just a try

[Kal]

just another sunrise without sleep

golden rays hit my cold face
doesn't make a difference
i am unhappy

momentary happiness 
comes back every now and then
makes me laugh and smile
but sadness lives inside me

wasn't this all i wanted
was it something more?

should i wait?
or should i go out?

just another sunset
looking at the rays filter through the trees
I feel the warmth on my face
momentary happiness
but sadness lives inside me

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college isn't what i expected it would be like. i haven't been dding at all, i think that's because this entire thing is all new to me. 

i fear i'll start dding soon.

[Fallen Messenger]

I think we call all relate to that poem there. It's good that you're having a break from DDing, I think that you should just enjoy your time without DDing instead of wasting your time worrying about it coming back.