Hello to everyone

I found this site a week ago and now I´m calm and have some time to formulate what I have to say. I do have things to say, because as everyone here I´ve spent time being alone with my MD.

Firstly, I´m really happy to see so many people who can really understand me completely. I read some stories, some discussions, now I have the impression of being a member of an anonymous club. That´s good becase here we have no shame and we can share our thoughts and…

My brother came down from New York because he was not feeling too good, last week. Ever since then our guest bedroom is full because a lady is staying with us until she gets back on her feet so he has to stay in my room :( I do hope he feels better...soon. I have loft beds...it's like the bottom bed is a queen size and transforms into a couch and the top is a twin size. I sleep on the top bunk now. He…

Okay, so. Short story time. The more important part is bolded, if you can't be bothered reading it all.

I did a course in organics which finished back in July. Next year in February I'm going to be studying Agriculture.

I have spent the past four months doing nothing "productive" (aka, I've been earning no money nor received any formal education.)

Recently (and I don't know how it happened, it just did.) I've improved my sleeping pattern and been getting enough / close…

I have tried not to daydream for about a week now. Yesterday and today I find myself doing it and I cry and feel extremely sad that I did it again. “I'm like an alcoholic with an unlimited supply of booze everywhere I go. When I do it too much I feel sick & dazed, yet I can't stop.” this statement is so true guys. today I feel like I am way too late to stop this is part of who I am and maybe I will be a daydreamer for the rest of my life. I feel sad that I cannot control…

Disclaimer

****This is for people who no longer want to have MDD and who believe in the power of Prayer and want God to heal their illness/stronghold/demonic spirit/ mind  torement. I have to share this information with all of you  because Wildminds was the first website/community I discovered about MDD and thats when I realized I wasn't the only one and I felt apart of a special community.

I totally understand if you want to keep MDD or don't believe it is a demonic…

This video is completely AWESOME!  Everyone should see this.  It's not only about gays and lesbians.  I think everyone can relate.  Her 3 rules at the end are great to live by, especially if you're afraid to talk about your MD.  …

Oh the irony... After spending years daydreaming about my characters suffering from car accidents, I am actually experiencing one of those horror stories for real. To cut the long story short, I was struck by a car while standing in the shoulder lane. The impact threw me over a cement wall/barrier. My injuries include two broken legs, broken right arm, knee ligament tears, and nerve damage in right arm.  I actually have a total of seven fractures, but I can't remember all of those crazy…

It went well!  I spent hours making notes in case I froze up, and I was very nervous, but I didn't end up needing them.  He's a very nice guy, and we just talked for about 30 mins.  I told him he could use my name, but it can be completely anonymous.  It felt good to know that my voice is being heard by people in the psychological community.  I want them to wake up and listen to us.  I want them to figure out ways to help us, and I said so.  

If anyone else wants to…

You know, I have said many times before that even if I could be in my DD world for real, I wouldn't because Ideal Me goes through to much pain and I couldn't handle that.

But I've realised a few things.

One: Usually when I say no, I'm thinking of the main part of my DDs, which is pretty negative (though there are high points and 'meh' points)

Two: There's also my 'future' DD (okay, both are set in the future but the first is only a few years away, the second maybe 15…

I wish I could say my mood is on a high, but in fact it's the daydreams. They are back to a high: constant, pulling at me emotionally, and extremely vivid. So much so that at times, the daydreams seem more real than reality. 

Unable to spend as much time at it as I would like/need, I find myself horribly depressed and constantly on the verge of tears. I am stuck in a horrible cycle: unhappy and seeking the daydreams more than ever, but unable to get the time in so feeling unhappy. I…

So, there is a name for this “thing” that I do “Maladaptive Daydreaming” I am wondering if it is a new “diagnoses” as I remember researching it in the past and not being able to find anything. I have even spoke to Drs and Physiatrists about it before and they have not really know what to say or do about it and defiantly not put a name to it or said it is something that lots of people seem to do. How do I feel about it having a semi- official title? Positive and negative I suppose, Positive…

I've started college recently and I'm aware socialising is a significant part of the process.

I think my MD has caused me to become so internalised in that I don't seek much to appreciate about social interaction in real life, especially as they prefer to converse about the usual  matters on a daily basis.

I don't ever blame them, I simply choose not to engage in such matters because I feel as though I don't have anything to add to the conversation where my own…