Honestly, I never want my md to go. It's been with me ever since I watched my first episode of Buffy the Vampire Slayer

and ever since then i've just developed a whole new world using the characters from that show. In all honesty I've just presumed I have MDD considering most of what Eli Somer, who has presented this theory, has said matches what's been happening to me for a solid 10 years or so.

A friend pointed out to me that I create situations in my imaginary world that…

I have been on this site for a few months now and about a month ago Emilia said I should write a post. My two therapists have been trying to get me to write for quite some time now but I have never been good at saying my thoughts. I read the post about soccer problems so I thought now is the time for me to share a bit about myself.

I have been playing soccer since I was three years old. I was a year and a half before I started…

Dear all,

I was curious to see if there is a correlation between personality types and MD. I have had MD for as long as I can remember. But I am also an INFP- which an introverted idealist. What personality type are you? And are you an introvert or an extrovert? Just wanted to see if there was any correlation

This is my first day trying to blog each day. Ironically enough, I thoroughly enjoy writing and  have tried to blog before. Clearly unsuccessfully in the blogging department. After finding this site though I feel less alone. I feel as if there are people out there who understand what I am going through and can possibly help me to learn how to cope. I am very excited to begin this new chapter, or I should say newest chapter of my life. Yesterday was extremely emotional for me. I had to say…

As a fellow person with MD, I know how vivid the fantasies can be; I also know that some people cope with their struggle through a variety of art mediums. As a project, I was intending to create an online art gallery to exhibit some of it. For anyone who is gifted artistically, and has a voice they would like to share, feel free to share your work with me. So far, this is in the planning stage (I don't know how far I'm going to take it yet), but I'd like to see if anyone is interested in it.…

Probably a day or so ago i actually discovered the term "Maladaptive Daydreaming". When i googled it i was so shocked at how the description matched what i've been going through for about 7 years now. My main trigger is music. I pace in my room every day for hours listening to music and my mind going to another place. Until the other day before i finally talked to my mom about it, i thought that most of my family just assumed that i was dancing to music in my room, but it turns out that my…

Damn. I've been dealing with MD since I was prepubescent and it's only on my 18th july 5th that I learn how my issue is called and that there's a whole community built for it. Despite how disappointed I am by the apparent weakness of my google-fu, more than anything, I am relieved. Worse yet, happy! Happy to have found people I can relate to.

The fact that y'all are all here, talking, sharing your experience, existing and stuff? It makes me happy. So thank you.

I'd like…

Hi everyone, it's been a while. Something weird has happened to me and I have been debating whether or not to post about it. But I think this is important since so many of us are hoping for a cure for MD or at least to know what it's like for it to stop. This has just been my experience and I'm sure someone else may have a totally different story. I don't want to give the impression that it's better to have MD than to be free of it! I am not taking any sort of drug or…

At first glance, I may not seem like a real person. I am. I am oursecretstories. I run the tumblr blog: oursecretstories (http://oursecretstories.tumblr.com/) The purpose of this blog is to create a confidential and anonymous (if you choose) environment for those who wish to talk about the daydreams specifically. You can talk about characters, tendencies, themes, as well as a variety of other things. I've even been collecting songs that…

hi,

I'm new to this site and not really sure how i works yet. I've had md for the past ten years and it seemed to take over my life completly more or less straight away. I thought I was the only person in the world who had this problem. I find that music triggers me to dd. when i first started doing it i felt it was the only way i could keep my sanity and that when things got better in my real life I would be able to just stop. However that was not te case ,ten years down the line i…

I've had romantic daydreams about idealized crushes for years. When I'm in an intense romantic DD, it can feel incredibly real. When I'm lounging around or lying in bed I'll imagine cuddling with an imaginary lover, gazing into each others' eyes, kissing or whispering sweet nothings and it's like I can really feel him there. It's like I can almost physically sense his love for me and mine for him. And those types of DDs leave me wondering, is that what love is supposed to feel like in real…

I apologize if this is personal for a few of you but I was wondering what some of your dating lives are like? This has been on my mind recently because I've been going to a lot of family gatherings and it is always the same thing.. everyone shows up with their significant other at the time, even my cousins that are younger than me. As far as my aunts and uncles/grandparents are aware of I have never been in a relationship.

The thing is, I am almost twenty years old and I have…

Today, I went for training. Well this girl who's also taking the same job as me was in my class. She had a disorder. It was pretty obvious since she'd always get anxious when ever she heard a loud noise. Then she would start moving her hands back and forth really fast. She told the teacher that she won't stab anyone or anything but she is diagnosed with mental disorders. What upset me is the fact that the teacher completely mocked her in class, gave her dirty looks throughout class and said…

Today I finally got prescribed for some medicine for my ADD. I am taking Vyvanse. I'm starting off one pill in the morning. I took one today, early afternoon. As soon as I took it I felt amazing. It's like my senses came to life, I was happy, less drowsy, more focused, didn't care what people thought, less random thinking, less self-consious, didn't…

I just want to know if anyone can relate to how I feel or if anyone experiences the world similarly.

The best way I can describe my case is by alluding to the matrix. For those of you who aren't familiar with this film, 1. shame on you and 2. go research it a little before continuing to read this blog.

Anyways, the way in which neo perceives the "matrix" world fundamentally changes after he realizes the truth. When he comes back into the matrix, he perceives it…

First of all, sorry for not posting in a long time.  I still come on here several times a day to approve new members and read some posts.  I've just been really busy and stressed out with school.  as some of you may remember, I suffer from extreme anxiety.  I'm pretty much constantly afraid that my whole world is going to come crashing down at all times.  add to that the pressure of school, and you can imagine what my life has been like.  Plus, I've been extra stressed because it's my last…

Yesterday, my best friend read me a tweet:

"The best person in your life is the one who comes first in your mind after reading this sentence."

Instead of thinking of my best friend..... I thought of a character from one of my DDs. I felt really awkward. I should have thought of my friends and family. Or God, even though he's technically not a "person." I shouldn't have thought of a…

I participate in this site because I do have "issues" with daydreaming and fantasizing. I have no interest in hijacking the site, a thread, or a chat conversation. A significant portion of this sites participants  self report experiences and personal realities that would cause myself and other multiples to say, "Yep, you are one of us!".

With that in mind I will be posting a few articles that I have written over the years as well as supplying a bunch of links to a wealth of…

I've been watching this site for awhile and have decided to join, because I want to stop MDing. I think if I track my progress up here it will help, even if no one ever looks on my page.  I've been doing it since 11(so it's been 14 years) and it has gotten really bad over the last two years. Everything seems to trigger it: music, tv, radio, reading, non strenuous exercise (because I skip or pace when I dream), quite moments, and anything that reminds me of my  storylines in my head. It's…