"I guess it's just because I'm a very introverted person. I may act all happy and friendly when I meet someone or when I'm out with people but that's all it is --an act. The truth is, I like to be alone. I like to sit in silence and just think, about nothing or sometimes important things. But I like to just get lost in my thoughts. Sometimes I throw on an over sized shirt and take my pants off and just dance around…

I know this sounds crazy but I was thinking, what if I did vanish into my DD world, just gone. Unexplained missing person. What would my family, coworkers, etc think. I try to imagine this so I won't be so unhappy about being stuck here. I try to think of how I would be missed, maybe I would miss things here? I even imagine myself in my new world being sad about those I left. But....it doesn't work for long, I still feel I am living in the wrong world. But I have to try something.

I feel like Cassandra. But, I also feel like Fiona, Stokeleiyn, Astrid, Hanna, and about 5-10 other more minor characters. I feel as though I am these people, but that they are no part of me. I don't know if that makes sense. I don't really know how to articulate it correctly.

I have taken time to read a lot of blog posts on this site and read people's stories.

It almost comforts me to know that there are people here that encourage each

other and can relate because we all know what maladaptive daydreaming feels

like. One thing is true, we all daydream because we are missing something in…

(To start with I want to say this post was inspired by a blog by Roobles. Thanks Roobles!)

I think that more people than you could ever imagine have MD. Think about how many people might not have access to a computer and therefore wouldn't be able to find this website or any other website about MD. And then there are the people who just have never bothered to actually search to find out what they might actually have. A lot of people say when they first join this site that they've had…

Last night I told my mom about everything. I tried to start it off as no big deal, but naturally, I ended up crying and saying stuff that didn't even make sense.

She was really nice about it, which honestly makes it worse for me. I feel like the biggest dissapointment ever as a kid. Which I know is wrong, because I didn't ask for this, it's no one's fault. She's thinking I might have a mild case of Asperger's. When she said that I blew up. I was surprised at how upset I…

yeah,

although my DD decreased a lot, there are still days (like these) where I'm flooded by external triggers and the unstoppable fantasies become almost law. So here am I, due to the needing of express my self.

Will be the sweet smell of spring's flowers, or the impalpable rain of pollen that envelops me when going to the university, it seems to me i've passed a breaking point, there is no more way to hold them, and then i start DD.

Ok, DD is creativity but losing the…

So, I once again have fifteen minutes before class, and rather then die of boredom, I have decided to write about life. Not life in general, because that subject would be much to broad, but more specifically the recent events within my life, and all the wonderful lessons I have learned.

To sum it all up, without boring you, over the past few weeks I have aced tests, failed tests, had several panic attacks, and cried of joy. I have lost a competition, and been bullied to the…

               I feel that DD has made me shy. I use to not be shy in 6th grade I was loud and made many friends. I have lots of friends still but I am shy and dont talk to much. I feel that I do not have a personality sometimes. For two years I have been going to a high school but had to move my jr year. I hated moving away from a place i felt confortable. I managed to over comming my fears and made lots of friends. My problem is just talking to them. Its not that I do not want to bt I feel…

Hello MDers,

I know I have posted numerous amounts of blogs involving questions like How should I tell my parents about MD? Should I tell them at all? How did your parents react to those of you who told? And blah, blah, blah. Well, I finally told them what has been going on for…

So most of my characters have pretty strange or obscure names, so I've actually never officially met anyone with the same name as a character. I'm going treeplanting over the summer, so I'll basically be spending three months with the same 25 or so people (hopefully I like them, haha). The foreman has been sending us emails and I just realized that one of the guys in the crew has the same name as a character of mine. Has anyone known anyone with the same name as a character? Is it incidental…

My therapist actually came up with "Maladaptive Daydreaming/Compulsive Fantasy" while google searching the symptoms that I explained to her. Funny. I spent several years doing that, and she comes up with it in a day. Go figure. She asked me if I would ever consider stepping out of my creative world and into reality completely. I said that I would like to manage it better and then move on from there. To tell you the truth, I'm not sure that I would KNOW how to be Cassandra anymore. I'm so…

I feel my life isnt as fun as my dd's. I rather have magic and do fun things than this regular boring life.

Does yone else feel this way?

Okay, in my DD, I have one character who has been around since I started (at the start, sometimes she was me and sometimes she was her, now she's just her and I'm me) and I always called her Girlie (not sure why. Like a little kid calls (somehow I typed 'also' instead of 'calls'. What?) their stuffed animal things like Fluffy, Woofer, Uni, based on either the animal or it's looks) and I later realised, because I occasionally introduced her to friends (In the DD, and these scenarios never…