I love English. I'm doing it for my degree and I could not be happier with it, however, I recently discovered that my teacher lives in the same apartment complex as me... Not that bad, I can live with that, the problem comes when I'm day dreaming and he sees me murmuring to myself and writhing my fingers. 

A bit of background, my teacher and I have gotten along amazingly, we've really hit it off and he's one of the best teachers I've ever had. After he saw me murmuring and writhing my…

Hi! My name's Lou, I'm a female-to-male transgender teen with MD. 

I have had those fleeting, one-off fantasies for most of my life, but recently I developed a plot fantasy that I'm struggling to manage. I use it to cope with my lack of identity, so I can 'jump into' all my characters. We are all very separate people, we just share a body and memories. There's of us:

-Silas- a 44 year old, strong but greying male

-…

Last year my teacher said that AP Comparative Government was basically a class where we learned about the different governments of the world and how they are structured. I chose to take it because I though it would help me create more accurate and logical governments in my fantasy world, Ellse. 

However, as I discovered, it wasn't simply that. My new AP Comparative teacher, who is extremely passionate and tough, expects us to know already about current events all…

Hello! I'm a teen, and I've had an "active imagination" for as long as I can remember. As an introvert, I've never had any problem entertaining myself--when I get bored, I just create appealing scenarios in my head, zone out, and daydream about them over and over again. Through the years, though, this daydreaming has grown from harmless to somewhat concerning. My daydreaming has become less controllable, and it has become harder and harder to turn it off and focus on the real world. I've…

I'm back for a little while. I stopped logging in because day dreaming wasn't interfering with my life. However, I noticed that the past few weeks it's been causing issues with procrastination, and disrupting a project I'm working on. I begin working on the project again yesterday, which is writing a series of spiritual poems. If I continue working on them then I might or might not log in. I have to finish them by October 22.

 I have daydreaming for almost 15 years ,i guess what started out a coping mechanism ended up being very addictive, 

it was because it allowed to improve ( in fantasy) my real circumstances without  taking any action. i could go anywhere, be anything,  do anything.. as long as my imagination allowed, an imagination inspired by reality. movies, books,..., basically i could solve all the world problems, incorporating real world characters , 

The closer my characters acted like in…

hey there, it's been over a year since i made a blog post on here so i figured i should post an update on my MD and how it has progressed. i'm seeing a lot of new faces on this website, so for everyone who is new, welcome!! 

i'm 20 years old and a junior in college (university) and i live in the usa. MD is something that has been a constant in my life since i was 9 years old, and i've had the same set of characters since i was 12 years old. i found out about MD and this website when i…

just another sunrise without sleep

golden rays hit my cold face

doesn't make a difference

i am unhappy

momentary happiness 

comes back every now and then

makes me laugh and smile

but sadness lives inside me

wasn't this all i wanted

was it something more?

should i wait?

or should i go…

It's a double edge sword. MD has stopped me pushing forward in life and doing things as it can take away days but without I truly do believe I would not be here today.

It shields me or hides my depression from me.

I have felt suicidal in the past and somehow it has pulled me through I imagine happiness and friendships and love but then when reality bites I realise MD maybe causing my depression getting me to stay in and not socialise unless necessary like work.

I want to…

It's been about five days since I've began slowly stripping away maladaptive daydreaming. It's been going pleasantly well so far by my surprise.  In the beginning I told myself I'm just going to quit cold turkey and if I have some slip-ups it's OK and Iv'e been doing just that. I haven't had as nearly many urges to have "my time" and if I do I will only have it for 10 minutes and then be done with it and I am satisfied with that. After I've had my ten minutes I'm good for the day. I would…

like most of you i was blatantly surprised and  happy for the fact that there are more people like me..for now am on the learning phase of my condition.....one thing that bothered me is that none of you mentioned about what language u use in your day dream even though English is not my mother tongue i tend to create a most of the scenario with it.

There is nothing else for it.  I struggle so hard to turn it off when I need to. If I could flip a switch and just stop when I'm at work or out being social, that would be great.  If I could just control it, that's what I would like.

I once had an old friend give me Adderall, and that was wonderful.  And when I drink, it is also wonderful.  Why?  Because my mind can't wander.  

That's what I want; a way to shut it off.

After joining this website I've come to the conclusion that I finally want to stop this addiction that I have. Don't get me wrong I will miss it like crazy and most likely have terrible urges to go back to it. I'm taking this one step at a time because I know something that has manifested itself for over 10 years won't simply just go away. My main character in my world will always be by my side. She's taught me a lot of things. But it is now time to take a hold of my own personal life. I…

I have not been keeping up with the community on this site, which I regret. I was so happy to find people like myself initially – it was such joy to know that you all exist. But, as often happens, life gets in the way. I don’t know how much traffic this site gets or if anyone will actually read my little scribe, but I can’t think of who else might understand what I am going through. And I just need to get my thoughts out there. The thing is, what I recall from my limited presence here is…

When I found out that this website was a thing, I was overjoyed. Me and my best friend both share this condition and it is something we bond over immensely. But seeing a whole community coming together and  sharing their stories is pretty amazing. Maladaptive Daydreaming started for me at a young age of probably seven. My mom was diagnosed with paranoia and was in and out of hospitals that whole year so I lived with my grandparents for the remainder of that time. Their neighbors had a swing…

Desiderata



Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,

and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,

be on good terms with all persons.

Speak your truth quietly and clearly;

and listen to others,

even to the dull and the ignorant;

they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,

they are vexations to the spirit.

If…