hi guys........i am writing after a really long time..

so much has changed.....yet my dds havent stopped at all

i just accepted it...i try not to think about it anymore



anyway.....i got results of my college admission tests(private colleges r costly n

public colleges have limited seats,ergo admisson test)



i need help to decide  what i read....

i dont know what would be an ideal carrer for me..

i cant stop dding.......

n i dont think i can do job…

To the day-dreamer 

I quit daydreaming. I also stopped listening to music (major trigger that I can never resist), limited TV, “internet”, certain kinds of print media  (like women’s magazines) in favour of productive activities. The other rule is that I cannot spend the entire day obsessing about my “self” (i.e. reading up on shyness, introversion, schizoid, identity, self confidence, depression and so on, basically trying to find a diagnosis for “what is wrong with me?”). To give my mind something to…

Today I woke up at 7am went outside to listen to music and smoke a cigarette. While Listening I, like many others, let my mind create elaborate battles and scenarios.

I was so enthralled by the fantasy that I began to feel actual physical tingling in my chest and stomach. A gut and heart wrenching feeling that I assume I would have in that situation.

I was wondering if anyone else had felt these sorts of sensations, maybe even fear or perhaps induced a panic attack. If so I'd…

I applied at the post office a few weeks ago, took the postal exam and passed but I didn't think they would select me. I usually don't get call backs because of poor work history or I get scared and punk out of scheduled interviews. In the past, I always got distracted by daydreams and missed job opportunities. I used to have a major fear that employment would take up too much time. I feared I wouldn't be able to daydream and it would make me miserable and I'd quit. Instead of finding out if…

It looks like a 2 day trip with a close friend and a big bottle of Belgium cherry beer can help me to not DD. Sadly it helps me to not do ANYTHING. I'm not living, I'm  just existing.

Hello, everyone... 

Have you ever found yourselves in the following situation?

Lately, due to what I believe to be gradually accumulated stress arousing from difficulties in my every day life, I find myself repeating patterns I thought I had weaned myself off some time ago. For the record, I have been an obsessive daydreamer since I was about six - I'm thirty now. Those patterns include rapid walking when I'm out while listening to music, acting out scenes from stories I'm…

This is for anyone who has the time and interest for this blog. Its basically just me rambling.

Today, i worked an 8 hour day. For which, i am very greateful for. Especially since Thanksgiving is tommorow. For now, it was just for today, but still, its better than nothing. I hadent woken up that early since high school. I got ready, did my makeup, (which most of the time im too exauhsted to do). I was proud of myself. On my way to work, i tried to stay forcused and not DD.…

I procrastinate and procrastinate and procrastinate. I have procrastinated my treatment, my action, my decisions and now things have come to a head. My parents want an answer by tomorrow. My landlady told me on Friday she’s kicking me out (I am paying rent on time- but she doesn’t like me, I don’t do the social niceties the other girls tend to do). My mind is a flurry of memories and emotions, most of which I can’t control. This has prevented me from acting on decisions and taking-charge of…

            I am not very good at expressing myself so as usual I found something which reflects my feelings better than me:

From a blog on mental health (specifically schizophrenia and emotional health):

We all get bothered, flustered, disillusioned, or disappointed from time to time (in varying degrees), and it would be dishonest of me to pretend I’m any different. If you can express yourself in a constructive way that doesn’t hurt anyone mentally,…

A lot of people think helping someone is the good thing to do. They are wrong.

Helping someone is the Normal thing to do. When you do something extraordinary, or try to do something beyond your capabilities to help, that's when you could say- Yeah, now I really did something good. This way of thinking should be natural for people.

I'm writing this, because sometimes it's so easy, it takes just a few worlds, just a phone call, and you can instantly make someones day brighter... so…

I'm going to do it. I just know it. I'm trying to stop, but I know that I won't. I want to fix 2 major problems in my life by imagining that they are ok. I know it won't help, but I just wanna feel good, imagine everything working out smoothly. I don't know how to stop myself. Right now I'm waiting for my phone to charge a littlebit so I could start dancing and DD. I should be learning for my Latin language exam or I might not pass it tomorrow. I need to do my English essay and working…

I haven’t seen myself in such a state ever since I discovered this site. Ok I was just at home ALONE playing computer games when I started day dreaming, I tried to stop myself but it was so good, I was rolling in it and convinced myself an hour would not hurt anyone. It was Saturday midday and it went on to Sunday, I had plans with a friend on Sunday could not make it I then switch off my phone and spend my whole day dreaming. Today I feel so exhausted like I was travelling the whole…