like 2 weeks ago i was on tumblr going through the "maladaptive daydreaming" tag and someone said "Why isnt there a youtube channel dedicated to md yet". and i replied saying "i would but i have an ugly voice :("

but lately ive actually been thinking about it. i have alot to talk about and there isnt any youtube videos about it exept for cordellias. so i would just vlog about my thoughts and stuff like that, but you have to put up with my ugly voice and awkwardness on camera. if i end up…

Warning … this is kind of dark.  If you’re in a good mood, you may want to skip it.

I received a very nice email from the woman who runs the “Are You Daydreaming Your Life Away” website, after I’d sent her an email thanking her for putting up that site.   She said some things that made me turn around and view the trail I’ve forged in the 43 years of my life.  Maladaptive Daydreaming may sound like a mild disorder, but in my particular case, it has done some serious damage.

She…

I think I have other mental related problems then just MD. but I don't know to explain it, I constantly feel like my mind is on overdrive, I over think and over process everything. My mind feels crowded, like there's no more room in there. I don't know how to explain it. I just feel like my brain is doing too much, and honestly I don't think I can handle it anymore. It's just so frustrating, and in a way painful. 

I listen to blogtalk radio allot. So I searched there for shows talking about MD. None. So I wondered about making one. So the next person who went there would find something. Kind of like Cordella's YouTube videos but no video. It would also be kind of like therapy for me. Because I have no one I can talk to about it. I think I will prerecord it but I would run the chat room live while it played. You can do 30 min slots. Just thinking out loud here. :)

This daydreaming has been something hard and embarrassing for me to talk about. Another online friend told me to Google Maladaptive Daydreaming and I did. I'm so glad I'm not the only one who actually suffers with this. I have depression and anxiety disorder but the MA has been something constant for me throughout my life. The anxiety held me back socially as I was often too scared to go places. I lived with and cared for my mom until she died and then my dad passed away 7 months later. I…

For as long as I can remember, I have lived (mentally) in some kind of fantasy world that mostly involved characters from anime or cartoons. In recent years it has gotten much more complex, consuming and addictive, developing into full blown MD (I didn't realize that there was a name for this until a few years ago). I fantasize about being an imaginary character who is basically who I wish I was in real life. I fantasize about going on fantasy quests and adventures with friends, achieving a…

I started reading cherie curries autoiography and...well ill give you a recap of the first couple chapters.

she goes to a david bowie concert and is so inspired she decides not to care what people think. she doesnt want to be shy and blend in anymore, she wanted to stand out and be who she really was.  she goes to school with red/white/blue hair dressed like david bowie, tells off all the bullies in school, dresses how she wants, and when people make fun of her or say something-she feels…

Hi, I'm new here. Only found out about MD this Tuesday.  I think I might have it.

I mean, I'm sure I've displayed all these symptoms before. Mm, scratch all that I´m almost sure I have it. When I read all of those descriptions I recognized myself in a way that I didn't expect. Maybe it's just that I don't feel it´s so bad to me as it is in others. But then, I've grown up in loving family and I´ve never lived alone, my mother would never let me lay in bed an entire day without speaking…

I have been in therapy since April.  I have been in therapy before, guess it is time again.  In my last blog entry, I wrote that I was afraid if I tackled my issues in therapy, my MDD wouldn't go away.  Have an appointment next week, but feeling pretty depressed today.  I have dealt with a lot of pretty bad stuff and the daydreaming still persists.  I am going to tell my therapist about it when I go.  I feel bad about it now, because this morning I was thinking about my issues, working some…

Hi Everyone,

My name is Jade, and I have been suffering from MD for as long as I can remember. A couple of days ago I googled my symptoms and found this site! I was floored; I truly believed I was the only person on the planet who invented characters in my mind, put on my ipod and ran, jumped, paced, and skipped around the house. I had named these episodes "Escapades" and once was caught by my mother jumping on the sofa. (I'd kept this a secret; only doing so when my family members…

Most therapists in this area only work during regular business hours, and I have a job.  Which doesn't matter because the company I work for just downgraded its health insurance because of cost, and a therapy session will cost me $70 a visit.  I don't have that kind of money.

I need alternatives.

I've been reading a book written by the Roman Emperor, Marcus Aurelius. (The old man from Gladiator). Marcus was practitioner of an ancient philosophy called Stoicism. He wrote the book to himself as a set of maxims and philosophical arguments, so that he could be a better person in his day to day life. I know I shouldn't preach philosophy and religion, but if you're going to get any kind of CBT or REBT you will be practicing a kind of stoicism (as these therapies were heavily influenced by…

Okay so today while doing some research on various meds tht may help for MD I came across this old post about this dude that like tried this drug called "Serdolect"  He says it tremendously helped with his daydreams and even went to say he has somewhat stopped daydreaming all together.

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Today i went to the mall alone. Usually when I want to go to the mall I’ll ask my nana because i dont feel like I can go in store that I want to go in when im with a friend. but today i went by myself. It was a pretty successful day if you ask me. I got ready and im wearing alot more eyeliner than i usually wear…but ive been wanting to change up my look to maybe make me feel a bit better about myself. I didnt know what to wear…..i went though my shirts and found…

I came across this term a few days ago, and I'm not exactly sure what it means, I think it may have a different meaning to everyone, but from what I gathered its somebody who is a bit more reserved, not that they don't like to associate with people, but who would rather be on there own, like in my case I would choose to stay at home and DD or read on a friday night then go out to some wild party. And I have also found myself doing that in various situations like on a monday morning whilst…

I have had MD as long as I can remember although it has gotten more intense in the last few years and is keeping me from the life I want to have.

I am also a very creative person and for a long time I believed that my daydreams are where my imagination comes from - that the reason I can built worlds in my mind within minutes is because I've had this 'training' with my daydreams. This is the main reason I am sometimes afraid of letting my daydreams go, because I fear that I'll lose…

I suspect we all have this problem: MD is just one part of the anxiety-ridden psychological molotov cocktail that makes me so darn special. So over the past few months, the anxiety and stress have gotten worse, which has made the MD worse. 



And because of the MD, I don’t have any friends to talk to, and the isolation just makes it worse. So I’ve been dealing with it by binge eating (I have binge eating disorder as well), and now my clothes are getting tight, and I just read an…

I just sort of forgot about  this website. I think after I got my diagnoses I was a bit apprehensive to continue posting because one of the diagnoses accounts for my daydreaming (sort of). I'm back now though. 

I've just thought about a few things lately, this isn't really anything, just kind of an update mainly for myself.

When I first found out about this site, I did the little research I could about MD, I read some of the common "symptoms" and I remember specifically thinking that I did not have a habit whilst DDing like pacing or tapping your hands etc. And I really didn't think I did, Until it hit me when I was in the living room pacing up and down, I didn't even realize I was…

So, before joining this site, I thought I was the only one in the world that DDed. Now I know that this is not true and that indeed 4% of the population in the world suffers from MDD, the most wild and childest phenomenon ever in my opinion.

Obviously my parents and friends have no idea and I don't intent on telling them. I went to seek help on my own, and found that the college I go to has a counseling center. There, I told my story for the first time to the counselor who was to…