Oh the irony... After spending years daydreaming about my characters suffering from car accidents, I am actually experiencing one of those horror stories for real. To cut the long story short, I was struck by a car while standing in the shoulder lane. The impact threw me over a cement wall/barrier. My injuries include two broken legs, broken right arm, knee ligament tears, and nerve damage in right arm.  I actually have a total of seven fractures, but I can't remember all of those crazy…

It went well!  I spent hours making notes in case I froze up, and I was very nervous, but I didn't end up needing them.  He's a very nice guy, and we just talked for about 30 mins.  I told him he could use my name, but it can be completely anonymous.  It felt good to know that my voice is being heard by people in the psychological community.  I want them to wake up and listen to us.  I want them to figure out ways to help us, and I said so.  

If anyone else wants to…

You know, I have said many times before that even if I could be in my DD world for real, I wouldn't because Ideal Me goes through to much pain and I couldn't handle that.

But I've realised a few things.

One: Usually when I say no, I'm thinking of the main part of my DDs, which is pretty negative (though there are high points and 'meh' points)

Two: There's also my 'future' DD (okay, both are set in the future but the first is only a few years away, the second maybe 15…

I wish I could say my mood is on a high, but in fact it's the daydreams. They are back to a high: constant, pulling at me emotionally, and extremely vivid. So much so that at times, the daydreams seem more real than reality. 

Unable to spend as much time at it as I would like/need, I find myself horribly depressed and constantly on the verge of tears. I am stuck in a horrible cycle: unhappy and seeking the daydreams more than ever, but unable to get the time in so feeling unhappy. I…

So, there is a name for this “thing” that I do “Maladaptive Daydreaming” I am wondering if it is a new “diagnoses” as I remember researching it in the past and not being able to find anything. I have even spoke to Drs and Physiatrists about it before and they have not really know what to say or do about it and defiantly not put a name to it or said it is something that lots of people seem to do. How do I feel about it having a semi- official title? Positive and negative I suppose, Positive…

I've started college recently and I'm aware socialising is a significant part of the process.

I think my MD has caused me to become so internalised in that I don't seek much to appreciate about social interaction in real life, especially as they prefer to converse about the usual  matters on a daily basis.

I don't ever blame them, I simply choose not to engage in such matters because I feel as though I don't have anything to add to the conversation where my own…

Hey everyone, it's been a while hasn't it.  Haha.... I think the last time I updated anything was about four months ago.

Well, I've gotten back into the routine of high school, mountains of homework, stressed about test, giving presentations and playing in the band.  Sadly my circle of friends has dwindled a bit but one missing piece was filled by a special someone.  I didn't think after sophomore year I would ever get back into the dating game but I guess that's how life sneaks up on…

Transgress |transˈgres; tranz-|

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infringe or go beyond the bounds of (a moral principle or other established standard of behavior) : ex. "she had transgressed an unwritten social law | [ intrans. ] "they must control the impulses that lead them to transgress."

Maybe we're supposed to be talking to actual people and not creating people to act like we're talking to (or thru). If you've read any of my other post you know that I grew up with siblings who…

I noticed there are similarities in both the addictions of daydreaming and playing video games. Just as a kid will whine or even have a tantrum over you walking in front of the tv or, God forbid, BREAK his beloved Xbox, so do I get very annoyed/angry at whoever knocks on my front door and interrupts my daydreaming or building of daydreams. I'm forced to hit pause and I must remember where I left off when I return. 

What's troubling is how sometimes gamers die from playing too much.…

As some of you know, in early September, I went into acute liver failure, and they also discovered blood clots in my leg and lung.  I'm doing better, but it's really scary that I came extremely close to death.  I've learned that having had a pulmonary embolism once puts me a much greater risk of having another.  When I had it, I didn't recognize the symptoms and almost didn't go to the hospital.  I could have died.  Please learn the risks and be aware.  Many people get them after a long…

After years of thinking I was crazy I finally got to meet people who understand what I am actually going through

I can’t remember when it all started but I was very young in my early childhood. I just wanted to be alone and day dream create my perfect world where I can be a superhero. I would spend hours simultaneous playing all the characters I have created in my mind. Once I had an imaginary boyfriend whom I ended up telling my friends about they never met him coz he never existed…

After, anxiously, waiting for two days for Eli Somer to email me back it finally happened. I asked him could I interview him for my book and he agreed. ONLY ONE CATCH..he'd (Eli Somer himself) would like  MDrs who would be willing to help him convince therapists and scientists that the problem exists by taping a few testimonies or Skype interviews with him about their experience. So if you're…