I have been in therapy since April.  I have been in therapy before, guess it is time again.  In my last blog entry, I wrote that I was afraid if I tackled my issues in therapy, my MDD wouldn't go away.  Have an appointment next week, but feeling pretty depressed today.  I have dealt with a lot of pretty bad stuff and the daydreaming still persists.  I am going to tell my therapist about it when I go.  I feel bad about it now, because this morning I was thinking about my issues, working some…

Hi Everyone,

My name is Jade, and I have been suffering from MD for as long as I can remember. A couple of days ago I googled my symptoms and found this site! I was floored; I truly believed I was the only person on the planet who invented characters in my mind, put on my ipod and ran, jumped, paced, and skipped around the house. I had named these episodes "Escapades" and once was caught by my mother jumping on the sofa. (I'd kept this a secret; only doing so when my family members…

Most therapists in this area only work during regular business hours, and I have a job.  Which doesn't matter because the company I work for just downgraded its health insurance because of cost, and a therapy session will cost me $70 a visit.  I don't have that kind of money.

I need alternatives.

I've been reading a book written by the Roman Emperor, Marcus Aurelius. (The old man from Gladiator). Marcus was practitioner of an ancient philosophy called Stoicism. He wrote the book to himself as a set of maxims and philosophical arguments, so that he could be a better person in his day to day life. I know I shouldn't preach philosophy and religion, but if you're going to get any kind of CBT or REBT you will be practicing a kind of stoicism (as these therapies were heavily influenced by…

Okay so today while doing some research on various meds tht may help for MD I came across this old post about this dude that like tried this drug called "Serdolect"  He says it tremendously helped with his daydreams and even went to say he has somewhat stopped daydreaming all together.

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Today i went to the mall alone. Usually when I want to go to the mall I’ll ask my nana because i dont feel like I can go in store that I want to go in when im with a friend. but today i went by myself. It was a pretty successful day if you ask me. I got ready and im wearing alot more eyeliner than i usually wear…but ive been wanting to change up my look to maybe make me feel a bit better about myself. I didnt know what to wear…..i went though my shirts and found…

I came across this term a few days ago, and I'm not exactly sure what it means, I think it may have a different meaning to everyone, but from what I gathered its somebody who is a bit more reserved, not that they don't like to associate with people, but who would rather be on there own, like in my case I would choose to stay at home and DD or read on a friday night then go out to some wild party. And I have also found myself doing that in various situations like on a monday morning whilst…

I have had MD as long as I can remember although it has gotten more intense in the last few years and is keeping me from the life I want to have.

I am also a very creative person and for a long time I believed that my daydreams are where my imagination comes from - that the reason I can built worlds in my mind within minutes is because I've had this 'training' with my daydreams. This is the main reason I am sometimes afraid of letting my daydreams go, because I fear that I'll lose…

I suspect we all have this problem: MD is just one part of the anxiety-ridden psychological molotov cocktail that makes me so darn special. So over the past few months, the anxiety and stress have gotten worse, which has made the MD worse. 



And because of the MD, I don’t have any friends to talk to, and the isolation just makes it worse. So I’ve been dealing with it by binge eating (I have binge eating disorder as well), and now my clothes are getting tight, and I just read an…

I just sort of forgot about  this website. I think after I got my diagnoses I was a bit apprehensive to continue posting because one of the diagnoses accounts for my daydreaming (sort of). I'm back now though. 

I've just thought about a few things lately, this isn't really anything, just kind of an update mainly for myself.

When I first found out about this site, I did the little research I could about MD, I read some of the common "symptoms" and I remember specifically thinking that I did not have a habit whilst DDing like pacing or tapping your hands etc. And I really didn't think I did, Until it hit me when I was in the living room pacing up and down, I didn't even realize I was…

So, before joining this site, I thought I was the only one in the world that DDed. Now I know that this is not true and that indeed 4% of the population in the world suffers from MDD, the most wild and childest phenomenon ever in my opinion.

Obviously my parents and friends have no idea and I don't intent on telling them. I went to seek help on my own, and found that the college I go to has a counseling center. There, I told my story for the first time to the counselor who was to…

Interpreting  daydreams like night dreams. I have been putting in symbols, themes from my DDs into the dream dictionary to see what came out. Thinking maybe my mind is trying to tell me something through my DDs. Well it does seem to fit me, points out all my bad mental hangups. Emotional needs that go unmet. Yes it's all true, BUT what the heck am I suppose to do about it???? Why does my mind want to torment me with things I…

I normally never dream at night, but have lately. Last night I dreamed of waking up to deep snow outside. Here is a meaning of snow from a dream dictionary. The first part does discribe me.

Snow

To see snow in your dream signifies your inhibitions, unexpressed emotions and…

After seeing a couple of posts on here that mention that persons organisational skills, I had a thought.

How organised, tidy and/or meticulous are you? Is your room a mess, do you constantly forget to bring things to school or work, or is everything set out really tidily, and are you never late?

Hello, everyone. I’m very happy to find this site. My MD has turned me into a bit of a hermit, so I need to interact with people who understand exactly what this is like.



I’m in my mid-40s, and I have avoidant personality disorder as well as the MD, and I’m starting to see how those two issues are linked.



I have an administrative job that pays the bills. I don’t want to risk losing my job or facing other repercussions, so I’m going by an anonymous name (no, I didn’t…

hi everyone;)

there's not much to share but im experiencing something that i think is worth sharing.  im a new member and i log in to this site almost everyday now ive come to realize that ever since i became a member my tendency to dd has gone down.nobody in my family or friends is aware about my MD so i guess talkn about it freely on this site has really helped. do you guys also feel the same?

Hi, members!  

A while back I suspended a site member named Hank for saying some really bad things to a site member.  I later found out he'd been mean to other site members and had made some racist comments.  I don't want anyone like this on my site.  He's not welcome here.  Today, thanks to another site member, I found out he'd signed up for another account with a new name and new email address.  He later told her his name was Hank, that he was from India, and that he'd been…

hey everyone do you want to get rid of MD but the thought dat how your life would be without your daydreams scares you.....r u not able to imagine your life without MD.does this factors hinders you frm recovering?

        I feel so ugly. I hate my appearance so much i feel embarrassed. when i look in the mirror i think “Why? why did i have too look like this”. my mom tries to make me feel better but like, moms are suppose to say those things. i feel like i cant be myself because i hate my appearance so much (i know that sounds weird) but i dont know. i really care about what people think and i dont know how to break free from that. people from school think im weird and i dont have many friends. too…