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It makes me depressed when someone watch me doing MDD .because the face expressions are totally different.A lot of time i decided to tell my sis bcz she is the only one in this world who understand me alot but it's very hard for me to tell her.Sometime i feel that i am the most lonely person in this world.I feel that i have no life,no real moments, no real expressions,no real feelings to share with any one and to share with my own self.I feel that i have no life.i…

I would be interested to know if others use maladaptive daydreaming to mask the pain they feel in real life.  I don't think I will ever get over this addiction until I get to the source of the pain and heal from it.  Below are the pains that I feel:

1. Pain of inadequacy.  I had a step-father who was very critical of me when I was growing up.  I have not felt that I am good enough.  In my DDs, I am an idealized version of myself where I am more than adequate and I am…

i lsot my dream journal. i would write my dreams i had at night in them. well i used too and then is topped...but i was going to start again. it used to be in my night table beside my bed. but i was forced to clean out my room with ym nana and everythings in weird spots and i have NO idea where it is. ive been searching forever i want to cry :'(



i looked EVERYWHERE. i remember her picking it up and i said not to throw it out but now im scared that she did.....

like i cant…

i was on the drive home from florida the other day and i was watching a cinderella story to pass the time, and hilary said this:

 that quote stuck out to me because....well its true lol. so I took a screen capture of the scene (well i took a picture of the screen because apperently you cant print screen dvds on macs...) and wrote the quote for you guys. arent i…

hi everyone!

it's been awhile since i've posted on here, so i thought i'd make a blog post, even though i really don't have anything to talk about.

my daydreaming has been pretty much the same since the last time i blogged. i told myself i'd write down some of my daydreams this summer, but that hasn't happened. yesterday, i got bored and decided to edit pictures of celebrities and people that look like my characters together, so i can have something to look at in real life that…

hi  I am 35 years old , I got MD since I was 13 years old as a teenage I loved  daydreaming , it all started  from my school , I was in love with a girl and I proposed her to be my gf,  unfortunately  I got  rejected, so I started to day dream about her, I found it  to be interesting and pleasurable, I was happy to say  at least I didn’t  get rejected in my dreams, so I started encouraging  my DD’s  and then I started dreaming  of other girls, this habit of  my went uncontrolled and…

ive wanted to learn how to lucid dream for a while now but everytime i try  fail. but i seriously want to get the hang of it now because i think itd be really cool to lucid dream and see my characters and stuff. im going to bed soon so i hope i can tonight. i will tell you all about it whenever i lucid dream finally.

I got a wild hair to do a search on my problem of daydream and involuntary hand movement. I found links on maladaptive daydreaming. yeah a name for it, I identify with all the symptoms just too bad not much research on it. I've done it my whole life, even as a baby. when I day dream I'm gone totally in the movie in my head and I move my hands. I can't see my hands or much anything else. but sometimes the noise of my fingers rubbing together "wakes" me up. Sometimes I even let out a squeek.…

Has anyone ever tried cognitive therapy for MDD?  Where or how did you try it?  How does it work?  Thx.

Still neglecting this site.

Ooops.

I told my best friend about MDD.

We were both quite drunk. And we haven't mentioned it sense. I don't remember what her reaction was and I don't think she remembers me telling her. In a way I'm glad. I dunno if I'm really ready for her to know yet. 

I can't get out of my head. It's been non stop dd lately. I'm not complaining but I don't understand the increase of daydreaming. I dunno what has caused it. 

     It's all really frustrating with me. I know what I'm doing wrong, and I know how to fix it, I just don't. I hate myself for that. I feel like I have no self-control or will-power. The thing with me is I always have a plan of action, if you asked me any question, I could give you a life-saving answer, btu the doing part, it's harder. I'm just getting tired of everything.

    Today I've been a raging B word to say the least. My cousin & aunt came over and I wasn't…