But I've started making a skirt (sewing's never been a thing I've really done either, not because I hated it, I just never did much.) and the skirt is one like Kanaya Maryam (from Homestuck- Google her if you want. It's the red skirt. She has horns and grey skin, btw.) and I think I'll actually wear it. Especially if I buy decent shoes for it. It's a full-length thing, so it may end up being something I could wear belly-dancing! (And if I do start dancing, and my skirt goes well, I may end up making costumes!)

I don't wear skirts or dresses very often either. Actually, I don't think I've owned an actual skirt in five years, and I think the last time I owned such a bright one was a pink one when I was about five or six. And I also only have one dress that I've had for a few years, and only sometimes wear it.

I'm seriously changing now though. Study's almost finished, and there is a place I want to go to afterwards, but that starts at the start of next year, so I'm looking for a job to keep me busy and earn a bit of money over the next six months or so. It was about this time two years ago I started martial arts, (which has been brilliant!) and now it's like, I'm almost finished studying. (about 6 weeks left) I should have a job soon, I'm fighting, painting, sewing and may soon start dancing.

I don't think I've ever done this much in my life. It kind of scares me, but I'm also really excited too.

I'm excited about my future. Holy crap. I think that's the first time I've ever been excited about my future- I've always been so scared, planned stuff but tried not to think of the scary details- how I'd go about doing all of it.