How can I be normal again?

[Mишка (Miska)]

Everything I do becomes a mess, nothing I can do can fix them. Those who make me upset scarcely see it upon my face but those who get in my way are hurt with tongue. I can't love anyone because of my sadness and yet it is that sadness which is caused by being alone. My dreams are good but they only do so much. I want to just be normal but it feels impossible. It seems there is nothing I can do. I try but I fail. I become angry so easily and I become quite sad very easily and when the two mix I feel so helpless. I am made fun of for my odd quirks and attempts to be a normal person. Today I was publicly humiliated by a teacher and the whole class laughed at me and I was falsely accused for speaking slander and I had been doing nothing the whole class period but just reading the notes he had made. I wanted to cry soo badly but I held firm. Even so the whole school will probably be talking about it and I will be mocked with it tomorrow and I had done nothing to deserve this. I can't stand being looked down upon! I want to be left alone yet I need someone... But I don't even trust those close to me... My birthday is in five days but this has been the worst week in my life and it's barely Tuesday. I have no one, trust no one and I wish I could fix that but there seems to be nothing to do... I'm so tired of living it hurts yet I have no choice but to continue. I will always keep walking but I have no companion and that must change I just don't know what to do... Please someone answer me...。・°°・(＞_＜)・°°・。the only thing that seems to be making me better is the song "Real Life" from the drawn to life sequel... It reminds me of my little problem, my friend and my future Aspirations. I just don't know what to do...

[KwanKwan]

i know exactly how you feel. having to smile or stay srtong when someone is publicly making fun of you or even simply insulting you to your face. it sucks. but it does get a little better. i heard it definetly gets better after high school.

i too have trouble getting away from my daydreams, even though i feel like  i need them. it's a sucky uphill battle. But if we dont fight through this, the outcome is so much worse. i want to do things with my life, not just spend it daydreaming. i want to work and go to college and make friends, real friends not these clowns i have in high school. 

And so what do i do? i daydream about the future lol. Which of course just makes everything worse...